This is a gay love story which is pure fiction and fantasy. None of the characters portrayed relate to any known person.
Warning - it contains explicit m/m sex.
First Love
Daniel loved his new job. He had much more responsibility than the previous one and enjoyed working with the team, especially since his boyfriend was the boss!
He and Chris got on well and joked and flirted with each other during the day. The other two solicitors were more serious but even they were partial to the odd joke and flirt with Daniel much to Kevin's amusement. The main thing was that everyone accepted Daniel as being Kevin's boyfriend and it didn't seem to affect the way they treated him.
Several weeks after he'd first joined, he and Kevin walked into the office one Monday morning to find Chris clearly upset over something.
"You okay?" Daniel asked as he went to sit down at his desk and Kevin started to sort through the pile of post that had arrived.
Chris looked at both of them and then burst into tears.
"Whatever's the matter?" Daniel asked jumping up to go round to where Chris was sitting.
Before saying anything, Chris stood up and flung his arms round Daniel as he sobbed. Eventually they managed to get out of him that his dad had committed suicide over the weekend.
"Oh my god" Kevin exclaimed shocked at the news, "why are you in work? You should be with your mother" he added knowing that Chris's parents lived in Hampshire.
"I went down on Saturday when I heard" he sobbed whilst still holding onto Daniel like grim death.
"So why have you come back, surely you should stay with her" Kevin said again trying to get some sense out of Chris.
"She's told me never to set foot in the house again" he sobbed shaking with grief.
Daniel and Kevin looked at each other and whilst trying to decide where to go from here, Daniel managed to sit Chris down again and pull up a chair alongside him. As he held Chris's hand he asked gently "Why won't she have you in the house Chris?"
Chris just looked at him with tears still running down his face. Kevin suddenly remembered that Chris had said on a previous occasion that his mother was a staunch Catholic and very religious. It seemed his father wasn't and this often caused friction between him, his wife and Chris who was their only child.
"Do I take it she has found out about you being gay Chris?" Kevin asked now sitting in Daniel's chair opposite him.
Chris nodded, "Yeah, it just came out when I was down there".
"Did your dad know you were gay? Daniel asked.
Chris nodded again, "Yeah, he was cool about it and also knew I used to live with a guy but we always kept it from mum because we knew how she'd react but when she was going on about the shame he'd brought on the family by taking his own life I flipped and it just came out".
Daniel put his arms round Chris and hugged him, "I'm so sorry mate".
"What caused your dad to take his own life?" Kevin then asked.
Chris looked up and paused for a moment, "Her, she drove him to it I think".
"Oh my god" Daniel muttered, "how awful" he added squeezing Chris tight up against him.
Kevin could see they were not going to get any more sense out of Chris for the moment so decided not to ask more questions.
"I think you'd be better off going home Chris; could your boyfriend leave work early and look after you do you think?
Chris looked at Kevin again and for a moment said nothing. Kevin then realised what Chris had said a minute or so earlier.
"You said you used to live with a guy, are you and Pedro no longer together?"
Chris shook his head, "We split up about six months ago and he's gone abroad to work".
"Oh" Kevin replied and looked at Daniel.
"Would you like Daniel to go home with you? Would you mind Daniel?"
Daniel immediately said that was fine by him if Chris would like him to.
"Would you mind Daniel? I don't feel I can be on my own at present."
"Of course I don't mind, come on let's get you home" Daniel replied gently lifting Chris and gathering together his jacket and his bag.
Kevin looked at Daniel and gave a weak smile. "Thanks" he mouthed. This guy of his never ceased to amaze him. He was the kindest considerate guy he'd ever known and he loved him for it.
"And don't worry about work Chris, we'll manage" Kevin said as they were leaving and then added, "And don't you worry Daniel either, just call me later to let me know how things are".
With that, Daniel gently led Chris out of the office and down the stairs. He suddenly realised he had no idea where Chris lived.
"Which way?" Daniel asked once they were on the street.
It turned out that Chris lived in a small studio flat in Notting Hill Gate so it didn't take that long for them to get there. It was a back street and the flat was on the third floor. Daniel noticed it was clean and tidy but very small. He suddenly realised how lucky he was to be living with Kevin in his beautiful apartment which could have accommodated this one several times over.
Chris immediately slumped down on the bed once they were inside and placed his head into his hands. Daniel sat down beside him and put his arms round his shoulders to comfort him.
"Would you like a cup of tea?" Daniel asked looking round to see if such a thing was possible to produce in this small place.
Chris nodded and placed a hand on Daniel's.
"Thanks for coming with me" he sobbed, "I feel so alone".
Daniel felt so sorry for him and he too was beginning to feel tears form in his eyes.
"It's what friends are for" Daniel replied hugging Chris's limp body closer to him.
Chris put an arm round Daniel and hugged him tight. The feel of Daniel's warm body close against his made him feel he wasn't quite so alone after all.
After a few minutes of saying nothing but still hugging each other tight, Daniel said he'd make a cup of tea. There was a small alcove at one end of the room so he went to see what he could find. He filled the kettle with water, found two mugs and a jar filled with tea bags. Everything was very clean and organised just like Chris was at work.
When the water had boiled, he made the two mugs of tea and carried them back into the main room. He found Chris in bed and his clothes neatly piled on a nearby chair.
"Oh, decided to have a rest have you" Daniel commented as he placed the two mugs on a nearby side table and sat down on the edge of the bed.
"Thanks" Chris said as he sat up and took his tea. His top half was naked and Daniel wondered whether his bottom half was as well.
As he sipped his tea his mind wandered trying to imagine what Chris was like down below. He was suddenly brought back to reality when he realised Chris had placed a hand on his thigh. It just lay there motionless and for a moment Daniel wondered whether to hold it or not. For some reason he decided to do so and placed a hand on top. He gently squeezed it and smiled at Chris.
"Can I ask Chris, why do you feel your dad did what he did?"
Chris looked at Daniel and said nothing. Tears were forming again in his eyes and Daniel wished he'd not said anything.
"I'm sorry, don't feel you have to talk about it if you don't' want to but when my dad died I found it helped to talk."
"You lost your dad too" Chris asked removing his hand from beneath Daniel's and taking hold of it instead.
Daniel explained how his dad had suddenly died of a heart attack and how much he'd loved him and how even two years later he still missed him terribly.
"I'm so sorry Daniel, I had no idea Chris said moving nearer to him and exposing more flesh.
Daniel smiled and waited for Chris to continue because he had the feeling he wanted to. After about a minute Chris squeezed his hand.
"Would you do me a favour Daniel?"
"Sure" Daniel replied with no idea of what was to come next.
"I need someone to hold me; I feel so alone; would you join me in bed?"
Daniel wasn't sure this was a good idea and didn't reply for a moment.
"Please" Chris implored as more tears ran down his face.
Daniel felt so sorry for the guy that he didn't feel he could refuse.
"Okay" he said after a pause and started removing his clothes.
He stripped off down to his briefs conscious of Chris looking at him. Having folded his clothes and placed them on top of the pile Chris had made, he walked to the side of the bed.
"You could take these off as well" Chris said pulling at Daniel's briefs, "I've not got any on" he then said pulling the duvet back to expose his nakedness.
Daniel's eyes feasted on the limp organ laying there surrounded by thick black pubic hair. He felt his own organ twitch and for a moment was embarrassed at having such thoughts at such a time but he was about to climb into bed with a rather nice looking guy who was stark naked.
Daniel grinned, "If you really want me to I will" he said as he slipped the briefs down his legs and tossed them over to join his pile of clothes.
Chris gasped when he saw the size of Daniel's attributes and his own manhood immediately began swelling even though sex was not on his mind. All he wanted was to feel another guy's warm body up close against his.
Daniel climbed into the bed and they wrapped their arms round each other pressing their nakedness together. They could both feel each other's cocks react but neither said or did anything to recognise the fact.
"Thank you Daniel, that feels so good; I feel so alone; I feel he's gone off and left me and didn't say goodbye."
Chris rambled on in this way for several more minutes. Daniel decided to let him get it all out because that's what he'd done when his dad had suddenly died.
After a while Chris stopped talking and kissed Daniel on the lips. It was a simple kiss, not particularly passionate but it was soft and gentle.
"Thanks" was all he said.
"It's okay," Daniel replied.
"You asked why he did it" Chris then said turning his head to look at the ceiling. "My dad and I were very close and as a child I loved my mum but something happened several years ago to change her. Not sure what it was but all of a sudden she became very religious. She was brought up as a Catholic and married a non-Catholic; in fact like me, my dad was not religious at all and her parents didn't approve of her marriage but she became pregnant with me so my dad agreed to marry her.
In recent years, her religious views have got more and more invasive on our lives. It was one of the many reasons why I left home because I couldn't stand it any longer, especially knowing her church's views on homosexuality. My dad knew; in fact we'd talked about it in a roundabout way but he was cool and wasn't really bothered. I could tell the last time I saw him that her religious ranting was getting him down; in fact I asked him why he didn't just leave her but he was the kind of man who couldn't do that so he put up with it; I'd no idea things would get to such a pitch that he'd take his own life."
Chris paused talking and Daniel could see the tears pouring down his face. His heart went out to him; he knew exactly how he was feeling. He put his arms round Chris again and pulled him towards him. He kissed him and held him tight.
"Just let it out" Daniel whispered whilst Chris continued sobbing.
After a while, Chris calmed down but continued holding Daniel close against him.
"He jumped off the top of a car park" he then said casually; "He must have been very depressed to do such a thing don't you think".
"Yeah, he must; did he die immediately do you know" Daniel asked imagining the scenario.
"The police who called me said he did; they said what normally happens is the person blanks out during the fall so don't feel the impact. He landed on concrete so there was no chance of him surviving."
"Oh god Chris, I'm so sorry" Daniel replied with tears of his own running down his face.
They spent the next few minutes just kissing and comforting each other. There was nothing else to say.
"After the local police had called round to tell me on Saturday I felt like doing the same thing you know; I couldn't imagine life without him."
Daniel was shocked for a moment and took Chris's head into his hands.
"You mustn't ever think like that Chris; life does go on even without the people you love and there's always someone around to help you get through this; you know that don't' you."
Chris nodded, "Yeah, I'd never have done it; I'm too much of a coward; and the only reason I went into the office this morning was because I knew you and Kevin would be there; I know we've only known each other for a short time Daniel but I feel you're a real friend to me".
"Thanks Chris and you are too," Daniel replied, suddenly feeling a real bond between them; "You will get over this despite everything".
"I suppose so" he replied sadly, "but it's my mum; she was really nasty towards me when I admitted to being gay; it's as if she hates me; and she's told me I can't go to the funeral; she can't do that can she?"
Daniel hugged him again and said of course she couldn't stop him attending his own father's funeral and that he must go.
"Who's organising that, do you know?"
"My uncle, my dad's brother"
"And how do you get on with him?"
"He's okay; I have a feeling he's gay; he's certainly never married and he has never liked my mother."
"So at least you can find out when the funeral will be."
Chris nodded, "Yeah, suppose so but I can't face it alone".
"Would you like me to come with you? I'm sure Kevin won't mind."
"Oh Daniel would you?" Chris said jumping up in bed and straddling Daniel.
"Of course, if you'd like me to" he replied feeling his semi erect organ pressing against two large balls.
"Oh thank you; you're a star" Chris exclaimed and bent forward to kiss Daniel. This time the kiss was much more passionate and Daniel responded with equal passion. He couldn't help himself.
By the time the kiss was complete they both had erections which were rubbing against each other. Chris grinned, it was the first smile Daniel had seen that morning.
"Wow, you really are big" Chris giggled taking Daniel's erection into his hand and grasping it.
"I'm not sure this is a good idea Chris" Daniel said after a while having enjoyed the feel of the hot hand round his tool.
"I'm sorry but I've not had a guy for such a long time; I won't tell Kevin" he replied as he lay down on top of Daniel and rubbed their organs together.
Daniel was too weak to stop it and let Chris continue. He was now kissing Daniel's neck and every so often he'd move down to his nipples. Daniel just let him do what he wanted. All he did was let his hands run over Chris's naked back. He seemed to be telling himself that if he did no more than that then it was okay despite the fact that he wanted to take hold of Chris and fuck him.
They continued like this for quite some time with neither of them saying anything. Eventually Chris reached a climax and his hot seed spewed over Daniel's stomach. He then sat up and used his own cum to wank off Daniel. When he was fully spent, Chris bent forward and kissed him.
"Thanks Daniel; I needed that."
"Any time" Daniel grinned.
Once Chris had mopped up the sticky mess, he ran off to the bathroom which was situated just outside. Whilst he was out, Daniel gave Kevin a quick call.
"How is he? Kevin asked.
"Not good" Daniel whispered, "He's gone off to the bathroom so thought I'd call you."
"Thanks for looking after him my love; I knew you'd be the best person."
Daniel smiled to himself, he didn't dare let on that he was lying naked in Chris's bed and that they'd just relieved each other.
"Is he going to be okay on his own?" Kevin asked.
"Not sure; he seems very lonely; it's hit him really badly especially with his mum's hatred towards him over him being gay; she's told him he can't go to the funeral."
"She can't do that"
"That's what I said; it seems his uncle is arranging everything so I've said I'd go with him if he wanted; is that okay?"
"Of course my love; of course you can; does Chris know when it is yet?"
Daniel said he didn't but suspected it would be the following week.
"If you're worried about leaving him on his own why not suggest he stays with us for a few days; at least until the funeral is over."
"Are you sure?" Daniel replied.
"Of course, that's what friends are for; apart from that he's a lovely guy and I wouldn't want him to feel nobody cares about him."
Daniel said he'd ask Chris and if he said he'd like to he'd take him back to the apartment. With that they said goodbye and Chris walked in looking a bit brighter.
"Just thought I'd ring Kevin" Daniel said since Chris had seen him put down his mobile.
"Ah" Chris replied wondering what to say next.
Daniel then told him what Kevin had said about him staying with them for a few days or at least until the funeral was over. Chris was overcome with emotion and pulled Daniel into an embrace.
"Thank you so much" he sobbed, "That would be great; I don't think I could stay here on my own".
"It's okay" Daniel replied patting Chris's naked backside and feeling tear drops fall onto his shoulder, "It's okay".
Finally Chris ceased sobbing and kissed Daniel.
"God, you must think I'm such a wimp; you and Kevin are so kind."
"Of course you're not a wimp; you should have seen me after my dad died; I cried non-stop for a week."
Having calmed down again, Daniel used the bathroom to clean off the stickiness he still had on him. He'd suggested that Chris pack a few things to take to their apartment whilst he cleaned up.
When he returned he found Chris stuffing clothes into a holdall along with his laptop.
"I'll give my Uncle David a ring later to see if he has any news about the funeral" Chris commented.
Daniel gazed at the naked guy moving around. He certainly was beautiful and decided he was so lucky to have a mother who accepted his sexuality.
When they'd both dressed, they made their way to the apartment. Kevin had never been before and gasped when he saw it.
"Wow, this is beautiful" he exclaimed once inside.
Daniel told him to dump his bag in the spare bedroom and then led him into the living room.
"Oh my, what a great view" Chris said walking over to the window.
Daniel opened the sliding door and walked out onto the terrace. They walked over to the balustrade and looked out over London.
"Pretty impressive isn't it" Daniel commented placing an arm round Chris.
For a moment Chris just looked at the view but then he suddenly turned to Daniel and pulled him into a tight embrace.
"Thank you so much" he said as yet more tears started pouring out.
Daniel just held him and let Chris sob away. Every so often he kissed the side of his head and pressed him against him. He knew this was the best way to comfort the guy. The closeness of another always seemed to make things better and he was more than happy to have this guy close to him.
"I'm sorry" Chris said once the sobbing had died down.
"No need to be" Daniel replied, "Crying is the best relief sometimes".
Chris giggled, "I can think of better ways" he said placing a hand into Daniel's crotch.
For some reason Daniel immediately pulled Chris into a passionate kiss. He hadn't meant to do so but it just happened. Chris didn't object and participated with as much enthusiasm. As they did so, they were feeling each other and it wasn't long before they both had raging hard-ons.
"I think we'd better get some lunch" Daniel said eventually having pulled out of the embrace.
"Yeah, perhaps we'd better" Chris replied somewhat disappointed, "God how I'd love to fuck you".
Daniel grinned, "Mm" was all he said in reply.
"Sorry, shouldn't have said that."
"The feeling's mutual," Daniel replied as he moved back inside and went into the kitchen.
Chris watched him walk off and wondered whether he would in fact get the opportunity any time!
When Kevin arrived home after work he found Daniel and Chris sitting side by side on the sofa. Chris had his head resting on Daniel's shoulder and Daniel had his arm round him. Kevin could see that Chris had been crying as his face was stained with tears.
"Hi guys; how are we?"
Chris just looked at him and gave a slight grimace. Daniel just smiled and kissed him.
"Have just done quiche and salad for the meal" Kevin explained later, "Didn't think you'd feel like eating a big meal Chris".
Chris thanked him and Kevin noted that he ate very little.
"It does get better in time Chris" Kevin said trying to get him to talk, "I know Daniel has found that after losing his dad and I did when my parents died".
Chris paused eating the little bit of salad that he was pushing round on his plate and looked up at Kevin, "Have your parents died then?"
Kevin explained how they'd both been lost at sea in a freak boating accident and that he didn't even have bodies to bury.
"You never forget but the pain gets easier as time goes by" Kevin added trying to comfort Chris.
"Suppose so" Chris murmured and burst into tears again.
Daniel shot up and put his arms round him. He just hugged him saying nothing. Kevin looked on with pride. He so loved the way his lover automatically comforted others.
After their meal, Chris went into his bedroom to call his uncle.
"Thanks for all you're doing for him Daniel" Kevin said as they cleared away the dishes.
"He feels so alone," Daniel replied, "it's difficult to know what to say at times".
"What you're doing is fine; when you feel alone having someone hug you and comfort you is quite sufficient; words aren't necessary; I'm very proud of you my love."
Daniel was moved by Kevin's comments and kissed him on the cheek. As always Kevin couldn't resist him and stopped what he was doing. He took Daniel into his arms and they kissed passionately. Both could feel the reaction this was causing so they rubbed against each other to show their love.
"Oh, sorry" Chris said when he returned to find Daniel and Kevin in a deep embrace and a passionate kiss. He so envied these guys. If only he'd managed to keep his boyfriend who'd now be the one kissing and cuddling him in his time of need.
"Come on in Chris; I'm afraid we can't get enough of each other!"
"I envy you; I'd love to have a boyfriend who loves me as much as you two love each other" Chris replied sadly.
"Come and join in" Kevin said opening his arms to make it a three way hug.
Chris moved forward and accepted the offer. He put his arms round the other two guys and they spent several minutes kissing and hugging each other. By the time they'd finished, all three had growing organs straining to get out down below but nothing was said or done about it.
"So, is there any news from your uncle?" Daniel asked when they'd finally moved apart.
"Yeah, the funeral is a week on Wednesday and he says its fine for you to stay over Daniel. In fact he's asked if I could stay over on the Wednesday as well so I was wondering if you could too. Is that okay Kevin?"
"Sure, no problem; I'm sure we can cope at the office for a couple of days without the pair of you."
"I need to buy a dark suit; I've not got anything suitable for the funeral" Chris then commented.
"Nor have I" Daniel chimed in.
Kevin suggested they both go shopping the following morning and named a couple of places to go to. He guessed Chris would have money to buy a decent suit but he wasn't sure about Daniel so later he told him he would put some money into his account to pay for it. Daniel tried to object at first but as usual Kevin won. "I've got the money, you've got the looks" Kevin laughed when they'd finally sorted it out.
The following morning they bought their suits plus a white shirt and suitably subdued ties. Kevin had said black ties were not essential for funerals these days so Daniel chose a dark blue one and Chris a dark grey.
Having dropped their purchases off at the apartment, they went to the office. Robert and Peter both told Chris how sorry they were to hear about his dad and hugged and kissed him. During the rest of the day Daniel kept a close watch on him but somehow he managed to get through.
The next few days leading up to the funeral were much the same. Chris seemed to operate on auto pilot. An image of his dad jumping off the top of the car park kept on flashing through his mind and he couldn't get rid of it. He wondered how long he would keep having that image plague him.
At the weekend, Kevin and Daniel tried to get his mind off it all by taking him out but they realised it was all very difficult for him and every so often he would burst into tears. Each time Daniel would take him into his arms and comfort him which seemed to calm him down.
The day before the funeral finally arrived and Chris tried to brace himself to manage the funeral itself and meeting his mum again.
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