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I wake up suddenly. Everything comes back fast. Its the first time I don't feel terrible. I haven't felt like that for days. Not thirsty,not feeling hungry ,even not so cold,I must be getting used to it. The pain is reasonable,I can deal with it. I need to pee,I know I have to hold it,I don't want more punishment. Then I remember that Steve will finally remove that horrible hood. I can't see for so many days now,I have to be alert,listen carefully,I don't want to miss his entry. I prepare myself to move fast,to react as soon as he comes.
- Nice BOY!!! Your doing good. I notice that even your dick is standing at attention. We have a busy day in front of us. First I have to let you piss,clean your body and teeth,rub your skin to make it shinny. Stay in the SHOW position all the time. I'll put the belt on with your hands tied to the side, then if your still in position,I'll remove the hood.
I have to stay in that fucking position while he makes me pee. Have you ever had somebody hold your cock when your pissing? Its really embarrassing. Then he cleans me all over,tells me to open my mouth while he brushes my teeth. Ask me to spit out the paste. After he rubs my skin vigorously. I feel so hopeless,naked,made to pee,cleaned thoroughly,teeth included,it seems even my cock is betraying me:its just my morning hardon,another thing I can't control I really want to have the hood removed,to be able to see again. So I stand straight,letting him touch me,mute and naked,trying hard to stay still. Finally I fell his fingers on the hood,he takes it off. I CAN SEE. My eyes are blinking. Its been days without seeing anything. I look around, I can recognize all the stuff I had seen during my visit hanging on the walls. I'm facing one of the side wall, Steve moves in front of me. I see the familiar face,there is a major difference,he seems so arrogant and menacing,not the smiling man I used to talk to. He has the riding crop in his right hand,his eyes inspecting me,I try to hold the eye contact for some seconds,then look down. Its not the time to defy him.
- You can relax boy. I know you need to adjust to the light. You have to start running again. Don't push too much,your still weak,I'll go and prepare your food. I'll give it to you if I'm satisfy you did your best. I'll take you out of this place and continue your formation START running.
I can see at last,i notice every details,the ground,the ceiling,the wall covered with awful tools of torture. It makes me go back to the terrible ordeal,the intense pain I went through. I'm so relieve Steve will take me out of this hellish place,I'll never forget what happened here,so I'm glad Steve is planning to moving me out. I know hes responsible but nevertheless he only can save me from the horror. I've been running at a slow but regular pace,trying not to exert myself too much. I want Steve to be satisfied with my performance. I feel better,I can look around,move my jaw,my tongue,lick my lips,my legs. I know I'm naked,can't talk,can't pee,can't go away. Still I'm stronger,resolved to survive,to fight on,Ben is still alive deep inside,resisting,just wanting to overcome at the end. When Steve comes back,I keep on running,waiting for his signal. He tell me to stop and SHOW,I quickly take the position and wait. I stand rigid breathing heavily while he moves around inspecting me with his eyes and hands,I don't dare move an inch. He pulls out a baby bottle and I have to suck the tepid liquid. He holds it high so I have to swallow to the last drop. When its finished,he takes out a bowl. He feeds me the contents with a spoon. Its the same pasty food,without any taste. I eat fast without any pleasure knowing it must be nourishing. He wipes my face with a rag and brushes my teeth. I'm still holding the SHOW position,its getting hard.
- Stay BOY
He hits me with the riding crop. I try not to move. He pulls out a cord and ties my cock and balls,pulling to test it.
- I'm moving you out, you just need to follow me. Come now.
I have to follow him,on a leash like an animal. But its so good to leave this place with all its bad memories of pain,despair,cold,darkness.
I walk barefoot behind him holding the leash. We pass the stalls,I don't see Blacky,he must still be training outside. I haven't been inside for days,it would be good to feel the sun on my skin again. Steve takes me to the shower room,he ties each hand separately to a high bar,remove the belt,I'm completely naked except for the restraints on my wrists, he turns on the water,hot water is flowing on me,its so great,to feel that warmth on my body,on my head,my shoulders,down to my legs. I close my eyes to enjoy the feeling. He rubs my skin with a soap,all over,then washes my hair with a shampoo,my beard also. It must be longer,I used to keep it well groomed,in fashion. He turns off the water and let me dry. I see he's taking a tube with a big end that he inserts into my asshole.
_ I'll give you three enemas to clean your inside,you need to hold it until I tell you to let go.
It is hard to comply,I never had any enema before,but I manage to hold on until he gave me permission to relieve myself,it is particularly hard to endure the cramps. Finally at the third enema,I let it all go,its just clear water going down the drain. Steve looks at me pissing and shiting between my legs,he seems to be enjoying the sight of my demise. When I'm completely empty he rinses me and leaves me off to dry.
- Now that your clean inside,I'll will shave your body. Its about time you look like a real ponyboy. Get ride of all that hair. You'll look much better.
What the fuck! I don't want to be shaved. I've never shaved my body. I like it when women shave their pussy,its much nicer to lick a clean-shaven girl. But its so ridiculous and unmanly for a real straight man,turns him into a prepubescent boy,a real man would never do that. How low must I go before I get out of this predicament? I hear the buzz of the electric shaver. He starts with my legs,doesn't take long,I'm not very hairy. Same with the arms,back.,pecs,stomach,it takes longer with my crotch,my balls,my ass,my asshole. He stops to admire his work. He then starts to cover me with shaving cream.
_-Don't move boy,if you don't want me to cut you. Your much to young to loose your precious private parts!!!
He starts shaving me with a straight razor. I don't move an inch. When he gets to my balls and cock,I'm worried,I stand completely still. He seems to be good,I just feel a few nicks,here and there. Its true he's been practicing a lot with Blacky who's always clean shaven. At the end he removes all the shaving cream with a wet towel. I'm now as naked as a newborn baby. He puts back the belt and attaches my arms on the side.
- Now get down on your knees BOY. I'll take care of your head.
No that can't be! My hair! He wont do that? My pride. I put so much money on them,my only caprice in life.I struggle but he pushes me down and hits me hard with the crop. I hear the buzz of the clippers,he does the side.I can see the locks falling on the ground. My eyes are wet,I start to cry. He must be doing a mohawk style haircut,he just cut the back and the side leaving the top. He finishes with the shaving cream and the razor. I'm crying silently like a baby. Next goes my beard. And even worse he shaves my eyebrows. He cleans me up with the towel.
- Stand up boy, NOW or you'll feel the crop.
He tightens up my arms,have a good look at his work. He looks so pleased,caressing me,playing with my cock and balls,he puts one finger in my asshole. I just stand there defeated. My face covered with tears.
- Wait boy, I'm going to prepare Blacky for the night and take you to your stall.
When he comes back,I have tried to recover,still in shock to have lost all my hair. When Steve comes back,I just let him lead me with a leash around my cock and balls. He takes me to the stall just in front of Blacky. He leaves me with my hands on my side and put some high heel boots on my feet. I'm now taller than him. He inserts a hook in my ass and a bit in my mouth.
-Your ready for the night. The bit will keep you quiet and the hook will prevent you from falling,you have to get used to be standing all the time. Try to sleep well. Your lucky the good doctor is coming tomorrow.
I look across the aisle. Blacky is staring at me with its piercing black eyes. I wondered what he is thinking.? Is he angry because I didn't rescue him? Or is he happy to see me in such a state,looking like a ponyboy like him? I understand now what he went through. What a fool I was,to believe that he was consenting. But the hair con grow back, its not like him.At least, me I don't have all those rings in my nose,tits and cock. What does the doctor have in stock for me....?