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Sorry for the long wait for last chapter. It's spring break here, so I have more hours at work >.> Although my mind is mostly to blame for it. Stupid writer's block and stuff.
Last chapter Nick got uncomfortable at the dance and ended up going to Lucas' for the night. Not long after they arrived they had a grand old time just to be found at the end by Lucas' little brother, age 11, Blake.
This chapter is them getting out of that situation and a little bit of Zach and Shane. And a new adult character will be added! SHE will be rather important to almost all four boys, in one way or another.
Now on with the show!! With a little love for MJ in the title XD.
Chapter 18 – Hold My Hand
Lucas' POV
Oh shit, oh shit, oh shit, oh shit!! How did I not notice Blake enter my room!? I always notice cause I've rigged my door to set off some bells like a store. I mean it's failed me at the beginning but now it works perfectly!
I can't even read his expression that's how scared I am right now. "Blake, What are you doing down here!?" I had to hide mine and Nick's naked bodies but Nick up and fell asleep on me. Now I gotta talk to my brother in the most awkward way possible.
"Well I came down here to remind you Mom's gonna be in town this weekend... But you were preoccupied..." Oh god he saw!! "What were you doing?"
"Blake remember when dad said he doesn't want a gay guy touching us?" Blake nods. "Well, I basically did what he doesn't want them to do... to Nick..."
"So your gay?" My face must look like a fireplace right now.
"No, Blake. I'm not!"
"But you said that you did what dad doesn't want..."
"I know what I said! It's complicated." Oh god how do you explain sexuality to your 11 year old brother? "There are different kinds of people who refer different things. Have you had the sex class in school yet?"
"They mentioned something about down there changing soon. Why?"
"Okay... That's called puberty and a lot more than 'down there' is gonna change. When you get older your gonna get sexually active in some way." This is soooooo very awkward, you have no idea! "So you'll find girls cute and 'it' will grow harder at times."
Blake started to bite his lip. That's what he does instead of blushing... he bites his lip. "Oh... okay cool."
"Blake what's up?"
"Nothing."
"Your biting your lip something is bugging you about what I just said, spit it out."
"'It' is... um ya. What you said... right now." WHAT!? My brother has a boner right now!? Well I guess at 11 anyone could get turned on by what we did but seriously!? "And girls are yucky."
"Why are girls 'yucky'?"
"They have Cooties!" Of course they do Blake... Of course they do.
"Blake you have to promise me you wont tell dad, Rita or Riley what you saw okay? Brother's code."
"What about mom?"
"Not mom either."
"Got it. But you have more explaining to do mister!" Blake ran up the stairs and out of my room. Good god that was a close one!
After that I moved myself toward my pillow just enough to get my head on it. Nick didn't even wake up the entire time. I even poked him in the cheek, nothin'. Then I fell asleep in the best position I've been in in a long time. With Nick laying on my chest and my arms around him.
Besides Blake walking in, tonight has been a great night.
Zach's POV – Saturday morning
The dance was lost of fun. It was my first ever school dance and I had a blast. Kyle even let me do the music for it for a bit. Shane was dancing with almost every person in the gym. Well every girl at least.
When it was over we brought everything for the tech club back to the theater and were on our way. It didn't take that long to put stuff away and get a little thank you from John. By the time we were done it was almost midnight. Shane got picked up by Scott and went home.
That didn't stop us from texting each other though. I barely got into my front door before my phone went off.
Shane – I feel bad about Nick.
Me – Ya, I hope he's okay
Shane – He's a trooper, he'll be fine. I'll talk to him on Monday.
Not even joking, Shane always does proper English stuff in texting. He doesn't even say things like 'LOL' or 'BRB'. Nothing of that sorts. He gets mad at me when I do it though.
Me – So wuts the plan for the weekend??
Shane – What** and I have an appointment.
Me - Wut kind of appointment??
Shane – WHAT**!! It's not a 'u' and it has an 'h'. Seriously. I have a appointment with the psychologist.
Me – We have one of those in town??
Shane – No she comes into town every other weekend. I've been seeing her monthly since grade 7.
Me – Oh, i see
Shane – I** seriously you need auto correct on your phone.
Me – No i dont im fine
Shane – Dear god, help me! Anyways I was wondering if you wanna, maybe, come with me to my appointment. It's only an hour, it's at 10am though.
Me – Well im off to bed
Shane – What! No answer!?
Me – If i have to be ready for an appointment at 10am i gotta get to bed now.
Shane – Oh... that makes sense. I'll pick you up at 9:30. You'll get to meet my brother, Noah!
Me – Night!
Before I even got his text I was asleep dreaming of him and me going on another another date.
Shane wasn't lying when he said he was gonna be here at 9:30. I think I heard my doorbell at 9:30 exactly. Not to mention a Shane entering my room moments later. "Come on lazy, lets go!"
"It's called tired not lazy."
"Same thing, now get going!"
"I still need to brush my hair!"
"You look fine like that! Come on lets go!"
Against my will I was pulled out of my home by Shane with my mop of hair flowing as it felt. Now this wouldn't have been a big deal to me if one: I wasn't going into public and 2: Noah is in the fucking car!!
Shane's big brother is in the car and is gonna see my messy hair! Shane was right when he described his brother. Exactly like him just older, and no glasses. This is like Shane's overly protective brother I'm meeting! What is he gonna think of me!?
"Hey, I'm Noah, Shane must have pulled you out while you were still getting ready." I had barely gotten into the car and he was talking to me like he knew me. What has Shane told him.
"Zach, nice to finally meet you. Shane has told me enough to write a book about you two."
"I could say the same for you two." Noah seams really nice. I also have only heard two sentences come out of his mouth. I just hope I don't get on his bad side.
The ride was mostly Shane talking about stuff me and him have done. I think it's the most talkative I've seen him ever. He kept bouncing and shouting. It wasn't that long though until we got to the place where his appointment is.
The moment the car stopped Shane went quiet. He was the last one out of the car and took his sweet time to get inside. Even with the 10 degree weather outside.
Shane though went up the stairs all by himself, Noah held be back. "He gets really talkative during the ride and then becomes silent till like halfway through the appointment."
"Oh..." Well that's kinda odd don't ya think? "Is their anything I can do?"
"Well if he wants to snuggle up, like he usually does, just let him." Noah protects his little brother more than he protects himself it seams, "Oh and I'm gonna take this time to tell you one thing."
There's the line I was waiting for. "I'm not gonna hurt Shane I swear!"
"Good, or you'd be in a world of hurt. Shane is the only person I got left. I hate to see him like this." Noah actually had a really sad look in his eyes. "Has he ever told you why he comes for these appointments?"
Noah started walking up the stairs, I fallowed, "I assumed it was because of his nightmares. Other than that he didn't say why."
"That's exactly why. I'm guessing he hasn't told you what they were about."
"Actually last weekend he told a group of us."
"Really!? I was told only a year ago. When the whole Lucas thing happened. Not even Dr. Bear knows what happens yet."
"Dr. Bear? Like Lucas Bear?"
"Yep. Anyways we should get in the office before Shane freaks out." Great now I'm going to see Lucas' mom with Shane. How can this get anymore awkward? Wait I take that back, cause I know it still can get worse.
The wait in the waiting room my have felt like forever for Shane. He was leaning into me the entire time twirling his thumbs around in circles. He even tried to apologize for pulling me out before I brushed my hair. I said it was fine and then asked if there was anything I could do. To which he replied nothing. Literally nothing at all, he remained silent.
It was actually about 10 when a lady walked through the doors saying, "Shane Hearing?" Shane got up pulling me up with him. When we reached the lady she had a skeptical look. "And who is this?"
"He's Zach." Not to my surprise it was Noah who answered.
"If he's not family he'll have to wait here." Shane grabbed tighter, it kinda hurt to be honest.
"I think having Zach join the session is a good idea." the voice came from behind the nurse, who moved out of the way instantly. "Hello again Shane how are you?"
THIS is Lucas' mom!? I'm gay and I can tell she's a MILF!! She has Lucas' blonde hair in a bun, his blue eyes. Not to mention the body of a 20 year old! Like if I was straight I would all over her, if I was older.
"But ma'am it's against..."
"Report me if you will, but I believe it will help with Shane's progress. Come on you three." Well I guess that settles that? I just kinda fallowed Noah and Dr. Bear.
The room was very welcoming. No desk, just a coffee table, a couch and a love seat. A couple of bookshelves covered one wall and anther was almost entirely windows to a garden. It is a rather nice looking room. I sat down at one end of the couch, Shane snuggled up just like out in the waiting room.
"So I guess I'll start how we have always started: When was the last time you had your nightmare?" She gets to business quickly.
"About 2 weeks ago. When I slept over at Zach's place." Shane had a huge blush on his face when he said that.
"Am I right to assume that you two are a couple?"
"Uhhh, I don't know actually. We've went on a date and have hung out allot, but neither one of us has asked to be boyfriends."
"I see, so you two are not sexually active then?" That got a cough out of me. I mean what kind of question is that!?
After I calmed down I answered, "The most we've ever done is snuggle in our underwear." and then I blushed.
"Well I see. So what happened the night you got the nightmare?" Shane explained it rather lightly. So I went into more detail. Like what we did, who we met up with, why he slept over and my point of view of how he ended up in my bed. It only took me like 10 minutes to explain it all.
Dr. Bear then looked over previous reports, probably about the other times he's had the nightmares. Shane lanced his fingers with mine when she looked. I really couldn't do much. It felt like she was taking her time looking through the notes. She even separated them into piles.
Noah was the one to break the silence. "So do you have any idea on why it continues to happen?"
"I actually have several." Well that's good news. "If you have noticed I have ever incident that happened the day of a nightmare filled night in piles. The first pile is all the nightmare reports before you started coming to me. The second the ones that involved Noah. Third, Scott and Paula. Fourth, while being alone. And fifth, with friends."
"And what are your ideas?"
"Well every incident has one of two,and sometimes both, center points. With friends and Scott and Paula you had them at the beginning of sleeping in the new house or the first few times sleeping at a friends. Involving Noah, it's usually when an older man gets angry at one of you two. Alone, it seams to be a mixture of the two points and the previous ones all match up aswell."
"So then what causes my nightmares?" Finally Shane's getting back to being himself.
"Well if you ask me, you have trust issues and you react to similarities of the two situations." Wait didn't Noah say she doesn't know what happens in his nightmares? "It seams when your getting to know someone, let it be Lucas or Zach here, they need to prove that they deserve your trust. The nightmares seam to act as a reminder for you. When you see someone getting as aggressive as your father was you react negatively as well."
"Ma'am I haven't been completely honest." Shane didn't even look at her when he said it. His head was 'hiding' in my chest.
"What do you mean Shane?"
"I wasn't honest when I told you what the nightmares were about. Or about the people Noah defended me from." She waited, not saying anything. She didn't seam surprised by the whole ordeal either. Shane went on to explain that all 'men' Noah argued with were talking about 'who raped him'. The men were actually school bullies and were actually talking about who could have made him turn gay.
"I see, what about the nightmare then Shane?" This took the rest of his time. He actually went into detail about everything. Like more than he did at Gage's. Like how his dad started with making him play with his dick in front of him, at age 9! How that turned into his dad fingering him almost anytime they were home alone.
Then he stopped mid sentence, "I was 10 when he..." Everyone who was paying attention, and who wasn't, knew what he ment. "It was just after his birthday. He said it would be his birthday gift from me. Saying the watch Noah paid for wasn't from me.
"It was on my 11th birthday that Noah came home early from his friends and found him raping me. I was gagged and handcuffed to the bed because I wouldn't co-operate." As he went on he started to cry more and more, until he burst into tears, crying into my chest. I started to rub his back, noticing on my watch we finished 12 minutes ago.
"I didn't enter the room." Noah continued the story. "I was worried that I would make things worse for him. So I called 911, asked for the police to come silently and I would let them in. They did as I asked." He then stopped like Shane did.
"I'm sorry Noah, but I need you to finish the story." There was a knock at the door. All Dr. Bear did was push a button and went back to looking at Noah. "Please continue, Noah."
Noah took a deep breath, "When the police got there I let them in and led them to my brother's room. Moans and groans could still be heard from inside. One of the cops slowly opened the door, gun in hand. While another had his gun in ready. When they opened the door and did the whole 'Hands up' thing. My heart nearly jumped out of my chest.
"Shane was not only gagged and handcuffed, but had several bruises on his body. The worse on his face, around his left eye. To make maters worse when he fell of the bed from the surprise, I could hear Shane scream through his gag." Noah was visibly shaking and on the verge of tears.
"Okay I think that's enough for today." Dr. Bear cleaned up her notes and took out her appointment book. "I am moving appointments around so I can meet with you THREE next Saturday for a double. I believe that if Shane can get into talking like he usually does, then I can get to the bottom of his nightmares for next month's session. Does this sound good to you three?"
Of course we all agreed. The appointment was made for next Saturday at the same time. She explained that nothing was effected negatively other than her break times. After all that was done and Shane and Noah were looking better we went out to the waiting room, where we saw Lucas, Nick and some other kid.
"Oh, hey Shane, I didn't realize today was your session." Lucas had sympathy in his voice. I think it went unnoticed by the other two. "Oh Zach this is my little brother Blake."
"Hey there." Blake waved back, biting his lip. "What are you guys up to?"
"Waiting for my mom. We're going out for lunch at Pizza Hut. What are you guys gonna do now?"
"I'm going to take Shane and Noah out for ice cream at DQ." Shane started to open his mouth to argue, "And there is no arguments! It's free ice cream."
"Fine, then can I get a large blizzard?"
"You could get two large blizzards if you could eat that much."
"Noah can! My stomach gets sore as I get half way through the second."
"That settles it! To DQ!!" I gotta get the mood up in here. Ice cream has always done it for me. It should get Shane and Noah's mood up too. Lets hope I'm right.
Gage's POV
After the dance I pretty much went right to sleep. Now I'm out hanging with Sam just walking around talkin'. "The dance was pretty fun, eh?"
"Ya we sold almost all of our glow stick inventory. We're gonna have to get more before Halloween dance." Sam kicks a stone down the sidewalk. That's usually does that when he wants to talk about something. "Have you heard from Nick today?"
"Ya he's going to lunch with Lucas and his family. He should be home for dinner."
"Okay, ummm... about Nick..." As we reached the rock again he kicked it, "You know how you and Nick have bonding time..."
Oh I get what he's talking about. Me and Nick getting dirty. "Ya... I guess you'd want me to stop that huh?"
"No I wanted to tell you I'm okay with it. I get it, your sexually active and I'm not so much. I don't mind if you keep doing it with Nick. Only Nick though, no one else."
"Just wondering, but what cause you to think of this?"
"Well last night Nick was upset cause he keeps holding in his feelings and he exploded. So I didn't want to hold in how I felt about something important like this. That and I wasn't sure what you would be doing so."
"Don't worry I think I set myself up with even tighter rules than you did. But thanks for letting me know."
"You're gonna pound your brother tonight aren't you?"
"If he's up for it. I mean Lucas had a raging hard on when we got to my house last night."
"Really I didn't notice."
"Ya he kept fixing himself. I found it amusing he finds Nick attractive."
"Maybe he'll get Nick out of his shell."
"Maybe..." If anyone can it's one of his friends, if not all of them. "Hey lets go to Timmies! I want a hot chocolate!"
"You always want a hot chocolate... fine lets go."
"Yes! Don't worry I'll get you something if you want." I love days like this that we just hang out. They are even better now that we are a couple. Sam is exactly what I love about him. He is himself... that sounds kinda weird... oh well.
Chapter end.
Okay so There is Lucas' mom, Dr. Iris Bear. We also got a little bit of Noah... but you basically knew how he would act. She will be important in at least 2 of the 4 boys stories, maybe 3.
Next chapter will be out as soon as I can get it out. If you have any ideas or comments about the story so far that you wanna share with me you have two options. One is to email me at kuragari129@hotmail.com, the other is to go to the fan page on facebook and send me a message. http://www.facebook.com/LifesExpectations Don't forget to like the page while your there!
P.S. I do live in Canada and I love Tim Horton's hot chocolates! To bad its becoming summer time... Well at least I like their smoothies too.