This is a gay love story. The characters are fictional but the story is based on real life situations. It contains explicit m/m sex so be warned. You'll also need the tissues for various reasons!
Moving Forward by Adam Stewart
I had been a hospital nurse since leaving school. I had completed my training and was just twenty one. On the whole I was enjoying life. Being gay was not too much of a problem for me although I had the occasional sneer from other members of the male staff. I knew I was `different' from an early age. Probably twelve or thirteen since I noticed that my friends were always running round the girls and I wasn't interested. I loved being with boys. As I grew older I realised that I was gay and loved seeing other guys naked in the showers after sports. Not that I was any good at sports but I did them just to have the opportunity of having showers with the other guys!
When I was eighteen, my mother said one day `Are you gay'. I was shocked at the directness of her question but that was typical of the way she confronted issues.
"What makes you think that?" I replied without actually answering the question. She went on about the fact that I never seemed to go out with girls and was always with the boys. I was an only child and she was hoping for lots of grandchildren. I knew she was going to be disappointed!
Some time later I did admit to being gay and she told me not to mention it to my father since he would go mad.
"Why should he bother?" I asked, "It's my life and I didn't choose to be gay. It was how you and he made me so fuck what he thinks".
My mother knew my father and I never really got on so she was not surprised. She just wanted a quiet life so nothing more was said. It did however make me realise it was time to leave home so I applied for a nursing job in a London hospital and found myself a bed-sit. It was crappy but since I spent most of my time at the hospital it didn't bother me. I enjoyed my job and dealing with all the patients and the senior staff loved having me on their team.
One day a guy was brought in who had been involved in a very bad car crash. His legs were in a bad state and I was told that both his parents had died in the crash.
"He's going to need careful nursing Adam" the Ward Sister explained, "and I think you're just the person to look after him".
She was always buttering me up like this so I just smiled guessing that this guy was going to be a difficult patient. He was but I immediately fell in love with him the moment I met him. Once he had regained consciousness I went in to see him and introduce myself.
"Hi Luke, I'm going to be looking after you for a while". He was in one of the private patient wards so I guessed he was either wealthy or he had private health insurance. It turned out to be the former!
The guy looked at me and grinned, "Well I presume I could do worse". I looked at him wondering what he meant. "Well you're a good looking guy so I won't mind getting to know you better".
I grinned back and immediately felt my manhood beginning to react. I was used to other guys finding me attractive because I was from a mixed marriage. My mother was white British and my father was originally from Mexico. I had got his bronzed complexion and his good looks. I often wondered whether this was why we didn't get on. The other female staff were always buzzing round me and wanting me to go out with them but when they found out I was gay they looked elsewhere. I had several gay friends but nobody who I could really call a boyfriend. I had plenty of one night stands but ached for someone who I could share a bed with on an ongoing basis.
I got to know Luke extremely well during the first four weeks. His legs were basically paralysed so he needed help to get up, go to the bathroom, wash and shower. I spent my time helping him in and out of bed and chairs, and holding him up whilst he moved around. During the first few days he wasn't able to get up so I had to give him bed baths. He was never embarrassed whilst I washed him and when I suggested he did his private parts he just grinned and said "I'm sure you'd like to do them".
I always just grinned and did as he asked. On several occasions he swelled up whilst I was washing down there.
"Well at least that still works" he would say as I ran the flannel over the swelling organ and under his balls.
"I take it you're gay" I said one day.
He smiled and pulled me closer. "Of course I am", he replied whilst at the same time putting his hand into my crotch, "That's why I like you looking after me and by the feel of things so do you".
He was right, I did like looking after him and every time I was handling his gorgeous body I felt my own react.
"Mm, you're a challenging patient" I replied, "and if you're not careful you're going to get me sacked".
He laughed, "Oh don't worry I won't say anything and I'll be good when anyone else is around but I like you Adam. I like you very much. If I was able to do so I'd jump out of bed right now and give you a good fuck. I take it you like being fucked."
I whispered in his ear "I do, and I like fucking attractive guys".
"Ooh, is that an offer?"
"Mm could be if you're good"
We had this kind of banter almost every time I tended to his needs and when I wasn't on duty he was always disappointed. I even started going in just to see him on my off days much to the amusement of the Ward Sister as he seldom had other visitors.
"You seem to get on very well with Luke" she commented one day, "He's coming on leaps and bounds considering what he's been through but you should be aware that the likelihood of him getting back the use of his legs is pretty slim".
I had realised this from reading his medical notes and knew that he would probably end up in a wheelchair all his life. Life's so bloody unfair' I told myself, a gorgeous guy like that and he can't live life to the full'.
How wrong I was but I didn't know that at the time.
I had been off duty for three days and as I'd had things to do at home such as cleaning my pad and doing my washing I hadn't been in to see Luke. When I walked into his room on my first day back I immediately realised something was wrong.
I went over to his bed and took hold of his hand. "You okay?"
He looked at me with tears in his eyes. "What the hell am I going to do Adam? Both my parents are dead and I've now been told that I will never have the use of my legs. I'll be stuck in a fucking wheelchair. How the hell am I going to pull attractive guys like you again?"
I smiled and squeezed his hand before giving him a light kiss on his lips. I knew it was against all the things a nurse should do but I so loved this guy that I could not stop myself.
"You managed to pull me and you couldn't do anything when we first met. At least you've got some mobility now."
Luke looked at me and smiled.
"That's what I love about you Adam; you always look on the positive side of life"
"Yeah well, you have to otherwise it's a pretty shitty life isn't it?"
"I've never asked, but do you have a boyfriend Adam?"
I looked at him wondering why he'd asked, "Nope, nobody seems to want to have a long term relationship with me. All they want is a quick fuck."
Luke laughed, "Yeah well I can understand why they want to fuck you, so do I but I'm surprised because you really are a lovely guy".
"Can I ask you something Luke?" I said sitting on the side of the bed.
"Do you know how the accident happened?"
He thought for a moment before answering and I wondered whether I had gone too far.
"I was taking my folks out for a meal because it was my Mum's birthday. I don't drive so my Dad said he'd drive us to where we were going. He never drank much so it didn't bother him. On the way there a lorry suddenly swerved across from the other side of the road and hit the car head on. I was in the back but the front of the car was completely crushed killing my parents outright."
"Oh my god, I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have asked"
Luke squeezed my hand with tears rolling down his cheeks, "It's okay, I need to come to terms with it all and having you looking after me is making it easier to cope with".
"Did your folks know you were gay?"
"Yeah and they were okay with it despite me being an only child."
I told Luke about my parents and the fact that they never mentioned the topic. I still wondered whether my Dad really knew but he must have guessed by now.
"I'm sorry Adam; it's hard when you've got nobody to talk to about such things when you're growing up. I was lucky really. They still loved me for what I am."
It was my turn to have tears running down my face and he put a hand up to wipe them away.
"We really are a pair aren't we?" he said.
He then told me that the doctors had said they could not do anything else for him so if he could make suitable arrangements for someone to look after him he could go home.
"Do you feel ready to go home yet?" I asked.
"Yeah, I think so; as much as I love having you look after me I am aching to get out of here"
I didn't blame him. Being in hospital is no fun really.
"That brings me to something I want to ask you Adam"
I looked at him wondering what it was going to be.
"I need someone to be with me at home. I know I can't manage on my own; at least not for some long time. I was wondering if you'd be willing to be my live in nurse come boyfriend. You must have realised that I have fallen in love with you and would love to have you with me all the time."
I was taken aback since I had not expected this. He continued by telling me that he was a wealthy person, especially following the death of his parents since his father was the owner of a property business which was clearly very successful.
"I'll pay you far more than you get here as a nurse and you'll have a nice London apartment to live in rent free with everything you need and if you want to still go and fuck other guys that's okay with me as long as I can fuck you and you fuck me whenever."
I laughed before answering.
"Sorry, have I gone too far?"
In reply I bent over and kissed him but this time it was more than a gentle kiss on the lips. Our mouths locked together for what seemed like several minutes before I withdrew by tongue from his mouth.
"Is that a yes?" he grinned.
"It is Luke" I replied grinning in reply, "I fell in love with you the minute I met you but never dreamed this would happen".
He pulled me closer and kissed me again.
"Oh my god you don't know how relieved I am", he said when he'd finished.
I suddenly realised that I'd done nothing apart from sit on his bed so I quickly pulled back his bedclothes and helped him out of bed for his shower. The whole time he had an erection and got me to hold him several times.
"If I was sure nobody would come in I'd get down and suck that but I'd better not" I said giving the long hard tool another feel as I dried him.
We talked about the logistics of him going home and me leaving the hospital. He said he'd talk to his doctor and say that he particularly wanted me to nurse him at home and I'd talk to my manager to see how I could get released from the hospital.
Three days later I was wheeling Luke down the corridor having said goodbye to all my colleagues. The hospital had been very accommodating and let me use my holiday as my notice period. They even said that there'd always be a job for me at the hospital if and when I needed one.
"We'll all miss you Adam" my favourite Ward Sister said as she gave me and Luke final instructions on what medication he had to take. "You're a lucky man Luke to have Adam looking after you" she added smiling.
"I know he's gorgeous isn't he!"
With that we left the hospital and a specially arranged car took us to his apartment. When I saw it I was gob smacked. It over looked the river and was clearly a very expensive apartment block. As I wheeled Luke in, the Commissionaire came up to help us through the doors and said how pleased he was to see Luke and how sorry he was to hear about his parents.
"Thanks Liam. I'd like you to meet Adam. He's going to be my live in nurse amongst other things".
Liam warmly shook my hand and said he was pleased to meet me and if there was anything we needed just to ring down. I had the feeling he was one of the family by the way he looked me up and down and held my hand.
I wheeled Luke to the lift and Liam helped me in with various packages we had with us. He offered to come up with us but Luke said we could manage on our own. Once in the lift and making our way to the top floor I said "He seems a nice guy".
Luke laughed, "He is very nice and he's one of us". He then explained that three of them worked shifts to provide a 24 hour service but Liam was the nicest. "The other two are nice but not gay. Liam will do anything for you".
I grinned wondering what exactly that meant and whether Luke had fucked him at some point.
What Luke hadn't told me was that he owned a penthouse apartment. It was enormous with three bedrooms, a large living area with a kitchen off one end and a wrap around balcony. He wheeled himself round the apartment as I opened doors and showed me everything. It was out of this world and I couldn't believe I was going to live here.
"Fucking hell" I exclaimed as I took it all in, "this is just amazing".
Luke grinned and held my hand, "Now you have a choice. You can have your own bedroom if you like or you can move in with me. I have a large queen size bed so there's plenty of room if you don't object sleeping with a crippled queen".
I playfully slapped him on his shoulder, "First you're not a cripple. You're disabled. I agree you are a queen but I like that. Secondly I'd love to share your bed and move in with you if you can cope with my sexual appetite."
"You bet I can" he replied, "I may not have the use of my legs but my cock is in perfect working order as well you know. I may not be as agile as I used to be but I'm sure we can get round that small inconvenience."
"I bent over and hugged him. Oh god I love you so much."
Luke grinned his appealing smile that always got to me, "I love you too you gorgeous hunk and I want to see you stark naked. It's not fair; so far you've seen what I have to offer but all I've done is feel you; not that I'm complaining because from what I've felt I'm sure I'm not going to be disappointed."
I pushed him into the main bedroom, which was enormous with a wet room en-suite off it, and got him out of his wheelchair and sitting on the bed. I then started stripping off in front of him flinging each item of clothing to one side as I did so. He just sat and watched me. The thought of being naked in front of him had already given me a hard-on so when I had stripped off my jeans a large bulge was straining to get out of my pants.
"Mm, that looks very delicious" Luke exclaimed as his eyes fixed onto my crotch.
I stripped off my shirt and stood for a moment in my briefs. I moved nearer to him and he slowly pulled them down my legs to expose my organ.
"Oh yeah, that is fucking gorgeous" he exclaimed as he bent forward to take it into his mouth.
I quickly kicked my briefs off and stood stark naked as he sucked away. The feel of his hot mouth round my rampant cock was just wonderful. I groaned and groaned as he sucked it up and down. He certainly knew how to service a guy and I could see there was not going to be any problem in that department.
"Mm, I'm so glad I met you Adam" he finally exclaimed when he got me almost to the point of shooting my load.
"Help me get out of these clothes please" he then said, "I want to feel that cock inside me and I want mine inside you."
I swung his legs onto the bed and quickly removed all his clothes flinging them on the floor to join mine. I'd clear up the mess later but now I wanted to have our naked bodies close together and feel the warmth of his cock inside me. I was normally a top but for some reason I wanted Luke inside me. He'd already said that he was versatile so I knew we were going to have great fun together.
When he was naked, I moved him onto his side and lay in front of him. He'd told me there was some lube in the bedside cabinet so I'd already lubricated my arse and his cock. I then slowly moved my body back onto his cock. He still had movement in his hips so he was able to rock himself back and forth once his cock was fully inside me.
"Oh my god; that feels so good Luke"
"You bet it does" he replied pushing himself even harder into my arse, "It's been so long since I've fucked someone but this is the best fuck I think I've ever had."
"Yeah, I bet you say that to all the guys" I replied laughing. But it was good. I too had not had a fuck as good as this for a long time and it felt different from the usual one night stand because I knew I loved him and we'd be doing this whenever we felt like it.
"Mm, your cock feels so good inside me" I purred as he continued fucking.
I lost count of how many times he thrust back and forth and the time we had been doing it but eventually I sensed his body tensing and suddenly I could feel hot cum shooting inside me. It was wonderful.
We stayed linked together for another ten minutes or more just holding each other. The feel of his warm naked body up against mine was just wonderful. I also loved the feel of his organ inside me which had remained hard despite having shot his load. The feel of a long hard cock pulling out always turned me on.
Finally I slowly moved away and extracted his cock from within me. "It's time we got you showered" I said getting off the bed.
"Oh, I was hoping you'd fuck me first" he exclaimed like a spoilt school boy.
"Plenty of time for that later" I replied laughing, "First I must get you showered and massage your legs".
The Doctor had instilled into me that I must massage Luke's legs and his butt regularly to keep his circulation in order. I always enjoyed doing it because it meant I could rub my hands up and down his naked thighs into his groin – and he never complained either!
I got him into the wheelchair and wheeled him into the en-suite. It was perfect for him. In preparation for his return home he'd had special bars fitted inside the shower and beside the toilet to hold on to so it made my job that much easier. I gently lifted him out of the chair and he stood on a rubber mat inside the shower area. I helped him lift himself up using the handrails and moved the chair away. I joined him for a shower and we let the warm water bathe our naked bodies. I was dying to kneel down and suck his cock but I knew he could only stand for a few minutes at present so it would be too much for him. This was another instruction from the Doctor – only a few minutes at a time when standing.
As I soaped his naked body I admired it. He was beautiful. Despite having lost the use of his legs his body was unblemished. His injury had been to the spine and had damaged the nerves that operated his legs. Having washed off the soap I quickly dried him and sat him back in his chair whilst he watched me have my shower.
"Mm, I love looking at your gorgeous naked body" he exclaimed, "You really are absolutely gorgeous".
I grinned and was glad he liked what he saw since he was going to see a lot of it!
When I was dry I wheeled him back into the bedroom. "Right, what do you want to wear?"
"Ah, forgot to tell you" he said grinning, "I love going round stark naked. Do you mind?"
I laughed "You're full of surprises; of course I don't mind; I like doing the same"
"Oh goody; I was hoping you would because I just love looking at that naked body of yours"
I flipped him with a pair of pants I was holding "You're incorrigible".
We both laughed and I bent over and kissed him. Now he was home he was laughing and joking and the fact that he was disabled hardly seemed to be a problem for him but I guessed that would come later.
He wheeled himself into the living room and I said I would prepare some lunch. I hadn't actually told him that I loved preparing meals and cooking. It was a passion of mine and I had nearly gone into catering rather than nursing but decided the latter would be more rewarding.
"How about a salad for now and I'll cook a hot meal this evening"
"Perfect"
He moved into the kitchen and told me where things were. As with the rest of the apartment it was just wonderful. Every possible gadget you could imagine and plenty of space. He had arranged for someone from his company to stock the fridge so there was plenty to choose from. I quickly threw together a salad and opened some tuna and took it into the living room which had a dining table at one end near the kitchen. Luke laid the table the best he could and we finally sat round the table and ate.
"There's something else I need to tell you Adam"
I looked at him wondering what new piece of information was about to come out.
"My parents' funeral is on Monday"
To be honest I hadn't really thought about whether or not the funeral had taken place. He had been in hospital for nearly six weeks but everything had been put on hold because of delays due to autopsies and the fact that he had insisted that he wanted to be present at the funeral, which was understandable.
"Would you come with me?"
"Of course I will Luke; I'll be with you whenever and wherever you need to go"
"Thanks; I'd like that very much and to have you beside me"
We discussed how he would introduce me to his colleagues and friends.
"I don't want to call you my nurse and companion; it sounds like a fucking nursemaid"
I laughed and understood what he meant.
"Could I call you my partner and say that you happen to be a fully qualified nurse as well?"
"Yeah of course you can" I replied with tears in my eyes.
I stood up and went to kiss him. "I love you Luke so I am more than happy to be your partner"
He too was crying now and said how much he loved me. "I've been so fucking lucky to find you"
"Me too" I cried back, "It's just such a shame we had to meet in such circumstances".
Luke thought for a moment. "In some ways I'm glad we didn't meet before because I would have felt you were staying with me because you felt pity for me. This way I know you really want to be with me."
I didn't know what to say in reply so I just hugged him tight and kissed him again.
He then explained that the Company lawyer was coming round the following day to go through the final arrangements for the funeral which was three days later.
I told him that once I'd cleared up I needed to go and collect my things from my bed-sit. Everything was packed up so all I had to do was get a taxi and bring it round. Luke said he wanted to come with me although I knew it would be impossible for him to get up the stairs to my second floor cupboard of a room but he said he would stay in the taxi whilst I got my things.
Story continues
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