Last Night; F/F

By moc.yag@lrrrGatsaP

Published on Aug 28, 2002

Lesbian

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Copyright 2001 Email all feedback to PastaGrrrl@gay.com http://www.asstr.org/~PastaGrrrl/ Thanks for reading.

Last Night

I flushed the toilet and stumbled out of the bathroom. The day was bright and I struggled to put it's needs into order. Saturday. I had really nothing to do, at least nothing I wanted to devote weekend time to. It was at that moment that she knocked on my door.

"Good morning," she stuttered, "I...want to explain about last night." I noticed she was holding two coffees in their to-go, cardboard cups with tight lids. How thoughtful. Was this a peace offering? If so, there was no dispute to be settled.

"Last night," I blushed and averted my eyes downward, noticing I was not necessarily decent in my practically sheer camisole and shorts I had slept in. I remembered last night. We were at her apartment working on the department's project. We had been staring at a computer screen for hours when she turned to me, her face illuminated in that strange way only the artificial light from a monitor can. She turned to me and touched me. Touched my face. Laid her palm along side my left cheek. It was all I could do to keep from melting right there. What more could there be in life than that? I looked into her icy blue eyes and saw all of her imperfections that weren't familiar to me, and other aspects I had before admired. Wrinkles, blemishes, the hue of her skin. I took it in all at once. I had never allowed myself to look at her that intently before. But last night, with that one gesture, I knew this thing I felt had to be dealt with. She had touched me. Does life go on after that?

She seemed almost surprised at what she was doing. Her gaze intent and kind would not let me go. I conceded. I conceded to whatever might happen in those next few moments. I let go, let my feelings surface. I brought my hand up to hers, felt the heat from it, the skin, closed my eyes, savoring, touching. As I opened them she came closer. Our lips met, closed and tentative. I could faintly feel the moisture from her mouth, her breath. I was quiet but wild. I gently parted my lips hoping she would do the same. We tasted each other last night. Not in a crass sense, but in an ephemeral, caring, dream-like way. A sort of confession.

I had not yet admitted to myself that I loved this woman, although I had admired her for the longest time. She was older than me, by at least a decade. She had taught me in my undergraduate years. She was alive, though, you see. She wasn't stagnant. She was beautiful, she shined. And I was thrilled to be awarded a teaching job at the same university, in the same department as she. That's really how this whole thing started.

"Come in," I said as she handed me a coffee. I started into the kitchen to put sugar and cream in, she followed.

"I don't regret it."

A look of shock entered my face, but a type of smile as well. I turned to face her. "But...I thought..."

"Thought what? That I'd had a momentary lapse of judgment? Ellie, what happened last night, I've been wanting for awhile now."

More shock. This time she could see it. She could see in my face the miscellany of emotions running their course. Confusion, joy, contentment, relief, and still - shock. "Lynne...," I searched for words. Had I ever been this dumbfounded? This woman was before me, and all I could do was trip over my own tongue. I wanted to tell her everything: how she lit up a room when she entered, how I had purposely taken her and only her classes, how she was beautiful - so beautiful, and how I had been in love with her for such a long time. Maybe she would think I was crazy, obsessed even. "Lynne, you have no idea." My hands were trembling, holding, caressing her neck. As if they had moved there involuntarily. Her hands were on my face, capturing me. Her eyes were on mine, capturing them too. And then she was kissing me. Our tongues came together sharing secrets and stories. All of it was happening so fast, it was washing over me. I felt like crying. I felt like shouting, smiling. It was a more pervasive kiss. A more immediate - emergency kiss. As if we didn't solidify how we felt at that moment, it would all disappear, like nothing had happened the night before. Last night. I remembered everything, as if her lips were a photo album and I was flipping through pages. I was leaping to and from each scene that had taken place over the past few weeks. The first day of classes when we spoke for the first time in years. The first night we devoted to working on our collaboration for the department. And the time I had noticed her in that discreet lesbian bar while having cocktails and appetizers with my friends. That's how we knew. Because of that moment, we knew.

We were still together, after what seemed like a half an hour. Our lips would not leave each other. I was enjoying it too much. Her lips, her thin little lips, demure at times, now swallowing me up. Not taking "no" for an answer. Her tongue - aggressive, took me by surprise. She was so persuasive. So beautiful in her honesty about it all.

We pulled away. I looked at her and saw an expression. A look totally unknown to me, but I could read it. I could almost hear her say it, or maybe it was wishful thinking. I needed her. Wanted her. Needed to feel her skin, her warmth. I needed to hear her so badly. I lead her by the hand into my bedroom. The coffees were a memory and it was just us, on my bed. Exploring, searching. Oh, the privilege women can give. I got to brush her blond hair aside, kiss her neck, unbutton her blouse. I got to touch her nose, her cheeks, her breasts. She allowed me those sensations. She arched herself to me and I covered her. I covered her with my body, my kisses, my hands, and myself. She sighed and moaned when I kissed her chest. Her nearly flat expanse of a chest. The way she moved her hips when my hands roamed to the right places was confident and definite. This woman who I had always seen as timid and proper was downright self-possessed in private circumstances.

I had fingers in her. I remember my juvenile thought of never wanting to wash those fingers. She was wondrous as she moved, gently and continually, in quite a legato type sense, soft and flowing. I read her. I read her movements and breathing, her sounds. Until she became insistent. Moving faster and harder with each stroke. She stretched her head back to the mattress and arched her body to meet me. She became louder, I could hear her. I could hear her response, her cumming, her audible cries of satisfaction.

No sooner had I heard her was she in me as well. So sensitive and all-knowing. I remember her hair as she was down there. I remember wrenching the bedclothes in my fists as I writhed in glory. My voice with a life of its own. It felt so good to have her in me, consume me. Just for a moment, I wanted her to hurt me. So I could have the scars as a souvenirs. I remember feeling as though I could die. I could have been hit by a bus the very next day because nothing the rest of my life could have been better than that moment. Knowing that she loved me.

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