I kept Chip happy for the next week. I sucked him at least once a day and some times more than once a day. Allen was stopping by to see me also during this time. Allen was the one to take me past my comfort level when he had me meet him behind the dugout at the ball field. He said he had a surprise for me as I followed him down a path to a picnic area. Standing around was a group of ten kids from the project. I looked around and recognized most of them. They all ranged from about 13 to 16 years old and they became quite when they saw Allen and me.
Allen took charge as he pointed to the picnic table and said "Have a seat." I asked what this was all about. He said "We all have something you need." He pushed me down on a bench and he started lowering his pants and underwear as he stood in front of me. I tried to jump up but Allen grabbed my arm and he said, "Just cool it and everything will be fine." I was embarrassed sitting on the bench in front of Allen and I saw all the eyes watching me. Allen pulled me forward as he put his cock in my mouth. I started sucking him off and I relaxed a little. Everyone jumped when Allen grabbed my head and yelled loudly, "I'm Cumming." He shot his load into my mouth and I coughed and I gagged as I was not ready it.
The parade started then as I was the tool for these Horney teens to use. I don't know how many guys pushed their dicks into my mouth. I just heard, "Clay, suck my cock."' And I heard the joking and the laughing as I worked with my mouth and hands to get the next blast of spunk. As one would finish the next hard dick was in front of me. Some guys went more than once and I was there for more than two hours. I saw all size dicks and balls as I sat on the bench. I tasted and I swallowed all kinds of discharges. My jaw was sore and I was humiliated. Everyone made fun of me as I accepted their offerings. I didn't even notice the faces as I gulped down each load.
Then it was over and I walked back to my house scared and humiliated. I wanted to be safely at home in my bed. I showered for a good hour trying to wash away the memory. For days I could taste the cum I ingested at the dug out area. It was a week later that James came by my house and wanted to talk to me, He said, "Allen had told me about the dug out." I blushed, and I could not say anything. I just looked away from him as the embarrassment and the fear returned, "Did he tell you that your best friend is a queer." He said he knew everything; about me sucking Allen and Chip's cock and he knew how I'd blown the group behind the dug out. He said, "I told Allen if anyone ever mentioned that day at he dugout that I would spread the word about some of his activities I know about. He knew I meant it so I don't think you will have any problem with him again." I said, "Why did you do this? Aren't you afraid to be seen with me? I will
understand if you don't want my friend any more." James looked at me with tears in his eyes, "You will always be my best friend. We have been friends since we were six. I don't think I liked you because of your sexual preference." He looked at me, "We all have our secrets and yours aren't any greater than anyone else's."
I turned to James and I said, "But you don't understand. I sucked off ten guys and I sucked off Chip a bunch of times. I did it because I wanted to and I swallowed their cum. I am a queer." He laughed, "You are a ferry too aren't you. You think you are the first boy to suck a dick." The "ferry" remark caused me to look into James face. I forcefully said, "I'm gay but I'm not a ferry." He said, "Yes you are. I can see your wrists stating to becoming limp. You want to put on girls clothes. Hell you probably will start to like show tunes." I was mad when I said, "Fuck you James, if you don't want to be my friend then just fuck you." James was laughing now, "That's OK. Just be yourself. You have been able to beat my ass for years. You just need to learn how to handle this now that `you are out'."
I said, "Thanks. I'm sorry if I embarrassed you." He looked at me and said, "What was that you said `Fuck you'. If you had tried this you would not be in this mess." I laughed and I said, "I wish." He looked at me and he said, "No I wish." James paused and the continued, " I tried to find out if you were gay after you let Robert fuck you but you would not tell me and I was afraid to bring it again." I said, "Why did you want to know?" James said, "After we stopped the game, I started fooling around with Chip. I guess I sucked him off once but I did not like it because I wanted to do it with someone else. I was ashamed and I was not ready to tell anyone but my brother caught on." I was amazed and I said, "You told Robert you were gay? He talked to your dad and the counselors about you?" He looked at me kind of shocked. "How did you know that?" I smiled and I said, "I talked to him too. It was his medicine that got me through some tough times." I looked at James and I asked, "Who did you want to suck?" James looked away as he said, "This is hard to say but I've had the hots for you as long as I can remember. I wanted you." Our eyes met and nothing was said.
PROLOG
I would like to tell you that I fell in love with James and we are still together years later but that was not our destiny. After all we were only thirteen. James and I fooled around during Junior High School but it was just sex. The chemistry did not exist between us. I love James and I love Robert and they are an important part of my life but the love is more brotherly.
James understood during his early teens that he was not gay. His attraction to girls increased to where I don't think he was even BI. James started dating girls in high school and fell for Chris. They dated all the way through college and then they were married and I was the best man. Today they have two boys and I am the godfather to the youngest boy.
I met a guy named Chris in college and we have been together for six years. Robert, James and the two Chris's still get together fairly often. Robert is still my counselor and someone I can talk to about anything. I came out when I was a junior in high school. Robert went with me when to tell my parents. After some crying all around my parents took it pretty well. I think back to when I was twelve and I understand how lucky it was for me to have someone who would listen to my fears and not judge me. I don't know what would have happened in my life if Robert wasn't a part of it. Thank you Robert, you are the best.