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"BIG EXPLANATION"
"You're Alex's first boyfriend?" Ray asked confused
"Yea, he didn't mention me?" Dean asked
"No, he said he never had a boyfriend before." Ray replied looking at Alex.
"I didn't, because everything Dean told me was a lie." Alex said
"Alex, I didn't lie when I said I loved you." Dean said
"Just leave Dean." Alex said
"Alex, can I talk to you privately, please?" Dean asked
"No." Alex replied
"Hey, I just got out of jail. I haven't seen you in a long time, the least you could do is just talk to me." Dean stated
"You were in jail?" Ray asked
"Fine, I'll give you one minute." Alex said grabbing Dean by the arm and pulling him outside. "I'll be right back Ray."
Alex and Dean walked outside. Alex looked at Dean with rage.
"What the hell are you doing?" Alex asked
"I just got out today." Dean replied
"I know." Alex said
"You did?" Dean asked
"Yea, I remembered that today was your release date." Alex said
"Wow, I'm flattered you remembered." Dean said
"Is that all you wanted to say? Because I have a new life now. One that doesn't involve you." Alex replied
"Alex, I'm not going to just go away." Dean said "I love you. And, I want you back."
Alex starred at Dean with disbelief, shock and discust.
"Just get away from me." Alex stated walking away from Dean.
"This isn't over. I'll be back." Dean said then he walked away.
Alex walked into the video store where Ray was waiting from him.
"You ready?" Alex asked
"No." Ray replied "You said you never had a boyfriend before."
"I didn't." Alex said
"What are you talking about? He just said he was your first boyfriend." Ray pointed out confused
"My whole time with him was nothing, but lies. I don't count what I had with him as a relationship." Alex said
"Did you love him?" Ray asked
Alex looked up at Ray, not quite sure how to answer that...
JEFF'S APARTMENT
Jeff was with Taylor on the couch kissing.
"You're amazing." Taylor sighed as he kissed Jeff's neck. Jeff was enjoying the kissing too, but then he looked over at his clock.
"Hold on a minute." Jeff said starting to get up.
"Jeff." Taylor whined slightly "Stay, come on."
"No, I need to make a phone call." Jeff said
"To who?" Taylor asked
"Dean." Jeff said
"The ex-boyfriend of Alex?" Taylor asked
"Yea." Jeff replied
"Dammit Jeff." Taylor said getting up.
"What?" Jeff asked
"That's all you ever think about!" Taylor said "You're obsessed."
"That's not true." Jeff retorted
"Please, all you ever think about is Alex and Ray. If you're going to be consumed with the thought of them all night, then I don't want to be here!" Taylor shouted
"Fine. Go." Jeff said simply
Taylor glared at Jeff then he picked up his coat.
"Sometimes I wonder why I'm even attracted to you." Taylor said walking to the door.
"Funny, sometimes I ask myself why I let you touch me." Jeff snapped.
"Goodnight Jeff!" Taylor shouted as he walked out the door then slammed it shut.
Jeff watched the door for a moment, then he turned to the phone and called up Dean on the cell phone that he gave him.
"Hello?" Dean asked picking up the phone.
"Dean, how did the reunion between you and Alex go." Jeff asked
"Not as well as I hoped." Dean replied
"Well, keep trying." Jeff said
"I know, I know. Anyway, I'll be at your place in about a half hour." Dean said
"Sure, whatever." Jeff replied then he hung up.
Jeff walked around the apartment, but then he heard noises coming from the hall way outside that caught his attention.
"Are you going to answer me?" Jeff heard Ray's voice ask
"I already told you, I don't consider what I had with Dean a relationship." Jeff heard Alex's voice reply.
Jeff smiled and looked through the peek hole on his front door and saw Ray and Alex heading into Ray's apartment.
RAY'S APARTMENT
"That wasn't my question." Ray said as him and Alex walked through the front door. "Did you love him?"
"It was a long-" Alex began, but Ray cut him off.
"Just answer the question. Please Alex, I need to know." Ray said
Alex was quiet for a minute, but then replied "Yes, I did love him."
"Then it was a relationship." Ray said
"No, well, at the time I thought it was, but there was nothing but lies when I was with him, so I don't consider it a relationship." Alex said
"But it was." Ray responded "It was a relationship to you at the time."
Alex let that absorb into him, finally accepting the fact that what he had with Dean was a relationship.
"I guesd you're right." Alex finally said after a couple minutes of silence. "I just never wanted to accept that fact."
"I get it. I really do. And I'm here for you." Ray said comfortingly.
"Thank you." Alex said walking up to Ray and wrapping his arms around him. Ray at first was suprised by the hug, but then more than happily wrapped his arms around Alex as well.
"This is the first time you've let me hold you in a while." Ray said softly.
"I know. I'm sorry that I've kinda been avoiding you for the past week." Alex said "It was just hard."
"I understand. And I can never apologize enough for what I did." Ray said
"I know you're sorry." Alex said "And, I'm sorry I've never really accepted your apology before. I know I said I did, but I guess I just needed time."
"I know." Ray replied
"Right now though, all I want to do is just hold you." Alex said
"No complaints here." Ray replied giving Alex a kiss on his forehead.
JEFF'S APARTMENT
Jeff just stepped out of the shower when there was a knock at his door. Jeff grabbed a towel and wrapped it around his waste then he went to answer the door. He looked through the peek hole and saw Taylor standing there. Jeff rolled his eyes then opened the door.
"What are you doing here?" Jeff asked cooly
"I don't want to fight with you." Taylor replied
"Well that's nice. Goodbye." Jeff said starting to close the door.
"Wait." Taylor said slamming his hand against the door, preventing it from closing.
"What?" Jeff asked
"Can I come in?" Taylor asked
"Fine." Jeff said holding the door open.
"Thank you." Taylor said walking in.
"So, what is it you have to say?" Jeff asked
"I was just walking around thinking about our stupid fight and I just don't want to fight with you." Taylor began "I just want to be with you."
"You do realize that I am not going to stop trying breaking up Ray and Alex." Jeff said
"I know and I understand. I mean, Ray did hurt you a lot." Taylor replied
"All right." Jeff said smiling a little.
"Great." Taylor said walking up to Jeff and kissing him.
RAY'S APARTMENT
Ray and Alex were still holding one another.
"So you going to tell me about Dean?" Ray asked
"What do you want to know?" Alex asked
"Why was he in jail?" Ray asked
"He was involved with a gang related crime. His friend, well my friend too, was killed." Alex replied
"Really?" Ray asked
"Yea, it was pretty aweful." Alex said
"So, were you still with Dean when he got arrested?" Ray asked
"Yea, I was still with him for a little while after he was in jail too." Alex said "But, my friend who died, Russ, his funeral changed my mind about being with Ray."
FLASHBACK
Alex was seated in a cemetary where a service was being held for Russ.
"In a case of unnecessary violence this child of God lost his life." the Pastor was saying. "He was a lost lamb who was trying to fix his path and go the right way, which ultimately lead to his leaving of this earth and going up to Heaven. But we are not here to feel sad for him, we are here to celebrate the life of Russ Vanderbolt, a loving son and friend to us all. But let us remember that nothing is permanent, and that one day we will be rejoicing and celebrating with Russ once again."
Alex sat there, tears stinging his eyes as Russ's casket was being lowered into the ground. He sat there thinking and decided...
LA COUNTY JAIL
"What are you doing here?" Dean asked talking to Alex in the visitor area through a phone that was on his side of the glass wall that separated them.
"I just came from Russ's funeral." Alex said
"Oh God." Dean said sadly
"And I realized that I can't be with you." Alex said "You lied to me about being in that gang and it is because of that gang that Russ is now dead."
"Alex, I told you I wasn't in that gang. The jury didn't believe me, no one believes me." Dean said
"How am I supossed to believe you?" Alex asked
"Well, I was hoping our love would get us through this rough path." Dean said
"Russ is dead now. It would take a hell of a lot more than love. But, I'm not going to wait around anymore.
It's over." Alex said
Dean sighed in frustration "Fine, if you won't believe me then maybe it is best that we break up."
"Goodbye." Alex said hanging up the phone and leaving.
END FLASHBACK
"So, now you know my deep dark secret." Alex said
"I wish you told me." Ray said
"It was just a time that I didn't want to be reminded of again." Alex replied
Ray nodded, understanding completely.
"Well, he's back in your life. What do you want to do about it?" Ray asked
"Not much I can do." Alex replied "I won't be able to prevent him from coming here."
PARK AREA BY A SMALL POND
Dean was wondering around thinking over the situation he was in. He did want Alex back, but he had no idea how he was going to get Alex to trust him again.
"If only he knew how much I loved him." Dean said to himself. He sat down on a rock and began to think of happier times with Alex.
FLASHBACK
Alex and Dean were in Dean's room snuggling together and watching TV.
"Hey Lex. I have a suprise for you." Dean said to Alex, Lex being the nick name that Dean would call him from time to time.
"A suprise?" Alex asked
"Yea. Go to that second drawer there at my dresser." Dean replied
Alex got up and opened the second drawer and saw nothing in it.
"It's empty." Alex said a bit confussed
"Of course it's empty. You haven't put anything inside it yet. It's your drawer now." Dean said smiling.
"You're giving me a drawer?" Alex asked smiling wide
"Yea." Dean replied smiling "You like it?"
Alex went back to Dean and kissed him.
"I love it. And I love you." Alex said
"I love you too." Dean replied
"Thank you." Alex said
"You're welcome." Dean responded giving Alex another kiss.
"I'm going to go put some stuff in my drawer!" Alex said happily picking his overnight bag up and walking back to the dresser.
END FLASHBACK
"I don't know what I'm going to do." Dean said quietly to himself "But somehow I'll get my Lex back."
JEFF'S APARTMENT
"Well, there's nothing like good old fashion make-up sex." Taylor said laying next to Dean in bed.
"I've got to admit, that was pretty good." Jeff said
"Very good." Taylor corrected Jeff giving him a kiss. "By the way, now that Alex's ex is here, I don't have to keep trying to pursue him do I?"
"No, you don't have to. I'm leaving this all up to Dean now." Jeff replied
Then Jeff's phone rang. Jeff reached over to the phone next to the bed and answered.
"Hello?" Jeff asked
"It's Dean."
"Oh, hello Dean." Jeff replied "I thought you were on you're way back here. It's been over two hours."
"I know. I got distracted. I'm on my way now." Dean said
"All right. I'll talk to you in a little bit." Jeff replied hanging up.
"You're letting Dean stay here?" Taylor asked
"Yea. But I told him he has to find a place to live soon." Jeff replied
"Good." Taylor responded
Jeff looked over at Taylor and smiled.
"Are you jealous?" Jeff asked
"Jealous of what?" Taylor asked
"Jealous that I'm letting Dean live it here for a while and not you." Jeff replied
"Don't be ridiculous." Taylor said
"Okay, I'm just making sure. Wouldn't want you feeling left out or anything." Jeff said
"I'm fine with it. He better not touch you is all I have to say." Taylor said
"Please, like I'd let that jail rat do anything to me." Jeff replied laughing.
Ted walked up to Jeff and started kissing his neck.
"Good, because I don't like sharing." Taylor said. Jeff meanwhile was busy enjoying what Taylor was doing to him.
RAY'S APARTMENT
"How did Dean know where you worked?" Ray asked
"He used to work at the video store with me." Alex replied
"Oh really?" Ray asked
"Yea, he's actually the reason I wanted to work there." Alex confessed
"I knew there had to be a reason you wanted to work at that video store in the first place." Ray said smiling.
"Hey, I'm going to go for a walk." Alex said heading to the door.
"Want me to go with you?" Ray asked
"No, I just need to think. I'll be back." Alex said then left.
Alex stepped outside and headed to the elevator. Before he could hit the elevator button the elevator doors opened and Dean stepped out.
"Alex." Dean said as he walked up to him.
"Dean." Alex replied
"I wanted to apologize." Dean said
"For what? Ruining my life?" Alex asked
"I know. I had no right to just walk back into your life after all this time." Dean said
"That's right. You didn't." Alex said
"I'm really sorry Lex." Dean replied
"Don't call me Lex. You can't call me that anymore." Alex said
"Sorry." Dean said sincerely.
"What do you want Dean?" Alex asked
"You." Dean replied after a minute to think of an answer.
"What?" Alex asked confused.
"I mean, as a friend. I want to be friends." Dean said "Please?"
"I don't know Dean. There are so many lies between us." Alex said
"You still don't believe me about the whole gang situation?" Dean asked
"No. You've never given me a reason to believe you." Alex retorted
"So, here we go again right? We're going to start fighting over something that's in the past?" Dean asked
"That night a friend of mine died. It wasn't just some event that happened in the past, it was an event that killed a friend. An event that I think you could have prevented." Alex said
"So the real reason you're mad at me is that Russ died right?" Dean asked
"Of course that's why I'm mad at you! You say his name like it's just some person who didn't matter!" Alex yelled.
"He did matter to me!" Dean shouted back. "He was my best friend."
"Then why does it seem like you don't even care?" Alex asked brushing past Dean, he then hit the elevator door open and stepped inside. Dean wasn't ready to end their conversation so he stepped inside as well.
"It hurts too much to think about it." Dean said "I miss him."
"You have a screwed up way of showing it." Alex remarked.
"It's how I deal with my emotions. You should know. When we were together did I ever show you my vulnerable side?" Dean asked
"Yes." Alex replied
"When?" Dean asked
"I'm suprised you don't remember." Alex said
"Oh, yea." Dean said remembering "I remember now."
FLASHBACK
Alex was sitting on his couch watching TV when his cell phone rang.
"Hello?" Alex asked picking up the phone.
"It's me." Alex heard Dean's voice say.
"Hey." Alex replied
"Can you meet me right now?" Dean asked
Alex looked at his watch that read 8:30 PM.
"Sure. Where are you?" Alex asked
"I'm in front of my house. Please, come and pick me up." Dean replied his voive shaking a little.
"Sure. Hold on. Are you okay?" Alex asked
"No." Dean replied then hung up.
Alex hurred and grabbed his keys then went to his car and headed over to Dean's house. When he got to Dean's house, Dean was sitting in front of his house on the side curb. Dean got up and went over to Alex's car.
"Thanks." Dean said getting inside the car.
"What's wrong?" Alex asked
"Can we just drive around for a little bit?" Dean asked ignoring Alex's question.
"Sure." Alex replied
Alex and Dean drove around for about 10 minutes in silence. Tired of it, Alex pulled into an empty parking lot and turned off the car.
"Talk to me." Alex said turning to Dean.
"It's nothing." Dean replied
"Nothing? Dean, nothing wouldn't have had you call me Thursday night and have me come and pick you up." Alex said
Dean didn't say anything.
"Problems with school?" Alex asked
"No." Dean replied
"Your friends?" Alex asked
"No." Dean replied
"Family." Alex asked
Dean didn't say anything.
"You're dad?" Alex asked
"Would you stop pressing me for information?!" Dean said lashing out at Alex. "I said I don't want to talk!"
"Okay, if you're going to shut me out like this. Then I'm going home." Alex said starting his car up. "I'll drop you off at your home or a friend's house. Where do you want me to take you?"
"Alex don't do this." Dean said
"Dean, just tell me where you want to go." Alex said getting frustrated "I can't be there for you if you won't open up to me."
Dean didn't say anything.
"Dean, I know you like to pretend you're this big tough guy 24/7, but I'm your boyfriend, you don't have to hide from me." Alex said comfortingly.
Dean looked over at Alex, and for the first time ever Alex saw tears in Dean's eyes.
"What's wrong?" Alex asked
"It's my dad." Dean said quietly. "I told him about us."
"You did?" Alex asked a little suprised.
"Yea." Dean replied
"Didn't go well?" Alex asked
"He wants me to leave as soon as I graduate. He wants me to leave the house. He's kicking me out Alex." Dean said breaking down.
Alex leaned over and gave Dean a hug.
"It's going to be okay." Alex said trying to comfort Dean.
"I don't know what I'm going to do." Dean said through his tears.
"You'll get through this." Alex said holding Dean tight.
END FLASHBACK
"I almost forgot about that night." Dean said as the elevator opened up to the lobby.
"I'll never forget it." Alex said simply.
"Why's that?" Dean asked
"Because that was when I got to see the side of you that you try so hard to hide from everyone." Alex replied "That's when I knew how much I loved you."
Alex and Dean were both quiet for a minute. Alex was remembering the love he once had for Dean and Dean saw that little bit of hope that he's been looking for that Alex still has feelings for him.
"Alex, please, is there anyway we can be friends again?" Dean asked
"Yea, there is one way." Alex said
"What is it?" Dean asked
"Promise me that nothing will ever happen between us again." Alex replied
Dean looked at Alex, not quite sure of how to answer that.
RAY'S APARTMENT
There was a knock on Ray's door so he got up from the couch to go answer it, hoping that it will be Alex. He opened the door and was dissapointed to see Jeff standing there.
"What do you want Jeff?" Ray asked cooly.
"It's been a while since we've seen one another. I'm just wondering how you're doing." Jeff replied sounding sincere.
"I'm fine. Now, if that's all you have to say..." Ray said beginning to close the door, but Jeff put his hand against the door to keep Ray from closing it.
"Ray, what's wrong?" Jeff asked
"You're what's wrong. You always have alterior motives, so just tell me what you're really doing here." Ray said angrily.
"Okay, well I was headed out the door when I saw Alex talking to some guy and they seem to have had a history together. Is it an ex-boyfriend of his?" Jeff asked
"You'd just love that wouldn't you? You would like that if some love from Alex's past came in and took Alex away from me." Ray snapped
"Well, I'll admit, I would like to see you sufer here and there." Jeff replied simply. "However, I do still care a great deal for you and I was just making sure you were okay."
"Well, don't worry about me. I'm fine." Ray said then closed the door on Jeff. Jeff stood there for a minute, smiling to himself.
Ray leaned against the door and thought about what Jeff said. Could he be right? Could this Dean guy steal Alex away from him? Ray realized that after the horrible thing he did to Alex, it just might help push Alex away from him and closer to Dean...
Meanwhile, Alex and Dean were looking at one another, Dean was still unsure as to how he was going to handle Alex's proposition.
"Well?" Alex asked "Can you promise me that nothing will ever happen between us again?"
"Alex." Dean began "I can't promise that, I can only promise that I won't try and break you and Ray up, but if something does happen between us, I'm not going to try and stop it."
"I guess that's fair enough." Alex said
"So, are we going to try and be friends again?" Dean asked
Alex looked at Dean a bit hesitant to answer, but finally said "Yea, we'll try it."
"Great." Dean said smiling.
"Okay, but I have to get back to Ray." Alex said
"All right. I'll talk to you later." Dean said
Alex turned around and began to walk away, but then turned back to Dean.
"How did you know where to find me?" Alex asked
"What do you mean?" Dean asked, realizing that he's about to get busted...
"How did you know where Ray's apartment was?" Alex asked curious.
"Oh, well, it's kind of hard to explain." Dean replied
"Try." Alex said getting more than a little suspicious.
Dean stood there silent for a while, thinking of how to explain it with out blowing his and Jeff's cover, but wasn't able to come up with anything...
"Okay, the truth is..." Dean began
"Yes?" Alex asked
"You're not going to like it." Dean replied
"Just tell me Dean." Alex said pressing.
"Fine... I...followed you there." Dean said "I watched you go off and I kind of followed you back there because I really wanted to talk to you."
"Oh." Alex replied smiling a little.
"Sorry, I know it seems kind of stalker like, but we had something once and I just wanted to talk to you." Dean said sounding very sincere.
"Okay, well I should get going." Alex said smiling. "I'll talk to you later."
"Yea, bye." Dean said as he watched Alex walk off. Dean then sighed with relief that he was able to make that up so quickly.
RAY'S APARTMENT
Alex walked through the door and saw Ray had fallen asleep on the couch. He went over and laid down next to Ray. Ray woke up and smiled when he saw Alex.
"Hey." Ray said
"Hi." Alex replied
"I was worried." Ray said
"About what?" Alex asked
"Well, Jeff came over and told me he saw you talking to someone that looked to be an old flame of yours. Was it Dean?" Ray asked
"Yea." Alex replied
"I was afraid that you might want to go back to Dean or something." Ray said showing a bit of vulnerability.
"I thought we talked about this already." Alex said
"I know, but still after what I did to you, it wouldn't really suprise me if you wanted to go back to Dean." Ray revealed.
"Ray, I forgave you for what happened rememeber? And Dean and I had nothing but lies between us. I would never give up what I have with you for what I had with him." Alex said giving Ray a kiss.
"Really?" Ray asked smiling.
"Really." Alex replied hugging Ray. But while he was hugging him he couldn't help but remember...
FLASHBACK
Dean and Alex were kissing.
"I love you." Dean said between kisses.
"I love you too." Alex replied
"I wanted to talk to you about something." Dean said breaking the kissing.
"What is it?" Alex asked
"I was thinking. After I graduate, since I have to leave my home. I'm going to buy an apartment." Dean said
"Okay, and?" Alex asked not sure where Dean was going with this.
"And I was hoping that after you graduate from high school, you'll consider moving in with me." Dean said
"Are you serious?" Alex asked smiling.
"Yea." Dean replied
Alex didn't need any time to answer he blurted out an enthusiastic "Yes!"
Alex threw his arms around Dean and kissed him some more.
"Thank you so much." Dean said holding Alex.
"I love you." Alex said
"I love you too." Dean replied
END FLASHBACK
Alex lied there hugging Ray, but still couldn't help but remember the good times he once had with Dean...
To Be Continued....
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