Broken Tears - Chapter 22 By Andy Lake
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All the following characters are fictional, all made up by myself, thanks to my twisted, yet erotic, imagination.
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Recap - Hi! Well, in the last chapter we saw how Brandon and Ty's relationship kinda crumbled due to Brandon's sexual struggle. CAN YOU BELIEVE HIM?!! Also The rapist sent Ty a letter with a one month death sentence, which scared the crap outta Ty. The good news is that Ty and Cale are trying to recover their broken relationship, and also a character comes back in the picture. Wanna find out who it is?! And well, the last thing...LI IS PREGO!!! I guess that's all. xD
*********************** New Arrivals - Chapter 22 ***********************
[ Ty's POV ]
"I don't know what to say...You have to tell your parents." I said hugging Li tight to my body. She was sobbing, and well, I bet she was scared. Being 17 and pregnant sounds like a huge deal. The discrimation, the changes, everything is just too much.
"I am just scared...Please, Ty, can I tell him when it starts to be noticeable?" She asked hopeful.
"I dont know, Li. This is something very important...I think they should know." I said soothingly, her head on my chest as she sobbed.
"I know, but I need time. I know they are going to hate me for it, and I'm not ready for that, Ty. I'm just not ready." She said with pure sadness and fear.
"Ok, but as soon as it is noticeable, we will tell them...I think they will understand, Li. Yes, you should've been more careful and stuff, but what's done is done, and I already love my nephew." I said smiling down at her. She looked up at me with teary eyes and smiled brightly.
"I love you, Ty. You are my brother, my friend, my eveything." She said hugging me tight and delivering a kiss on my cheek.
"I love you, too. Now let's go get something to eat...You gotta feed two now, remember?" I said smiling, and she gave me the finger but smiled as well. We both went downstairs bumping into each other's shoulders and found my dad putting food on the table wearing an APRON! My dad is a big hunky man, and seeing him like this was very hilarious.
"Thanks, Mom. It looks lovely, just like you." I said sitting down, and he looked at me with a serious look.
"At least I don't take it up the ass." He said with a wink. I feigned hurt and placed my hand on my chest.
"A lady shouldn't talk like that." I said as he mumbled something about being macho and made his way to get the drinks. Li was laughing with me cause Dad came out of the kitchen apron free.
"You two are a pair of rotten kids." He said shaking his head.
"We love you, Dad." Li and I said smiling. He scoffed and sat with us.
"Hope you enjoy. I busted my frickin ass to cook for you..." He said as he started to eat the delicious looking lamb chops.
"Haha. I'm sure we will...I kinda miss Mark, though." I said looking at the empty chair he normally sat at.
"Yeah...I do, too." My dad said with a sad smile and went back to eating.
"So, Mr. Jacobs...Well, Dad, I saw you talking with Ms. Paretto yesterday." Li said with an evil smile. My dad blushed and had that look of a deer caught in the headlights. He looked downward and kept eating.
"I don't know what you are talking about." He mumbled with food in his mouth.
"Oohh, Marky, you are so funny. Such a charmer." Li said faking Ms. Paretto's voice. Ms. Paretto is our neighbour and is a very pretty blonde woman, thirty years old and a widow.
"She likes you." I said smiling as I took a bite of the delicious lamb chop and letting out a little moan as I tasted the food with glee.
"Well, she is a very attractive woman, and I'm not a bad looking man." He said proudly.
"Not bad looking, just kinda bad smelling, Dad." I said, and he gave me another look.
"You two are going to make me grow older if you keep that up." He said rolling his eyes.
"We keep you young, Dad. We make you smile." Li said with a wide smile.
"Yeah, because I picture myself running away from both of you." He said with a scoff and a throaty laugh.
"Running away from us with Ms. Paretto giggling in your arms towards the sunset." I said teasing. He blushed and ate his food in silence...Defeated.
"Well, I think I'll ask her out..." He said looking up at us for what seemed like our consent.
"Well, you should...I know you loved Mom with all you had...But you can move on. She won't get mad." I say reaching for his hand and grabbing it in mine. He stroked my hand and looked at me, lost and scared.
"She will, Dad. She will love it if you moved on." Li said grabbing his hand as well.
"See? We told you we are good for you." I said, and he smiled at me and Li.
"I wouldn't change you for anything...Well, maybe for a night with Ms. Paretto." He said with starry eyes.
"EWWWWWWW! Thanks for the mental image..." I said faking disgust.
"Fuck you." My dad said with a smile.
"I thought you were aiming for Ms. Paretto." Li said tilting her head a little.
"You two drive me frickin nuts." My dad said shaking his head.
"Well, I'm done, and I have to call Jeremy." Li said standing up. She kissed Dad's cheek and ran upstairs. Dad looked at me and smiled.
"She is like the daughter I never had...A little mischevious, though." He said smiling.
"Heard that, old man!" Li said from upstairs, a smile evident in her voice.
"See...What a lovely girl." He laughed and started cleaning up the dishes.
"She's more than lovely. I'll excuse myself as well." I said standing up. I walked over to the glass door and slid it open. I looked at the garden and saw the beautiful rose bush with a couple roses on it. It looked healthy and well kept. I closed the door and walked slowly, feeling the night air brush my exposed arms and sending a cold shiver throughout my body. I hugged myself and rubbed my hands up and down my arms trying to warm myself a litte. I walked with a soft pace until I was in front of the rose bush, and the two streams surrounding it reflected the moonlight beautifully.
"Hi, Mom. Haven't talked to you in a long time." I said and touched one of the roses with tenderness. I smiled down at it, and flashes of that night went through my mind, the rain pouring, our fight, the truck lights, the crash, and her warm body covering mine to protect me from the impact. "I miss you, you know...A lot." I let out a tear, kissed the rose, and smiled warmly. "Dad is going to go out with Ms. Paretto, and I know that you approve. You are always putting everyone else before you, and I know you loved Dad and you want to see him happy. Who knows, Ms. Paretto can be that woman." I sighed, looked up, and stared at the moon. "I think I love a bad boy, Mom...His name is Brandon, and every time I look at him my heart beats so fast. When he smiles that evil little smile of his, my knees go weak. When he kisses me and touches me I feel like I would surrender to him comepletely. I feel so tempted to just have fun with him and be happy, at least for a while, but I don't want to gamble with my heart...Still, Mom, you should meet him. He is a charmer and very good looking. He has these HUGE arms that make me feel so safe, and well, he is very manly and protective, a little overly jealous, but overall he is a very good guy. I know I love him, but I can't risk it." I said still looking up at the moon. There was something up there in the moon. I don't know. It was something like a reasurrance, that looking up at it would give me the answers.
"I don't know what to do...I know it will hurt when I see him tomorrow with Dina. I know I will feel awful, but I just have to bear with it, right? I don't know what to do...I need you so much. I know you would understand this. I know you would." I said smiling at the memory of every talk I had with my Mom. "You made me strong, Mommy. I have been through a lot, but you made me strong, and thanks to you, I can bear with it, even if watching him with Dina breaks my heart." I kissed the rose once more and turned around. I started to walk away but stopped dead in my tracks and walked back to the rose.
"And watch over Li for me, please...She needs you." I smiled and ran back to the house.
I walked upstairs, went to my drawers, took out my pjs, and laid them nicely across the bed. I started to undress and shed my shirt first, then my jeans. I felt eyes on me when I was about to slide my boxers off, so I walked to the window and closed the blinds just for precaution. I got naked, took a warm bath, and looked at myself in the mirror. Not looking bad. :D I changed into my pjs and looked at my phone for messages or calls. Just one message from Trev and one from Cale. I answered the messages and sent them a goodnight. I slid under the covers, grabbed the remote, and turned off the lights. My lava lamp lit up the room with a faint yellowish light, and I closed my eyes...Tomorrow I will just keep my distance...Distance from Brandon before I fall even harder for him...Distance. I closed my eyes, snuggled to my teddy bear that has a vest and tap shoes, and smiled as memories of my mom entered my mind, good memories. I fell asleep.
The Next Day >>>>>>>>
Li parked the car in the school parking lot, and we undid our seat belts. I was wearing a somewhat tight dark blue turtle neck and some tight black jeans with black shoes. I walked towards the school grounds with a smile on my face and my messenger bag around my shoulder. I caught up with Li, and she hooked her arm into mine as we walked together. We walked down the hallway greeting a couple people we knew.
"So, it's Friday. What are you going to sing today?" She asked as she stuffed some things into her locker.
"Well, it's a surprise. I got the idea when I woke up today!" I said smiling as I leaned against the locker by hers.
"Well, I know it's going to be brilliant." She said as she closed the locker. We walked a couple lockers down and arrived at mine. I took out some books from my bag and stuffed others back in as she looked at her nails while she talked.
"Thanks. You are always so supportive." I said closing the locker. I turned to her and saw behind her back that Brandon was walking inside. He was wearing a black v-neck shirt that showed some of his chest, and he was wearing his blue and gold football jersey with some snug jeans a little worn out. His hair was messy, but a sexy messy, and he looked REALLY hot as he walked with confidence and manliness down the hall toward us.
"Morning." He said bowing his head to me.
"Good morning." I said with a smile. He nodded and kept walking.
"Stop drooling." Li said with a silly grin.
"Screw you." I said above a whisper.
"What, Mr. Jacobs?" A teacher said behind me.
"Screw your locker since it's kinda loose...That's what I was saying." I said looking at the teacher with a sheepish smile. He smiled and scoffed.
"Next time be careful or you will really get your locker screwed by a not so liberal teacher." He winked at us and kept walking.
"That was funny." Li said with an evil little smile.
"You are just glad that I almost got in trouble." I shot back, and she grinned.
"Am I really that transparent?" She asked as we walked down the hallway to class.
"Yep, as transparent as Shrek's boogers." I said as she cringed.
"You are disgusting."
"Awww, I feel the same way about you." I said as we walked into the classroom. We took our seats and class started off.
The day dragged on quite nicely. It was kind of fun, but I kept my eye out for every guy on the football team. I tried to look for the guys' upper arms, but they were all wearing their jerseys, so I couldn't catch a peak at their shoulders to see the tattoo that Brandon said the guy had. I'm determined to find this guy, so today, due to the chilly weather, we played basketball. I don't suck, but I'm not awesome, so it wasn't that bad. Now it was time for showers. Most of the football team is in this class, and in the showers I'm sure to catch a glimpse of the guy. I walked into the showers, slightly embarrassed to take a shower out in the open with so many guys around. I looked around and checked all the guys' arms, getting slightly aroused. I kept walking down until I was sure I had checked everyone's shoulder, and I spotted two tattoos on two different guys...One is Dylan, who is a wide receiver on the football team, and the other one is Jerry, the guy I blew off the first day of school this year...He was the one I had my radar on the most...He seems somewhat creepy at times, and I have seen him staring at my ass. I walked into one of the emptiest communal showers, shed my towel, and turned the water on. The warm water slid over my body nicely making me feel slippery and aroused. I washed my neck and my chest with the soap, slowly enjoying the feel. I washed my legs and finished with soaping my hair. I was rinsing when I felt warm, big, calloused hands on my back...I knew the touch...Brandon.
"Brandon...Don't." I said moving forward and grabbing a towel.
"The guys are all gone, and coach won't come out of his office right now." He said as he grabbed my chin and made me look at him.
"No, I don't want to be just your gay experiment." I said slightly offended.
"Why? It would be no strings attached fun." He said nuzzling my neck with his nose.
"Because I can't trust myself around you...I can fall in love." I said swallowing hard, and he froze.
"I can't do the love stuff, babe. I want to have my fun, but I just can't be gay..." He said as he pushed me with care against the locker. He licked my neck, and I felt myself wanting to surrender to him. I composed myself and pushed him away. I grabbed my towel and started to dry off.
"Please just leave me alone..." I said slightly teary eyed as I toweled my hair, my voice cracking slightly.
"Are you crying?" He asked with a worried tone in his voice.
"No...But I would appreciate it if you respected my wishes." I said as he nodded and walked away. I changed into my clothes after putting on deodorant and walked out of the locker room with my mind drifting somewhere between Brandon and Jerry...I looked around the hallway trying to find a sign of Jerry around, but no luck. I walked down to the cafeteria since it was time for lunch, and I saw Trev and Cale together at a table. I walked over to them.
"Hey there." I said and sat down in front of Cale by Tevor's side.
"Sup, sexy." Trev said kissing my cheek.
"Hi." Cale said smiling at me with that sun like smile of his.
"I'm great. Just thinking..." I said trailing off as I looked over to a table in the corner, full of jocks and cheerleaders. Yep, there was Brandon, his arm around Dina. He was kissing her cheek, and well, giving her butterfly kisses at her nose. I felt my stomach twist and my gut clench. I wanted to go over there and give them a piece of my mind...But I knew better.
"You know it's his loss, right?" Trev said looking at me with a sad look.
"I know, but I just can't help feeling how I feel about him...I know I'm stupid. I know." I said playing with both my hands and looking ashamed.
"What's going on?" Cale asked confused and excited at the same time.
"I kinda fell in love with Brandon." I said blushing deep red.
"WHAT?!" He looked at me like I was crazy.
"I know he used to bully me...But well, we kinda hooked up, and well, it's a long story...I'll tell you later when we have dinner at my house...But well, the thing is I'm in love with him, but he doesn't want to be gay. He just wants to fool around." I said sadly.
"Well then, give it some time, and then you can see how you feel without him...Don't let a guy run your life. It happened to me, and it didn't end up well." Cale said with a knowing look.
"I know...Thanks." I smiled, and Trevor wrapped his arms around me and rubbed my shoulders soothingly.
"It's gonna be ok. Cale and I will be there for you." He said soothingly.
"And well, how's it going with you two?" I asked looking over at Cale, who blushed.
"Taking it slow...But loving it so far." Trev said winking at Cale.
"Well, I'm glad to hear that." I said smiling at Cale, and he smiled back. The bell rang announcing the Friday assembly.
"Well, we gotta go, and you, Mr. Superstar, you have to get ready." Trevor said as he stood up. I stood and grabbed his and Cale's hand and gave them a squeeze.
"Thank you." I said to both of them. I started walking swiftly out of the cafeteria. I looked over my shoulder and saw Brandon giving Trevor a dirty look, and it somehow made me feel better. I turned back around and bumped into someone. I raised my head and saw Jerry looking down at me with a dirty smile.
"Watch out, baby, you might get fondled by a creep or two in this mass of people." He said biting his lip. I froze, walked around him, and practically ran out of the cafeteria. I looked back once to see him smiling at me...Crookedly. I made my way into the auditorium with my heart pounding fast. We tested the mic, and the principal gave his announcements for next week. He made the introduction for the Arts club, and I walked to the mic with Hugh. This song was kind of a duet with a grave voice and a softer one, and his voice is as grave as it gets.
"Hi guys...Well, today I'm going to sing another love song with the band! This one is about unrequited love...Or simply not wanting to rush into love...Being afraid...Hope you enjoy." I smiled. The piano started playing, and the guitar came along as Hugh gave me a nod.
The sun is filling up the room And I can hear you dreaming Do you feel the way I do right now? I wish we would just give up Cause the best part is falling Call it anything but love
And I will make sure to keep my distance Say "I love you" when you're not listening How long can we keep this up, up, up?
And please don't stand so close to me I'm having trouble breathing I'm afraid of what you'll see right now I give you everything I am
All my broken heart beats Until I know you'll understand And I will make sure to keep my distance Say "I love you" and you're not listening How long can we keep this up, up, up?
And I keep waiting For you to take me You keep waiting To say what we have
So I make sure to keep my distance Say "I love you" when you're not listening How long can we keep this up, up, up? Make sure to keep my distance Say "I love you" when you're not listening How long till we call this love, love, love? (2x)
Distance - Christina Perri
That was the song I dedicated to Brandon in my mind, my feelings for him, my love for him, the pain he makes me feel.
I finished with a hug to Hugh and a good job in his ear. The students applauded and gave a couple hoots. The whole band took a bow, and we went back to putting things in their cases.
"Everyone did awesome!" I said as we packed.
"It was perfect." Ms. Cadburry said smiling approvingly to all of us. We beamed at her and packed the things up. I said goodbye to the guys and walked to my locker. I opened it, afraid that a letter would be there, but there wasn't. Since I saw my locker had a few dents in it this morning, I was kind of afraid. I strolled down the hall after sorting out the books I was going to take home and the ones I wasn't going to take, walked out of the school doors, and heard someone clear his throat behind me.
"As awesome as always." I heard a sort of familiar voice behind me, and I turned around slowly.
"JOHN!!!!" I screamed at the sight of him. John...Well, he is kinda like my first crush since I was in England. (see chap 1)
"Hey, Ty...Wow, you look...Damn, back then you were cute...Now you look amazing, sexy, and cute." He said as he wrapped his toned arms around me. John looks kinda like a tall version of Darren Criss. He has black short hair, a toned body, muscular but not buff or wide, simply slender and SUPER HOT!
"You look great as well...Really hot." I said blushing and looking up at him. He was looking down at me and sighed.
"I missed you so much. I just had to come down here. I couldn't take it anymore." He said brushing my cheek.
"Well, I'm glad you did. I wanted to see you so bad as well." I hugged him tighter. He smiled and lifted me up slightly. I squirmed, and he giggled. I felt his warm lips press against my forehead.
"I missed you so much, buddy." He said softly as if wanting to make sure I believed him. I blushed and looked downward.
"I missed you, too. Wanna get some coffee or something? We need to catch up!" I said as his hands laid on my lower back.
"I would love that." He said as he pressed me tighter to him. I laughed and pushed him off.
"I need to be able to walk to show you where the coffee place is...You will love it." I said, and the whole time I was talking, he was just staring at me.
"God, you look beautiful." He said with a warm smile.
"You look the same yourself. Now let's go!" I said trying to cut through the awkwardness that was about to build up. I hooked my arm in his and walked happily to the car. Li was looking at me strangely as she checked out John, who really is a sight worth looking at. I felt at ease with John here...Maybe it was the long time no see. :D This will definitely be good.
[ Brandon's POV ]
I walked out of the school with the song in my head. I bet Ty meant to sing that song for me...I know that he has feelings for me. He just can't hide it, and I know I have this thing for him as well, but I'm not gay...I simply can't be gay. I can't live that life with so much discrimination and hatred. I walked with my hands on my head feeling stressed to the limit, and I heard a scream. The voice was Ty's, and I instantly felt scared and ran to his voice. I was so worried, thinking the worst. Relief shot through me when I saw him hugging a guy happily...But then the relief turned to jealousy, and the jealousy to anger, and the anger to regret and shame...I shouldn't feel like this. I can't give Ty what he deserves. I should let him be happy, right? But I just don't want him to be happy with anyone but me. It may sound selfish, but if you knew Ty, if you saw him smiling at you, he smiles with his upper teeth showing and biting his lower lip. It's cute beyond belief and contagious as well. His voice is angelic, and his eyes are perfect. He makes you feel that you are all he is thinking about when his eyes focus on you, and besides all that, his body is perfect. Those abs and his lightly golden tanned skin make him very desirable. I know I drool when I see those legs, his plump bottom, and his nice cock. He is smooth all over and looks as delicious as it gets...I know I'm supposed to be straight, but Ty...He makes me feel things I have never felt before, and it scares me. I want him to be happy, but I think I'm the one who is supposed to make him happy, but still, I'm just a fuck up...I can't even take care of him. I might as well hand him over to the other guy, as much as I hate it...He needs his distance.
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Next Chapter will be up sooon!!
Hope you really enjoyed this story, and as you may have noticed, it has kind of a personal meaning. I hope it got to you. :D
Thanks for reading, and I hope you like my story so far. If you haven't read my other story on nifty, it's called Aphrodite's Curse. It's quite recent, so you should look it up. It must be in the first 50 stories.
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HOPE YOU LIKED THIS CHAPTER. STICK AROUND CAUSE THINGS ARE ABOUT TO GET STEAMY!!
About the author!
Well hi! It's me, Andy. I'm the author of this story, and I hope you are liking it so far. In most e-mails you seem to want to know stuff about me, like my age, hobbies, etc. Well, I'm 18 years old, I enjoy writing, as you can imagine, I love writing poems and songs, and well, express myself through words. I want to be a Doctor, my favorite color is blue, I looooove ice cream, my favorite movie is Easy A, and my favorite t.v. show is Friends!! :D
I love Chandler, and well, I kind of have his sense of humor and that sarcastic edge to it. :D Well, that is me, and if you have anymore questions, don't hesitate to e-mail me!
XOXO Andy