A new Beginning
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There can be no end without a beginning, but for John Martin his story begins at middle age for that is when his life began. Before then he lived his life day by day just going through the motions without the enthusiasm that he once had known. There was no anticipation of what tomorrow and each new day would bring. As a kid he was full of that excitement, the challenge of making his dreams a reality. Now, there was none of that but emptiness.
In its place was a wife who harped as she went through her day as a suburban housewife. Was John going through a midlife crisis as his wife had implied? He wondered if maybe she was right. Was it the stress of the job and all that hours that he was putting in? He had worked long hours all his life but now, he found that he was tense and argumentative all the time. His sons whom he adored complained that he was otherwise engaged. He couldn't explain an anxiousness that sometimes felt likes it was going to consume him? A feeling that there was something pressing at him that needed to be resolved but he didn't know how to address it. It was becoming obvious that he was distracted and promised himself that he would see his internist in the next few weeks.
The parking lot was jammed as it was each morning as John hurried to catch the sixty thirty train that he heard rumble in the distance. As he hurried to the front of the station, he passed the same faces that he saw each morning lugging their computers and stuffed attaches' cases. He nodded, said hello to a few, then felt the cold air as wind whipped across the open space sending powdered snow into the air. The air was heavy with moisture and it would snow again. He pulled his collar up and watched at the train sped into the station.
John brushed flecks of snow from brown hair that was beginning to gray. He thought it made him look distinguished. The leather seat groaned under him as he sat down in the same seat that he had sat in for what seemed liked eons. John had put on weight and now was what people would euphemistically refer to as stout. Since he had quit smoking he had put on over thirty pounds and he knew that he needed to go on a diet. He was fifty-one with three wonderful kids, a thriving law practice and all the accoutrements of a successful career and marriage. So why was he unhappy? He had pondered that question over and over and had come up empty; but as a lawyer knew that the evidence would soon present itself.
The hours ride into the city allowed him to take what he called a power nap. He hadn't slept well for the last few months and somehow the rocking motion lulled him to sleep.
He felt the pressure against his leg and thought that he was dreaming but the heat emanating from the man seated next to him was real as he rubbed against John's legs. It wasn't accidental like two strangers who touch and quickly move away but deliberate. John didn't stir as warmth swept over him and he became sexually aroused when the man rested his hand on John's thigh when the train's lights went out momentarily. John felt his organ stiffening and pressing hard against his pants and was glad that he was wearing an overcoat. That had never happened to him before and he felt himself beginning to leak as the man pressed aggressively against his leg.
Opening his steel gray eyes, John turned to face the man who had made his dick erect. The first thing that he saw was a smiling face and even white teeth. Then blue eyes the color of the sky that looked at John in a way that nobody had ever looked at him before. John felt his face flush as the stranger with full lips said hello. He was handsome and appeared to be a few years older then John. He looked like a college football player that had gone to seed. Closely cropped hair the color of summer wheat framed his face. He wore a Chesterfield coat that was open revealing an expensive suit.
"Was I snoring," John said sounding awkward but wanting to engage this stranger who had made him erect. It was something that hadn't happened with his wife in a very long time. "Was I snoring? The trains rocking puts me out like a light."
"You were fine," the man responded with a smile. "I'm Dan Carter. I just moved up from Ohio with my family about a month ago. I've seen you shopping in town. Now I get the pleasure of meeting you in person."
"So, you're new in town? That's why I haven't seen you before on this train. Funny, but at this hour you see the same faces everyday heading into the city." John smiled. He had a dimple.
"I usually take the earlier train but I had trouble starting the car this morning.
"Where did you come from and do you like living in the suburbs?"
"From Omaha." He had alert blue eyes that seem to bore into John. "I haven't decided if I like living up here just yet. I'm a small town boy and use to lots of land. The firm wanted me here in the city, so here I am. Even though it's country up here, there's a sophistication that somehow overwhelms me with the country club and the social scene."
"Give yourself another few months and you'll be jaded as the rest of us commuters."
"Ya think...?" Dan laughed at himself. "See. There goes my country roots."
"As least you can laugh at yourself. More then most of us do. Somehow we have become cynical. "
"You don't appear that way to me."
"How do I appear?"
"Unfair question. We just met so any opinions I might have wouldn't be valid." He looked at John appraising him like a piece of art. "Do you work anyplace near Fifth Avenue and Fifty-Seventh Street?" He was six feet tall with broad shoulders.
"I work on Madison and Fifty-Third."
"Can I buy you lunch one afternoon," he said matter of fact. "Then, once I get to know you, I'll be better able to answer that question." He reached into his attache-case and fumbled for a card. His hands were strong looking and he wore a wedding ring on his finger. He handed his card to John. "Call me and let me know when you're free?"
John read the card. Dan was also a lawyer. "We both have something in common. I'm also a lawyer. Know your firm well. I shall take you up on that luncheon invitation."
Dan smiled. There was something ingratiating about him. He was manly and yet a softness and sensitiveness came through. "It would be my pleasure to get to know you better," as he pressed his leg once more against John.
That afternoon, John stared out at the city below. He thought of what had happened that morning. He had never experienced that sort of sensation and for a moment thought that he was going to cum in his pants. The warmth of Dan's leg against his body had his nerve endings on edge. All he knew was that he wanted more. John was now aware of what was troubling him and that scared him because he knew that he was now on a collision course and where it might lead was both exhilarating and frightening.
The Following Week
John had lunch with Dan and they enjoyed each other's company. They spent a good part of their afternoon talking. They shared common interests and knew a lot of the same people. They were both corporate attorneys. John liked Dan's honesty and his enthusiasm. Maybe it was the two martinis' but he was in a good mood when he arrived home and his wife noticed it. In the following months, he and Dan made it a practice to have lunch at least once a week and they were becoming good friends.
"How can you be so enthusiastic?" John asked one evening as they were coming home from work together. They both had to work and it was after ten PM and they arranged to have supper together and then go home. The train was empty at that hour and they sat facing each other.
"I'm enthusiastic because I'm with a friend that I like and care for," Dan said. "John, you've made me feel really welcome, introducing me to your friends. Even with business you have been there for me. I'm lucky in many ways."
"Lucky? In what way?" John asked.
"Yes, lucky. I like what I'm doing and having a wife that understands me and my needs."
John began to laugh. "She understands what she wants to understand as long as she is in control. And by the way, what are your needs?"
Dan rested his hand on John's knee. It was done naturally as they sat there and talked. John felt the stir within him and looked into Dan's eyes. He had an open face and a crooked nose, the result of a football accident that added to his masculinity.
"My wife knows that I'm bisexual. She allows me my little affairs as long as they don't get out of hand, are safe and I don't bring home any diseases. As long as I don't jeopardize our life or lifestyle, she let's me play. We sleep in separate bedrooms. Does my telling you that upset you?"
John looked at him quizzically, his gray eyes darkened as he listened to Dan.
"Why am I telling you this? I run the risk of jeopardizing a friendship that I have come to cherish but I felt that I had to be honest with you. This is difficult for me to say." He took a deep and exhaled. There was concern in his face and his blue eyes were soft when he looked into John's eyes. "I find you very attractive. Have felt that way from the first day that I saw you.
John smiled this toothy grin. "No, you're telling me this doesn't offend me and in a way I'm flattered. The wife hasn't called me handsome or said that she loves me in ages." He said it flippantly but was letting some of his defenses down. "I'm glad that you confided in me." He thought pensively debating whether to tell Dan about his feelings and decided he had to.
"Dan," his voice was husky. "For the last year I have been at odds with my life and myself." He played nervously with the ring on his finger. "I've had feelings that I couldn't explain but knew that I was unhappy. Feelings that I've been suppressing for a very long time that now have surfaced. In the last few months my relationship with you has made these issues obvious." He put his hands over Dan's. "From the first moment that we met, you have caused emotions within me that I didn't think I was capable of. I do know that I am sexually aroused around you. I've never been with a man, but lately I have been thinking about it a lot." John felt he could trust Dan. Since my youngest was born, sex with the wife hasn't been terrific. To be truthful, it never was. We sleep in the same bed but since her hysterectomy three years ago, we haven't had sex." John felt a relief sweep over him as he told Dan what was bothering him and what he had been suppressing.
"If we could arrange some time together, would you like that?"
John felt the bulge in his pants and felt Dan's hand as it fondled it.
The Following Week
John paced nervously in his office filled with mixed emotion. He had wanted to call Dan a dozen times to cancel their meeting but knew that for himself he had to find out if he was gay and the feelings that were bubbling to the surface were real. His wife believed that he was staying in town working late and would stay in a hotel for the night. She had no reason to suspect anything, as he had often stayed overnight in the past.
Dan opened the lights to the suite they were staying in and took off his suit jacket. They had had a few drinks and both were relaxed. Dan watched as John stood on the terrace looking at the city and Central Park that was covered in freshly fallen snow. Lights twinkled in the distance as Dan came up behind John and put his arms around his waist and held him. They stood there as Dan kissed John's neck and smelled his manly cologne. He kissed John's earlobe and his tongue entered the ear hole and he felt John moan as he licked at it.
"Like that, don't you?" he purred as he turned John so that he faced him. He kissed him softly on the cheeks and then on the lips. "Nothing will happen that you don't want to happen," Dan said and placed his hand on John's fleshy chest and felt his heart beating. Dan put his lips on John's mouth and felt them open slightly and he slipped his tongue into his parted lips. There was a soft murmur as their tongues touched. He held John close then took him by the hand and led him to the fireplace where he slowly began to undress him. The glow of the fire illuminated the room as he unbuttoned John's shirt and softly reached in and felt his smooth chest. Carefully, he ran his hands across John's chest and lightly touched each nipple with his fingers, lingering on one and then the other. He felt the softness of John's belly as the he opened his shirt and then reached down and kissed each nipple. Then he began to lick on one nipple and then the other.
"Oh," escaped John's lips as Dan softly licked one on his nipples. Dan's tongue fluttered on the areola and John's nipple hardened as Dan's mouth engulfed it. Dan's lips were moist as his mouth suckled each nipple in turn tasting salt mixed with cologne. John cried out Dan's name as Dan's hands roamed John's body touching him in places that made John quiver with delight. Dan unbuttoned John's pants and slowly reached inside and felt his cotton briefs as his fingers gently felt the stiff bulge that pressed hard against John's shorts. In the glow of the fire, John stood there nervously in his briefs. It was a new beginning, an epiphany for John as they stood there embracing. John had never felt this way before as sensation after sensation washed over him as they kissed. John was tentative at first and then with each kiss, his passion mounted as the flames of the fire licked at the wood.
Dan's fingers were long and supple as he reached into the waistband of John's briefs. The heat of Dan's hands against his hips caused goose bumps on John's arms. Dan helped John slip out of his briefs. John was beginning to leak as Dan's hand softly caressed his throbbing cock. Somehow it had a life of its own as it twitched involuntarily. Dan tasted the milky white cream that had gathered at the head as his fingers fondled the large head that now glistened with pre cum. Slowly, he moved his fingers down the long, thick shaft making John whimper. Dan held John's sac, his fingers soft against his skin as he ran his hands over the large balls that had never been touched like that before. Dan kissed him with an urgency that took John's breath away. John didn't know what awaited him but he wanted to savor and taste what he had held back and was missing all his life.
Dan led him to the large king-sized bed and licked Dan's earlobes like a cat licking at milk. John responded by gyrating his ass into Dan's crotch as Dan wrapped his arms around him and held him tight.
John watched as Dan undressed in the dim light of the glowing embers. Dan's body was strong and meaty, he was someone who once had been muscular but age had softened his body. His belly had a layer of fat as John reached out and touched his flesh. John's fingers were short as he ran his hand across the soft pubic hairs and down to Dan's cock, which was stiff. All John wanted was to please Dan.
Dan kissed John as they lay on the soft comforter and held him close. John savored his scent as they touched each other. John arched his body as Dan's hand explored his body.
"I hope I don't disappoint you?" John said.
Dan took John's hand and guided it to his cock that was stiff as a bone left out in the sun.
"Does this look like I'm disappointed?" he smiled and kissed John firmly on the lips. "Just relax and enjoy the ride. Let your nervousness guide you. It will heighten your pleasure. Now come to me and lay on top of me so I can feel your body against mine. I want you pressing against me so I can't breath. Feeling you was what I've wanted since the day I first saw you." His kiss was strong and John responded in kind. His fingers held Dan's shoulders as he kissed his face, cheeks and then his tongue licked at Dan's mouth from one end to another before he slipped it into his mouth. It was a new beginning for John who never enjoyed kissing his wife. There was always a rush to their lovemaking, a need to finish as she had other more important things to do. Now, he wanted to kiss Dan all night.
Dan's chest was beefy and his nipples large and brown as John tentatively ran his tongue across one nipple and placed his mouth over it and began to suck. Dan's reacted with pleasure. Gaining confidence, John's tongue snaked down Dan's body slowly leaving a trail of saliva where he planted kisses as he made his way towards Dan's belly button. Dan held John's hair and stroked his head and called out his name as John's face nestled in his soft public hairs. They tickled John's nose as he looked down Dan's thick member and knew that he had to make love to it. Why now? Why after all these years? He didn't know or care. He did know that it order for him to be fulfilled as a man he had to love a man. Would he be repelled by the act? Could he taste a man's semen and not gag? Questions that he had asked himself when Dan first approached him on the subject of their meeting. Now, he was here, he knew that he had to.
His tongue flicked out and touched the throbbing head of Dan's cock. It was soft and velvety against his tongue. He licked around the head and felt Dan twitch as his tongue licked at the perineum. Then John took the swollen head into his mouth. He waited to see if he would gag but instead he felt the meaty flesh in his mouth and began to suck slowly, his hand holding the shaft so he could control what he could take.
"Oh, John, that it. Make love to me. I want you to fuck me. I want you inside of me so I can feel your love."
Dan rolled over and his back was strong with love handles. His buns were round and firm as John felt the flesh. He ran his hand across the smooth melon-sized buns and then kissed each softly. Dan's ass gyrated slowly inflaming John who wanted to know what it was like to be inside a man.
"I don't have protection," John said.
Dan was prepared and pulled a rubber from a night table. "I was here before we met getting ready." He took out a tube of KY and slowly greased John's cock that was stiff and rolled the rubber onto his cock. He then greased his ass until he was satisfied and got on his side.
"Don't be afraid," he said. I will do most of the work. They lay down and Dan guided John's cock into the crevice of his ass. John felt like a giddy kid as he felt his penis against John's touchhole. Sweating, he listened to Dan who instructed him to insert his index finger into his hole. He did as he was told and felt it slide easily into Dan's ass. Dan moved on the finger slowly letting his ass get use to John's finger. He began to dance on John's finger and moaned with pleasure. He told him to insert another finger. John felt his fingers move within Dan and he felt his excitement building.
"Ready," Dan said. He kissed John. "Now fuck me."
John pushed with penis and felt it slide into John ass. First the head and John felt the warmth as his ass engulfed his cock. It was tight and wet as he began to move slowly within Dan.
"That's it sweetheart. Move slowly and let's enjoy the loving. You feel so good in me."
John put his hands under Dan so he was holding his belly as he began to fuck him. The softness of his body as Dan moved his ass to take John's thrusts. John watched as his cock slid into Dan and then out, felt the joy of being inside a man who was responding to his loving. It was a heady feeling as he moved slowly at first and then quicker squeezing Dan's nipples as he fucked him.
"Oh, yes," Dan moaned as John slid his cock in and out feeling sensations that John had never experienced before. This is where he belonged. "That's it baby, give it to daddy. Make me cum. Fill your sweetness inside of me."
Just words, sexual words but they were something that John had never heard making love to his wife. He thrust harder and Dan took his thrusts by moving his hips and ass into John, shouting out John's name as he made love to Dan's ass. His fingers caressed John's buns as he plowed into him feeling himself getting ready to cum.
"Oh, daddy, love me. My ass is waiting for you. It wants your love inside of me. Dan tightened his sphincter around John's cock as he moved in him. "Oh, lover, that's it. You're going to make me cum. Fill me." Dan began to shake his ass now from side to side and up and down and John knew that he wouldn't be able to hold out much longer. He wanted to last forever as every fiber in his being tingled with desire.
"I'm going to cum soon," John cried out as Dan moved his hips so John's balls were slapping against his ass.
"Oh, baby. I'm yours and Dan moved faster and faster knowing he was also going to cum. You are mine," he shouted then he cried out. "Oh, oh, oh my God," and shot his load as John came inside of him. John continued to thrust as Dan cried out John's name and spurted his load all over his chest and belly. His fingers were covered in cream. John stayed inside Dan, unable to move trying to comprehend what had just happened. For the first time that he could remember he was alive and never wanted to leave the warmth of Dan's ass. Finally he slipped it out and Dan was waiting to kiss him. Sperm glistened on his stomach as Dan carefully took over John's rubber and let the juice slide from the rubber into his mouth. He smiled. "That was some load. You know how to please a man."
They cleaned up and lay besides each other holding one another in the darkness. John felt the heat of Dan besides him and felt himself getting hard again. Dan sensed his need and slowly got under the covers and began to suck his cock and John knew that for him this was a new beginning.