Author's Note:
Well here goes nothing. This is my first story for all to read. Hopefully you'll find it interesting to say the least, and keep up with it. All of your comments and criticisms are appreciated. Please let me know what you think of the story.
E-mail me at: rtstories@hotmail.com
Not much to say...I'll say more in later chapters...
Drew...what can I say??? Words can't begin to describe how I feel. For once I'm speechless...never thought that possible. No matter what...you'll always be a part of my life. How can I ever forget something this good???
Legal Disclaimer:
This work is purely fiction. It is purely derived from the mind of the author and in no way dictates the sexual orientation of any of the Back Street Boys. Only in my mind do I truly believe they're gay, and in love with me. Any similarity to real life, or to someone's life, is purely coincidental. It contains homosexual subject matter. If you're not into that, why not??? Gay porn/erotica is way hotter than heterosexual porn!!! Do not read any further if you are under the legal age for viewing this material in your country, state, province, city, town, suburb, home, shack, hole in the wall, cardboard box, van down by the river, trailer home, or room!!!
End of Chapter Ten
Ewan said his final goodbyes, as he followed the flight attendant to the door of the lounge. He turned around one last time and said, "Two months...and I better get a good birthday gift." Everyone smiled, thinking how Ewan couldn't leave a room full of people, without making them smile first.
He followed the flight attendant to the gate, and down the long tube that connected the airport to the airplane. As usual, he stretched out his hand, and rubbed the outer shell of the plane, before he stepped inside. As one of the flight attendants showed Ewan to his seat, the door to the airplane slid shut, once again taking Ewan away from his family.
Because I Love You By: Lucas
Chapter 11
Ewan sat at his desk in his dorm room. Only the dim light on his desk, and the computer screen illuminated the darkness. His roommate slept in his bed, having given up on studying for his midterms a few hours ago. Ewan had decided to stay awake, so that he could get some last minute cramming done. His eyes slowly lost their ability to focus as the night wore on. Ewan typed in the last sentence of the paper that he was working on, which was due in the morning. His stress level had been tested throughout the entire weekend. He closed the book in front of him, finally admitting defeat, and leaving his destiny to fate. He turned to his computer and signed onto his e-mail account, hoping that there would be something there to cheer him up in his hour of need.
Once he was logged on, he saw that Nick had sent him an e-mail. They had been corresponding quite frequently since Ewan left a few weeks ago. Nick constantly kept him updated on what was going on, and Ewan was always there to respond, still constantly reminding Nick about having to tell everyone soon. He didn't want Nick to force the issue to the back of his mind, like he did before. Ewan moved the cursor over Nick's e-mail message, and clicked on it.
To: Ewan edm205@michu.edu
From: Nick blondie948@aol.com
Date: Friday, April 2, 1999 22:16:04 EST
Subject: What's up???
Ewey!!!
What's going on? Nothing much here. We just finished another concert. It's the last one before the one in Michigan in a few weeks. Can't wait to see you!!! We have to get through some major promotional stuff for the new album though before we get to Michigan, then there's the summer tour...can't wait!!! So did you give it any more thought??? Are ya gonna join us this summer? Please, Please, Please say yes!!!
Just in case you couldn't tell yet, I'm still ignoring all the stuff you keep saying about having to tell Brian. I don't want to...I'm still scared. We've been hanging out more...which really doesn't make things easier, but I get to be with him more often. He's so cute. Today he did the sweetest thing. During a photo shoot he had his arm around me, and just as the photographer was about to take the picture, he pulled me in and kissed me on the cheek. I didn't have time to react before the flash went off. I was beet red, and so embarrassed, everyone was laughing, but little did they know how much I enjoyed it!!! I fall in love all over again every day that I'm with him. For the past few cities, we've had to share a room. I like to watch him sleep at night. He looks so peaceful. I know what you're thinking...don't worry...I'm not gonna fondle him while he's asleep, I just like watching him, and I'm not losing sleep cause of it...so don't worry. I can't help it...I look at him before I go to bed, and he puts a smile on my face.
I'm worried about the other guys though cause A.J. keeps giving me these weird looks whenever I'm around Brian, and Kevin keeps bugging me about hanging out with him so we could talk, and Howie...well he's just there.
Anyway, it's getting late, and Brian just finished taking his shower. I still gotta take one before I go to bed. I'll talk to you later. I hope things are goin' better with you. Don't stress yourself out too much...I told you...you should've just stayed with us!!!
Nicky
To: Nicky blondie948@aol.com
From: Ewan David McGovern edm205@michu.edu
Date: Monday, April 5, 1999 03:12:32 CST
Subject: I hate my life!!!
Nick,
You've got it bad dude. Is there one minute you can't stop talking about Brian??? I betcha it was hard for you to take a shower after Brian came out of the bathroom all dripping wet, and wearing only a towel!!! Betcha it was cold shower you took that night. Oh wait...isn't that every night???
Okay, so you're still ignoring me...don't care...still gonna say it. Eventually you're gonna have to tell Brian and the others. You're gonna catch pneumonia if you keep up the cold shower bit!!!
I'm glad that you're still interested in my life. I thought I was gonna puke when I read your last e-mail. It was all about Brian!!! I'm glad that I still get at least a mention, even if it is in the last line. I guess that's how it usually is then...nice guys finishing last. It's late/early, however you want to look at it. I just finished a paper for my Poly Sci. class. I'm too tired to read it over. Probably doesn't make sense anyway. I have two exams today. I can't wait till midterms are over this week. On top of that, my roommate is still bitching about his breakup. Sleep...I need sleep!!! I'm gonna go. I have to be up in a few hours.
Say hi to everyone for me!!!
Ewan
To: Ewan edm205@michu.edu
From: Nick blondie948@aol.com
Date: Thursday, April 8, 1999 16:09:16 EST
Subject: Hope your PMS mode is over!!!
God...you know you get real pissy when you don't get any sleep!!! If I didn't know that you were at least capable of being nice, I'd have stop talking to you by now. From your last e-mails, I really hope for the sake of all humanity that you got some sleep after your exams today. How'd they go???
Sucks about your roommate. You can tell him that I'm not in a better position. I still haven't told the person yet. What's that saying...better to have loved than to have not loved or something. I don't know...but you know what I mean.
I just finished talking to Howie. I was just really bored, and everyone else was asleep, so we just started talking. He actually kinda reminds me of you when we talk. We didn't really talk about anything. We just talked. I can't believe I never done this with Howie before. We're on the bus, and we just left Orlando. We're on our way to New York, but we have to stop and do a few promotional things on the way up.
I gotta cut it short...Brian, Me, and A.J. are going to watch a video now. A.J. chose it. It's called Beaches, and I think it's a chick flick...have you heard of it??? Anyway...I'm gonna jet. I'll talk to you later. I know you're gonna party hard this weekend after this past week...don't have too much fun!!!
Nick
To: Nicky blondie948@aol.com
From: Ewan David McGovern edm205@michu.edu
Date: Sunday, April 11, 1999 02:35:09 CST
Subject: u smelly!!!
nikkeee
wassssuppp how is my bsb fave frined??? me=goood finish exams...medrink drunk spinning stop please can't type no cap letters...can't find shift wait
FOUND IT
NO MORE TYPE...DRUNK MORE
HOLD ON JAG WANT TALK
Hey...this is Ewan's roommate. Sorry about his message...we were partying, and he insisted that he write you. I thought it would be funny, so I let him. You should have seen him try to log on.
I had to stop him cause he keeps missing the keys. I'm surprised he even got that much typed. I'm good. I'm a little buzzed. I think I'll be babysitting your friend tonight. Speaking of which, he just disappeared. I think he just went for another round. I gotta go save him. Nice talking to you.
Jim
To: Nicky blondie948@aol.com
From: Ewan David McGovern edm205@michu.edu
Date: Sunday, April 11, 1999 13:41:18 CST
Subject: I'm in pain!!!
Nick
I thought I'd write before you got a chance to write back and make fun of me after my e-mail last night. Actually, I wouldn't have even remembered if Jim didn't make fun of me this morning for it. I don't mind...I was blowing off some steam. Usually, it's me saving his drunk ass anyway, so I don't mind. Anyway, I'm gonna keep this short. I have a killer headache, and I hurt all over. It feels like a MAC truck hit me last night. I'll talk to you later.
Ewan
To: Ewan edm205@michu.edu
From: Nick blondie948@aol.com
Date: Tuesday, April 13, 1999 10:22:25 EST
Subject: 'Sup Alchy
Dude, that was way funny. We all got a kick out of it. Kevin couldn't stop laughing, and says that it serves you right to be in pain. Hope you're feeling better though. Say hi to your roommate for me. Why do you call him Jag???
So we're on our way to DC right now. It's been pretty cool hangin' with the guys on the bus again. I like it better than just flying...it's a lot more fun. It's a good thing you came here a few weeks ago, so we could talk. I don't think I could have handled this bus tour if we hadn't. I would've flipped by now.
A.J. says to say hi...he just walked into the kitchen to get a snack. The other guys are still sleeping. Brian's bunk is right across from mine, so I still get to watch him sleep. It's amazing. He's so beautiful when he sleeps. I hope he doesn't know that I watch him sleep...it's kinda weird if you think of it, but oh well.
A.J.'s been buggin me to spend a day with him. He won't tell me what he wants to do, so I'm kinda not sure if I should. Remember when I told you that I think he might know...well the other day he put this movie in. I can't remember the title, but it was about these two guys in college who are gay, and they try and work it out. First it started in a Frat house, so I thought of you...but then I realized what the movie was about. Kinda hard not to when two hot guys take off their clothes on the TV. I freaked...we'll not literally...I was just freakin' in my mind. I'm not sure if he was tryin' to tell me something or what.
I'm really worried that he might know. I just hate hiding all this from him. I constantly have to be careful and watch what I say or do, and it feels like I'm lying to them all. We didn't really talk about it after the movie. I just told him I was tired, and was going to bed. I just wanted to get out of there. It was really freaking me out. Now he wants to do something when we get to New York. I don't know what to do...what if he tells me he knows??? What then??? Should I deny it? Part of me doesn't want to deny it anymore.
Anyway...the others are waking up now. I'm gonna jet.
Talk to you later
Nick
To: Nicky blondie948@aol.com
From: Ewan David McGovern edm205@michu.edu
Date: Tuesday, April 13, 1999 19:56:44 CST
Subject: 'Sup
Dude...caught me way off guard there. You sure about A.J. knowing? Maybe you're just being paranoid. Oh, by the way...that movie is called "Defying Gravity." JAG made me watch it with him when it was in the theatres. He wanted to watch it before he came out to everyone. It was pretty good...but a weird selection even for A.J. JAG by the way is what we call Jim. It's his pledge name, and stands for James Anthony Greenwood, which is his name, plus it works cause he's from a rich family and he owns a Jaguar. Yep, you guessed it...he's gay. I didn't tell you at first cause I didn't know if he would mind me telling people, but I asked him after reading your e-mail, and he said it was cool. He says to say hi by the way.
Wait...so going back...have you talked to A.J. about it??? What was his reaction? Where was Brian? He should've watched the movie with you so you could see his reaction.
Anyway...I think you should hang with A.J. If he does know, it seems like he's trying to let you know that he's cool with it. Then you can talk to him. Just go with the flow. You don't have to come out or anything, unless you want to. He's your friend too. You'll know what to do.
When do you guys get into NY??? My parents are bugging me to come home one weekend since I told them I'd miss Jon's engagement. I really don't want to go, but I might have to. Maybe we'll be in the city at the same time.
Well I'm gonna jet. Tell A.J. I say HI back, and flick Kevin in the forehead for me for that comment he made. Tell him just wait till I see him in a few weeks.
Ewan
To: Ewan edm205@michu.edu
From: Nick blondie948@aol.com
Date: Saturday, April 17, 1999 02:00:04 EST
Subject: Oh My God!!!
Dude...A.J. and I spent the day together, and you won't believe what happened. Okay...first we go shopping, which is cool cause we do it all the time, but get this...we walk into this one store and he stops in front of this huge poster. On it, there's these guys in like their underwear. He asks me what I think. I thought he was talking about what was on the mannequin in front of us, so I say I don't think it's his color. He looks at me funny, and he says, "No, not the clothes. The poster. Don't you think they're good looking?" I freaked out!!! My heart raced and I was like oh god...he knows!!! But get this, when I don't answer and give him this weird look, he says that he thinks the guy in the middle is cute, and then walks away. But that's not it.
After we got back to the hotel, and had lunch, he told me we were going down to a coffee shop, and I was like...cool. He told me to put on my best disguise, so I did. I wore the weird oversized hat you picked out in Germany in that store...remember, and my darkest shades. Anyway, we get to the coffee shop, and he tells me to grab a seat on the couch. He brings over the coffee, and everything's all cool until I notice that all of the people in there were guys. I didn't think of it at first, then I realized that they were all gay when I saw one couple holding hands. I looked at A.J. and asked him if he knew where we were...and he just shrugged it off and said yes. I asked if he was worried, but he said we were in disguise, and no one would recognize us. He just told me to go back to my coffee. I was like...dude really weird.
Okay, but here's the clincher. He took me to go see a musical on Broadway. It was fun. We saw Les Miserables...but here's the thing. A.J. was never really into the theatre. So I was wonderin' why he took me there. It was him and me watching a musical. Then, during the entire second half...he cries throughout the whole thing. I mean, yeah it was emotional, but I've never seen A.J. cry before. I'm so confused. I don't know what to do. When we got back to the hotel...I just said goodnight, and thanked him for taking me out. I think he wanted to talk, but I just couldn't.
What the hell is going on here??? It's like my world has gone psycho!!!
Nick
To: Nicky blondie948@aol.com
From: Ewan David McGovern edm205@michu.edu
Date: Tuesday, April 20, 1999 22:59:15 CST
Subject: Dude
Dude...
I wanted to write back the minute I got your last e-mail, but I had to go cause it was initiation weekend here at the house, and I couldn't miss that.
Can't miss an opportunity to torture the pledges!!!
I wish I could've been in New York this past weekend, but I ain't gonna be there till this coming weekend...Father's making me, cause I'm gonna miss Jon's engagement party. I think he just wants me to be there to show off to his friends. Gotta have that family solidarity look, but I figure he'll come up with some lie to tell his friends, as to why I'm not there. He can always put a spin on things that way.
Anyway...
Just talk to A.J. It seems like he's giving you every opportunity, but you keep avoiding it. I can't believe he took you to all those things, especially the gay coffee house. I wish I could've been there...I would've had a field day. Seriously, I think you should talk to him. I think it's kinda funny that he's doing all this to try and get you to come out to him. Just talk to the boy!!! It can't be all that bad.
How's it going with Bri? Have you come any closer to telling him yet??? Any new developments??? Keep me posted.
As for me...I'm doin' alright. Aside from Jim moping around cause he doesn't have a boyfriend, I'm alright. I'm getting kinda tired of hearing the same thing over and over from him, but I won't tell him that cause he needs someone to talk to right now. He was telling me about this guy that he's interested in. It even sounds like he's fallen in love with him...kinda reminds me of you in a way...the way he talks about this guy, is like hearing you talk about Brian. If he finally gives up who this guy is, maybe I'll set them up.
Anyway, I'll talk to you later. I gotta jet. I have a French paper I need to hand in tomorrow...joy!!!
Ewan
To: Ewan edm205@michu.edu
From: Nick blondie948@aol.com
Date: Friday, April 23, 1999 14:16:22 EST
Subject: My life sucks!!!
Ewan...
I know you're in New York this weekend, but I'd thought I'd write anyway. I know your family probably is annoying the shit out of you right now, so hopefully you'll take some joy in this message. Actually, I'm writing ya cause I'm just really, really, frickin' bored. We've been on the bus for over fourteen hours, and I'm going insane. We're on our way back to Orlando, but we're taking a detour into Kentucky for this weekend. We should be there in a few hours. Brian and Kevin are pretty excited.
Figures you were doing some sadistic stuff to those poor pledges of yours. I still can't believe you won't tell me what you guys do to them. It's not like I really have anyone to tell. Who am I gonna tell??? The teenybopper magazines that interview us??? I doubt they'll even be interested. Anyway, so what's up with your roommate??? I had this really silly thought yesterday...
I was thinking if this doesn't work out with Brian, maybe you could set me up with your roommate. I know you're probably having a fit right now...but you never know. The way things have been going lately, I don't think I'll ever tell Brian. God...I just wish someone would send me a sign or something. Oh well...
I still haven't talked to A.J. I don't even know how to bring up the subject. He hasn't done or said anything about it lately...Maybe he just gave up. I don't know...I just never thought he'd be the one I talk to about this stuff.
Anyway...I'm gonna jet. We're pulling into a rest stop for some dinner. I hope your family hasn't driven you to suicide by now...or that you haven't killed them yet. That would be funny. One of my best friends would be a serial killer. I could visit you in jail!!! Don't mind me...I'm just really, really tired, bored, and hungry right now...so I'm going insane.
No new developments with Bri, or with A.J. Things have pretty much cooled down.
Talk to you later.
Nick
P.S. - Tell Steph that I say HI!!!
To: Nicky blondie948@aol.com
From: Ewan David McGovern edm205@michu.edu
Date: Saturday, April 24, 1999 18:02:24 EST
Subject: I hate my parents!!!
Nick
I was just thinking. Is it possible that maybe, just maybe I was switched at birth, and unfortunately ended up with my parents??? That would explain a lot of things. They're driving me nuts. The minute I got here...it wasn't "Hi son. How was your trip?" It was more like. "Why aren't you coming to your brother's engagement party? Why can't you be more like your brother?" I was so pissed, cause first of all my flight was delayed, and to top it off, it was horrible as all hell. I can't stand it anymore. It's been nonstop questioning the minute I got here yesterday.
HA HA...very funny about the serial killer crack. By the way, I do just want to kill them though. They annoy the shit out of me. Anyway, you wouldn't last 2 seconds in jail. With your pretty face, you'd become Bubba's bitch the minute you step out of your cell!!!
So, they wanted me to go to dinner at the country club with their friends, but I convinced Steph to play sick, and I told them I'd stay with her to keep her company. She says HI back by the way, and that she misses you. Probably more like she just misses seeing you in person, and swooning at you. It makes me ill. Just kidding. Anyway, so we ordered some pizza, and rented some videos. I'm probably just gonna chill here with her, and hang out.
So you guys are gonna be in Kentucky??? Sweet. I'd give anything to be anywhere but here right now. Are you gonna stop by Brian's place??? If you do, give Big Mamma Littrell a hug and a kiss for me.
Catch ya later...
Ewan
P.S. - Keep your eyes on Bri, and not my roommate. I'm keeping him all to myself!!! :)
Just kidding!!!
To: Ewan edm205@michu.edu
From: Nick blondie948@aol.com
Date: Sunday, April 25, 1999 03:08:25 EST
Subject: I hate Brian!!!
I hate Brian!!! He's such an asshole. I don't even know what I ever saw in him, in the first place. He pisses me off so bad sometimes.
Everything was going fine this weekend. We had a great dinner at his house on Friday, and then he has to go and ruin things. Oh...by the way, "Big Momma Littrell" says to say Hi and that she sends her love to "her other son." Her words exactly :)
Anyway, so we went to a club tonight...and everything was fine, till Brian spots this girl, right. First of all you have no idea how insanely jealous I was, and second of all, after she rejects his sorry ass, he has the nerve to come back and complain to me!!! I was so pissed cause the entire time he was talking to her, he totally ignored me...like I didn't even exist. Then he thinks he can just crawl right back to me and complain. But wait...that's not it...
In his drunken, pissy ass state, he points out this gay couple to everyone at the table, and says "God...even they get to be happy...what's wrong with me? I should be happy before 'they' can be happy." I was so pissed. I mean, he probably didn't know what the hell he was talking about, I mean he's probably just tired of being alone and really frustrated, but what the hell did he mean by that???
I didn't care. I was so pissed with the way he was acting that I pushed him out of the way, and left. Howie came outside though...to calm me down. At least he cares. He took a cab back to the hotel with me, and said A.J. and Kev were probably double teaming on him back at the club, taking turns letting him know what an ass he's being. I hope so. I'm staying in D's room tonight. That's where I'm at right now. I didn't even wanna be in the same room with him.
God...I'm just really pissed off. What if he does think that way? What happens when I tell him I'm gay, huh? Or better yet, what happens when I tell him that I'm in love with him? Won't that be a kick in the teeth? I don't think I'll ever tell him now...or anyone. This is what I was afraid of...
Argh!!! Why me??? Why does this have to happen to me? Why does every fucking thing have to be so damn difficult???
Shit...I think I just woke Howie up. I gotta go. Thanks for listening to me bitch...
I'll talk to ya later
Nick
To: Nicky blondie948@aol.com
From: Ewan David McGovern edm205@michu.edu
Date: Sunday, April 25, 1999 20:45:35 CST
Subject: Take a deep breath...Think Happy thoughts!!!
'Sup Nick
Don't worry about bitching...I do that enough with you about the EVIL 'rents. You have no ideal how happy I was to get out of there. I practically ran onto the plane.
Anyway...you're gonna hate me for saying this...but...you're overreacting. Stop reading into things and overanalyzing. You're gonna give yourself wrinkles...and we can't have that on your pretty boy face of yours...the zits are enough!!! :)
Don't get too mad at Bri. Like you said, he was drunk, and though that's no excuse...you gotta consider it. He probably was just over emotional, and felt really lonely...you know how he's always looking for "the one." He just hasn't realized it's you yet. So, don't give up on him that easily. He's probably just got issues. Issues...Tissues...Tissues...Issues!!!
That was totally inappropriate thing for him to say. I never even thought he could say something like that, but I'm sure he didn't mean it, or realized he even said it at the time. Just don't give up just yet...and don't think I'm gonna let you keep this secret of yours from the rest of the guys. Just as much as they should know...you need to tell them...for your own sake and sanity.
If it makes you feel any better, Brian just e-mailed me today, and told me what happenend. He's not sure why you got so mad, but he feels really bad. Kevin and A.J. really did a number on him.
Alright. Enough of me preaching...I can't wait till you guys get here on Thursday night!!! I'm really excited. You and Bri are still staying with me here at the house, right??? You better. Don't worry about the guys...I don't think they even know who you guys are...so it's all good. Hell...my roommates gay and doesn't even know who you guys are.
I gotta go...I still have a paper to write. Right after I give Brian a little guilt trip that is.
You can thank me later!!! :)
Ewan
To: Ewan edm205@michu.edu
From: Nick blondie948@aol.com
Date: Monday, April 26, 1999 14:15:02 EST
Subject: Re: Take a deep breath...Think Happy thoughts!!!
Hey Ewe,
Thanks for laying the guilt trip on Brian. He keeps apologizing to me. It's starting to get annoying really. I don't even know if he knows what he's aplolgizing for. He thinks I'm mad at him for ditching me for some girl...that's part of it...but whatever. He's kinda cute when he feels guilty. He makes this face that's just so adorable. Anyway, I can't forget what he said the other night...it keeps playing over and over in my mind. I'm scared to tell him everything now. So, something major has gotta happen for me to tell him...Oh well.
We're back in Orlando this week. I think Kev said something about meetings or whatever. Not too exciting, but once they're over...we'll be in Michigan!!! I can't wait, and hells yeah I wanna stay with you!!! It's your birthday after all, and I get to stay in a frat house for a weekend. I can't wait to hear all the embarrassing stories your brothers have about you!!!
I guess Brian will be there too. He wants to take me out to Disney as a way of apologizing. I think I'll go, just to torture him with the rides at least. You know how much he hates them. Anyway...We'll see how it goes. Even though I'm still mad at him...I can't wait to be able to spend the whole day with just him. I'm actually kinda nervous.
Actually, come to think of it...I betcha Brian didn't even come up with the idea of taking me out to Disney all by himself. You put him up to it didn't you??? I know I told you lots of times how much I love it there, and I know you must have told him. You're such a dork...but thanks. I know I'll have fun. Who knows...they don't call it "The Happiest Place on Earth" for nothing. Maybe we'll be making our own magic in The Magic Kingdom.
Alright...I'll stop now. That was really lame, but I couldn't help myself. :)
A.J's yelling at me now to get my ass in gear. I gotta get to rehearsal.
Thanks Again!!!
Love,
Nicky
To: Nicky blondie948@aol.com
From: Ewan David McGovern edm205@michu.edu
Date: Monday, April 26, 1999 23:21:14 CST
Subject: Beauty and the Beast
Hey Beauty...
You're Welcome!!!
Just do me one favor. Stop thinking and just have fun with him!!! No...not that way. You know what I mean.
Enjoy your day with the Beast...I mean Brian. I still don't get why you've fallen in love with that dwarf...
While you're at it...try and stay away from the other seven dwarves while you're in Disney. I know how much short guys turn you on!!!
Say Hi to Mickey for me!!!
Always,
Ewan
So, what did you think? What do you think so far? I know this one was kinda tame, again, but things needed to be said. Plus I make it up by dropping hints!!!
I wanna hear from all of ya reading this. I wanna know what you really think, and I'm kinda curious as to where you think the story is going, or where you'd like it to go. Or if you hate the story.
Thanks You's:
There's a new story out there y'all need to read!!! I told you about it before...it's by this amazing author!!! He's smart...he's funny...he's caring...and understanding!!! It's entitled "This Gift," so go check it out!!!
New story recommendation...check out "Maverick." It's a sophisticated story dealing with the BSB and 'Nsync. It's written by Randy Maverson...a very insightful and perceptive guy.
To Justin...the man who fuels my dreams, and the only guy who really knows how to keep me in line... You're a great friend, and I'm glad you're in my life. I say New York in the summertime is a nice place to be!!!
Just wanna give a special shout out to a certain someone in SJ who likes to wear shorts for not gagging. He's a great author and a great friend. He's not...I repeat NOT evil...so, check his story "Not Meant to Be" out.
New Special Section: A Call to Arms to all Nicky Carter fans!!!
Just recently I've received disturbing news about the lack of Nick Carter fans out there. I know that is so not true!!! We're out there...so come out of your closets and speak out!!!
Check out these Nick friendly stories, and drop a note to the author's professing your love for the adorably cute Nicky Carter!!!
Shout out to Carter who has his own story out on Nifty. I haven't forgotten about ya!!! It's called "Open Arms." Check it out!!! It's proving to be a good story.
"Beneath It All" by the infamous Scotty T.
"Some Kind of Bliss" by Braan
"Brian and Me" by DLS - This focuses on Brian, but the part Nick plays is awesome and sweet...and most importantly he's gay!!!
I know there's more out there...so here's your chance to speak out!!! I wanna hear from all the Nicky fans!!!
Nicky fans UNITE!!!
Lucas Out...till next time!!!
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