This story is pure fiction and is not intended to imply anything about the true sexuality of the reader. This story contains sexual contact between to underage males if this is illegal to read where you live then please hit the back button now!! Everything in this story is made up, the names and people are fake: they are not real; I did not base them off people I know! Please do not copy or paste this anywhere else, but please feel free to email me k.davids@ymail.com ----------------------------------------------------------- Thank you all so much for the support you have shown me while I was dealing with so many personal issues in my life. I am truly sorry that I had to take a break! But I must say I do have the best readers ever! ----------------------------------------------------------- You'd better find somebody else and get a hold of yourself. Drink the poison lightly, 'Cause there are deeper and darker things than you. I know 'cause I've been there too.
~I'm not the one~ 3OH!3 ----------------------------------------------------------- Characters Chasen: Age 16- Main Character Braiden: Age 16-Chasen's Friend Ian: a year or so old- Braiden's son Kevin: Chasen's Father Caroline: Chasen's Step Mother Ryan: Age 16- Chasen's Brother Kyle: Age 15- Chasen's Brother Lexie: Age 14- Chasen's Sister ------------------------------------------------------------------ -----
I stretch my body without opening my eyes, letting out a moan, and I hear a snicker...I open my one eye and look over to see someone has pulled a chair up right next to my bed.
"What the hell are you doing in my room so early?" I ask agitated.
"Where did you go after the party the other night?" Ryan asks tilting back in the chair.
I sit up, "I went back to Braiden's house, not like it's any of your business."
He leans forward causing the chair to come back down on all fours, "Actually that's where you are wrong little brother. See you are a Tarrant, what you do makes it my business. I have worked hard at school to have a good rep. Even our dorky little bro Kyle keeps it up. Braiden is a loser man, he quit the football team and ditched all us to be a dad...I don't want you messing up what I worked hard to achieve, that's why you are going to hang out with me and let me introduce you to all the right people. Leave it to Braiden you might become a father or who knows maybe he's realized that he's such a fag by now, he might turn you into one." He tells me giving a little smile.
This gets me to smile, I sit up and come inches within his face, "Well I think it's too late big brother for the latter, cause I am gay. And if you don't like it then please give me one good reason to get up and beat the shit out of you right now, because I have spent most of my life being scared of idiots like you who make being a homosexual so god dam horrible, I had to live with an abusive mother who beat the living shit out of me every day and but she didn't stop just with the beatings she had to tease and torment me all the time. I am not going to have it, do you hear me? Go ahead, try to bitch to Dad or your mom, they know even Lexie knows." I tell him and pat him on the cheek.
He just looks at me wide eyed. "Bro I didn't know...I'm sorry man, I didn't mean like gay in a bad way, that's cool, I guess if you want to be like that. I didn't know how you had it back in Florida. Dude can I be honest with you?"
I feel kinda bad about jumping on him, I have a feeling it's not like him but when he bad mouthed Braiden like that and then to add on the fag part just sent my blood boiling, "Yeah dude."
"Ok I know I'm being a dick, well I am all the time. It's just who I am, well kind of I guess. I admit, I am jealous of you, being exactly who you want to be. I mean I have always lived here bro, grew up with all my friends, I know them and well if you screw up with them you're an outcast. I can't have that. I already lost my best friend" He tells me looking defeated.
I laugh at him, "Dude you have nothing to be jealous of me for, like hello I am the one jealous of you, you are cool and you know it. You walk in to a crowd of people and you can control it. Dude I know that it's all cool being tough around people at school and your friends, but man when your home knock it off. We are your family, we love you no matter what. Also can you please lay off Braiden, he didn't do anything to you, your friends and you more than likely are the ones who pressured him into sleeping with Riley."
He just looks at me for a minute. "Ok I will try to knock off my attitude at home... but I can't promise you I will not say shit about Bray, but I'll try to leave him alone, if he doesn't take shots at my friends and I." He says and walks out of the room.
I shake my head, I hope the whole day isn't like this...it's ok to actually talk to Ryan, but I don't want to be explaining myself to everyone and their mothers today.
I get up and find some shorts and a sleeveless shirt to throw on, and make my way out of my room. I peek into Kyle's room to see if he is up and he isn't. So I back out quietly and close the door and make my way to the living room and flop on the couch.
"Are we still on today?" I hear my dad ask as he is passing the living room.
I shake my head, "yeah totally ready to chill with my old man!" I say laughing.
"OLD! Ha boy I will show you old! Well I am going to do a little work in the office. Let's say we head out about hmmm noon, its already ten thirty." He asks.
"Sounds great I am just going up to have a shower." I tell him getting up and making my way back to my room.
I make sure to lock my door to my room, I don't want any more siblings to come into my room especially while I'm in the shower and surprise me. I strip off my clothes and take up an old routine of looking at my thin body in the mirror...
It's actually a shock to see myself in the mirror, my hair is way too long, its past my chin. I have never kept it this long, I need a trim. I trace a few scars that haven't had a chance to heal all the way yet. I can say that I have filled out since I have started to eat regularly, I don't look anorexic thin anymore.
I warm up the shower water, because there is no way in hell I'm getting in there at all with the water that cold, I take another look at my body in the bathroom mirror, it's so weird, I don't have much body hair at all or if I do its mostly transparent cause its light blonde. Not that I'm complaining, I have a nice trimmed set of pubes above my dick that I do well to keep trimmed. Not that I am getting any action.
I try to picture myself with a happy trail like Braiden has, but I can't see it on me but I can envision him from the other day when I woke up and saw him shirtless.
I start to feel a stirring in my groin and I know I am getting worked up over the images of Braiden in my head, but I haven't gotten off once since moving to California.
I step into the shower, which has steamed up the room now, the water hits me and it feels so good. I start to slowly let my hands roam my body, they slowly but surely make their way to my now boned up dick, I start to caress it lightly.
I start to lightly play with it, as my other hand makes its way down and cups my balls softly and I lightly start to fondle them as well. Pictures of Braiden start to explode in my mind. I start to jerk off faster, more rough.
I lean against the wall of the shower, the water hitting me, while I stroke, I fantasize that Braiden is in the shower with me. Kissing me with the water trickling off his smooth tan skin.
I feel a familiar stirring in my nuts, I start to jerk off faster, I let out a loud moan as I start to shoot three big loads of cum and a few little shots, I lean against the wall panting...I finish up showering and I get out, and reach for a towel. I don't know why, but I feel good that was the first time I thought of something sexual and didn't feel bad, because it wasn't about Tanner...my smile falters I know I need to call him and well have some closure, the both of us did.
I throw on some clean boxers, and some shorts. I make my way to my bedside table and pick up my phone and dial Tanners number.
It rings and rings......then I hear the phone click, "Hello?" he says in a muffled voice.
My breath catches in my throat, he sounds the same, I know this voice it's his I am still asleep voice, I can see him perfectly in his bed most likely nude eyes barely open on the phone.
"Hi..." I say.
"Chasen?" Tanner asks, "Hold on." I hear him mumble something to someone and hear rustling.
"Did I wake you up?" I ask.
"Yeah, you did. Caught me at an odd time." He mumbles trying to gain his thoughts.
"Who is in the bed with you?" I ask even though it's none of my business I just can't help but ask.
"No one is." He says but falters as he talks.
"Tanner stop lying, you never have been good at it." I tell him getting agitated.
"Yeah, I know I was never good at lying, its Kristy." He tells me and breathes a sigh of relief.
I sigh, "So still fucking her? I see, look do I need to call back at another time?"
"Chasen, don't start this shit already it's too early, look I agree we need to talk...I just haven't called, I knew you needed your space. But I need settle this." Tanner sighs.
I laugh a little, "Yeah your right we do need to talk about things. You can go first."
"Look I really am sorry, Chase about what happened...I honestly can't blame anyone but myself for it...I wanted to tell you how I was feeling, but I couldn't. I just decided to listen to my own selfish reasons." he tries to explain.
I sit down on my bed, "your right there isn't anyone to blame but yourself in this Tanner, I even told myself you were the right one for me! What happened explain that to me? I deserve that"
I hear him sigh, "I don't know I was confused I didn't want to tell you cause well I thought you would run off to California...which you did in the end. Look, the more time we spent together the less I began to well like you in that way, I mean I guess I was confused and well we did things. They were great just they didn't satisfy me. I guess what I am trying to say is I am not gay, or bi. I am straight."
By now I don't know if I am pissed, or hurt. "So you string me along and drag me like a little puppet? You could have just told me Tanner...or was it that I needed you was what you really liked? Because when I finally started standing up to myself is when you started getting aggressive to me and acting weird."
"I admit I did like you leaning on me, but just Chasen look I don't want to fight ok. I fucked up big time I betrayed your trust, and cheated on you...I shouldn't have but I did. I wished I could have go back and change it all but I can't. I feel like shit everyday for what I did, even my parents are still pissed at me. My dad is pissed that I could do such a thing. They understand how I feel but it doesn't mean I couldn't have gone about this in a different way." He trails off.
I am crying but not because I'm sad, "please just tell me you actually did care for me like you said you did? Tanner I don't hate you at all, I love you I really do but I'm not in love with you...I do care for you I always will...just I guess I'm glad to hear you're straight."
I hear him breathing on the phone. "Chasen, I will always care about you more than a friend. That's a given. Hell I spent a lot of time with you, I even told you things I never told anyone. Just right now I am confused about things and it's just better for me to be with Kristy, than to be with you and hurt you even more. And maybe one day we can be together."
"No Tanner we can't be together some day you just don't wake up gay...your either gay or you aren't. I don't want to lose you as a friend, but we can never be lovers. You have moved on and I am too." I tell him ready to get off the phone.
"Are you seeing someone?" he asks quickly.
I stare at my phone, "would it matter if I was?"
"I just want to know." He says in a low voice.
"Not yet, but maybe soon, Tanner, I got to go it's good to hear from you." I say and I don't wait for his reply I hang up the phone, and lay back on my bed trying to gain some of my composure.
I have got to stop this fucking crying, it's not supposed to be like this anymore...I tell myself, I get up and go to my closet. Looking through it I feel so overwhelmed. I just pick the first pair of shorts and shirt I see; throw them on and finish with some deodorant.
I walk past Kyle's door again and there is a sign that says don't bother me, I just look at it and walk pass it and head down the stairs. I figure Lexie isn't even home yet from her friends.
As I walk into the living room, I realize it's so quiet in the house, I don't like it at all. It's as if I am back at my old house and I'm scared to peak around the corner for my mom. I get that feeling again in the pit of my stomach like you know something bad is going to happen.
I feel a hand fall on my shoulder and I freak out I jump, and swat the hand off me I move so fast I stumble and trip over the dining room chair. I hit the floor causing my head to hit hard as well I almost black out.
"Son, son are you ok?" my dad is shouting it seems like, I feel myself being shaken.
"ughhh..." a groan out.
I open my eyes, it's bright at first well I guess I mistake blurry as bright and I look to my dad and he slowly comes into focus, and he has a concerned look on his face.
"Chasen are you ok?" he asks again.
"Yeah I'm fine I just kinda have a headache now." I tell him trying to sit up and he helps me.
He helps me get into a chair, "I am so sorry I didn't mean to scare you like that, are you sure you are ok? should we take you to the hospital?"
"No, dad I am fine I think I just need some headache medicine and I will be good to go, ok." I tell him.
"Look we can reschedule our plans to go eat and hang out if you don't feel up to it." He reassures me.
"No dad its fine all I need is some headache medicine." I tell him again this time firmer than before.
He brings me back a glass of water and a few pills, I take them quickly finishing the glass, and taking it to the kitchen, I come back out and nod. We head for the door.
"Dad what is up with Kyle?" I ask trying not to seem too forceful on the subject.
"What do you mean?" he says looking at me.
"Dad you're a bad liar, what is wrong with Kyle? Why is he always in his room alone?" I interrogate him.
"Son, I would rather not discuss this right now, its Kyle's choice to tell you. Just like it's your choice to tell him that your gay." He tells me keeping his focus on the road.
I sigh, "Speaking of telling people, I told Ryan this morning."
He gives me a quick look, "Well?"
I give a smile, "I guess it went ok, and I mean I really didn't give him much choice but to accept it. It's just dad, I have always been harassed for being gay, and I am so sick of it. I don't want to deal with it from my brother. That and I don't want to start off lying to everyone here about my sexual orientation, is that ok with you?"
"Son, I agree you shouldn't have to hide who you love. Like I've told you before, I support you no matter what. I think you are a very bright young man, and people will like you because you're honest." He tells me patting my knee.
We pull into a restaurant, and my dad asks if I am ready to go in and eat, I nod and we get out and head into the restaurant, we are shown to a table, but my dad says he would prefer to eat outside, and they show us to a nice patio with a variety of tables to choose from.
As we sit down I look at my dad, "why does everyone act like you are royalty?"
He laughs, "Well mostly because I have represented a lot of them, my past clients, including the owner of this place. It isn't that I like to be treated in such a way, it's just they think I should because I have saved their asses."
The waiter brings us the menus and I can't help but notice him. He's cute, with brown hair, fixed into a fohawk and bright brown eyes, and a nice smile. With a pretty nice tan, he looked good in his blue slacks and white collared shirt.
He smiled and introduced himself as Nick, and that he would be our waiter for today, and gave me a big smile, "What can I get you gentlemen to drink?" he asks.
"Mountain dew for me." I say smiling turning a little red in the face.
"I will have a glass of iced tea." My father says.
"I will give you both some time to look over our menu and will be right back shortly with your drinks." Nick says, and walks away.
I look over the menu, "so what are you going to eat dad?"
"I am thinking about the chicken fried steak with a side salad and french fries. How about yourself?" He asks looking up.
I laugh, "You want that? I think I want the crispy ranch salad."
"Hey just cause I am a lawyer doesn't mean I don't like some real food!" He says smiling at me.
We make little talk until Nick comes back and hands us our drinks, we put in our order, and he takes it back to the kitchen.
"So your birthday this Friday, how do you feel about turning the big seventeen?" he asks.
I shift in my chair, "its ok I guess, it's just a birthday dad, nothing to be that excited about."
He looks at me funny, "Are you joking, it means your one year away from being eighteen! So have you thought about inviting anyone over, how about your friend Braiden?"
I give a slight nod, "I guess if you don't mind, maybe even Kasey, Alex and Clay I met them at the beach their friends of Braiden's." I tell him.
He leans back in his chair, "Chasen, if you want Braiden to come I don't mind, the house is just much as yours as anyone's, besides it is your birthday party."
"Dad can we please not call it a party, it's more like a small get together, umm...well would you. Never mind." I say.
"Would I care if Braiden brought Ian? Is that what you were going to ask?" he says looking amused.
I look around, "yeah..."
He takes a sip of his tea, "Son, I helped that young man fight to have his son. Do you think I would care? No I told you I don't mind him, he is a good kid. Been handed some bad cards in life but has played them like a winner, besides I haven't seen Ian since court, I think I would like to see him. Chasen can I ask you something?"
"Sure Dad, but I just need to go use the rest room first." I tell him getting up.
I walk back inside and I almost bump into Nick as he is carrying a tray of food to a table, "Oh my god I am sorry." I tell him.
"Whoa man it's cool chill man." He says giving me a smile.
"Which way to the restroom?" I ask.
He points to the sign, I shake my head growing red in the face, "uhh, thanks."
I go to the restroom and do my business, and walk up to the sink and wash my hands, and look at my reflection I really do need a haircut I think again.
I exit the bathroom, and Nick appears out of nowhere, "So what's your name? I have never seen you here with Mr. Tarrant before."
"I'm Chasen, and Mr. Tarrant is my dad, I just moved here from Florida so yeah you haven't seen me here before." I smile at him.
He finally registers what I have told him, "Wow another Tarrant, but you are cuter than Ryan is just for the record." He says and slips a piece of paper into my front pocket and smiles at me.
I walk back outside to where we are seated and the food has been placed on the table I sit down and start to eat.
"Have you talked to Tanner?" my dad asks causally.
"What makes you bring this up?" I ask trying to sound casual, but I'm honestly freaking out inside.
"Well first off I know it's an issue, secondly I am your father and I do really want to know what's going on in your life. I don't want to be closed off from what's going on, I do care, unlike your mother who could have cared less." He explains.
"Well I talked to him this morning and I told him how I felt, he really hurt me and he understands that. He said maybe one day we could be together, that just right now he knows he is straight but he is attracted to me. I told him we couldn't dad, I love him but I am not in love with him anymore. Is that right?" I tell him eating my salad.
"Son you can love him without being in love. Hell he was your first boyfriend, and he helped you get out from your mother's wrath. It's ok to feel like this." He tells me smiling.
"Thanks dad." I say continuing to eat my salad.
"So do you think you and Braiden will become an item?" he asks out of nowhere.
I almost choke on a piece of chicken, "DAD! You can't just ask that out of nowhere! Braiden is straight anyways." I tell him.
He puts his hands up in defence, "Hey, I just call it as I see it, I saw how he perked up when you came down the stairs the other day, well I think he would be good for you."
I just shake my head, we finish eating the food, dad pays the bill and as he is walking out the door I look back at Nick and he signals for me to call him I just smile and walk out with my dad.
As I get into the car, I feel my phone vibrate. It's a text from Braiden.
-Hey bro, want to come over possibly stay the night watch some movies?-
I text back -Yeah sounds cool, I just had lunch with my dad, he will probably swing me by there.-
-awesome bro! See you soon :)-
I smiled big, as I look at the phone, "Braiden?" my dad asks.
I nod, "yeah, how did you know?"
"He had that same smile when you came to the door the other day. Do you want to go to his house?" He asks.
"Yeah if you don't mind?" I ask looking over at him.
He smiles, "that's fine son, I have some papers to finish up I really did enjoy spending time with you maybe we can make it a weekly outing?."
"Yeah for sure dad I really enjoyed it." I tell him.
It doesn't take long to get to Braiden's house my dad knows right where it is, I don't ask how he knows that's just my dad. I guess everyone knows where everyone lives here.
I go to get out of the car, "here take some money in case you boys want to order pizza and some movies." My dad says handing me another fifty dollar bill.
"Dad you don't have to keep giving me money." I tell him.
"Just take it, it's not because I have to, it's because I want to!" he says placing the fifty in my hand.
I walk up to the door and it swings open revealing Braiden in a white shirt and red basketball shorts, and he has a huge smile on his face.
"Hey!" he says greeting me.
"Hi" I say blushing back.
He pulls me inside, "So what's up how's your day?"
I smile, "It's getting better, wasn't that great at first." I tell him.
"Want to talk about it?" he asks.
"Not yet, hey do you know where I can get a haircut?" I ask.
"Yeah, you want to go?" he asks slipping on his sandals.
I smile, "yeah I really want one, where's Ian?"
He gives me a smile, "with his grandparents this weekend, I will get him tomorrow morning since its Monday."
"Awesome, so where is there a good place to go get my hair cut?" I ask.
"I know just the girl to go ,she works right around the corner at the Hair Stop. She always does mine, she keeps it shaggy but stylish for me, she makes sure it doesn't look like a mop, what kind of style do you want?" he says getting into the car.
We start driving, and sure enough its right around the corner, "I don't know yet just I know its way to long, I don't like it down to my mouth!" I tell him.
We walk into the door and there is a blonde girl with pink in her hair, "Hey stud, where is my boy?" she asks.
I look between them not really understanding who she is talking to, I just look at Braiden.
Braiden smiles, "With the old folks, it's their weekend... Karen can you work some magic on my good friend here. He wants a haircut. By the way this is Kelly, Chasen, and Kelly, Chasen."
"She walks over and scopes me out, "you're cute, and you really do need a haircut, come sit in my chair cutie." She says pointing to a chair.
She starts to brush my hair, "I really don't know what I want I don't want it short but not this long." I tell her.
"Well do you trust me, ok don't answer that but Bray here does. I have been doing his hair for a few years now." She tells me.
I just nod, and she starts cutting away on my hair, she and Braiden talk a lot while she is snipping, and cutting away. I hear her get out the razor and shave the back of my neck where my hair has grown long. She does some more cutting on the sides, all the while she is chatting to Braiden about different guys in her life and about how her ex boyfriend was being a dick, trying to get back with her.
"So sweetie where you from?" she asks me.
"Florida." I tell her.
She giggles, "Awe you're a sunny boy huh? What brings you to California?"
"My ex cheated on me with a girl so I decided to move with my dad." I tell her
"Wait your girlfriend went lesbian on you? What the hell was she thinking you're a cutie." She exclaims.
I laugh so does Braiden, "Umm...not exactly my boyfriend cheated on me with a girl."
She stops cutting my hair and looks at me, "PERFECT all the cute guys are gay! But that's ok honey, you are here now so that's what matters!"
I grow red in the face and smile, "Thanks, but honestly besides Braiden I really don't know any guys."
She just laughs and gives Braiden a long look and announces that she is done!
I don't look into the mirror because honestly I'm scared shitless. I hear her stop and step away, "Well Bray what do you think?"
"I like it looks really good on him." He gushes.
I look into the mirror, wow it really does look good, it's not short but still long-shaggy I flip my hair fringe and it all flows just right.
"Well honey, whatcha think did I do a good job, ok I know I did but still you have gorgeous eyes!" she says brushing me off with the little hair duster.
I just smile, "you're awesome." I tell her.
"Thank you hun. First one is on the house since my boy brought you in even though he didn't bring my man to see me." She tells me.
We are on our way out and Kelly pulled Braiden aside, "If you want to go out with someone you know let me know and I will take care of my little Ian." She tells him and kisses his cheek.
We get back into the car I notice it's been almost two hours, "dude we were there for a long time, I didn't think it was that long! So how come you and Kelly never dated?" I ask trying to see what the whole thing was with him and her.
He laughs, "Dude first she is twenty four, and second she is Ian's God mother. Kelly is Riley's cousin, she is about the only one of Riley's family that doesn't hate me! Only because she knows how Riley really is. That and I am not interested in girls." He explains.
I keep itching at my neck, "Oh my god man I hate getting haircuts because then I itch from all the hair!" I complain.
"But your hair looks really good, and it's nice to see your eyes. I didn't know they were so blue." He says pulling into the drive way of his house.
"So where are your parents?" I ask.
"Left for the two days, it's their anniversary, and I didn't want to sleep in the house alone, especially since Ian isn't here either." He confesses.
We walk into the house and he turns on the lights in the living room, "Hey if you want to go shower to get all the hair off go ahead its right across from my room, I will order some pizza, I have a good movie to watch for us." He says.
"Yeah sounds cool, but dude I didn't bring any extra clothes with me." I tell him.
He laughs, "I will bring some and lay them on the counter for you, I am sure my boxers and stuff won't be that big on you."
I nod, and head to the shower. I strip my clothes off, wow I can't really believe I'm naked in Braiden's house I know even though it's nothing that sexual still!
I get into the shower and start to rinse myself off; I love the hot water cascading down my body. It feels so good I soap up my body and rinse it off, and start shampooing my hair.
I hear the bathroom door open, "I am glad that the shower curtain is dark so he can't see me! "Hey man I am going to leave them here ok." He tells me on the other side of the curtain.
"Ok." I tell him.
I finish shampooing my hair and reach for a towel drying myself off, I look at the clothes he brought in for me, the boxers have lightning bolts and blue basket ball shorts and a plain white shirt.
I put them on the boxers and shorts are a little big, and the shirt is too, but they fit really comfortably. It's crazy I don't want to sound stalkerish but they smell just like him and I like that fact.
I walk into the living room, and he isn't in there, I get a little scared, I still don't like dark rooms and not knowing where people are, "Braiden where are you?" I yell out.
"Come on I am in my room, we are going to watch it in here, I have the pizza, I went and got it." He yells from his room.
I walk into his room and sure enough he is on the bed with the pizza and the movie waiting on me, "Come on Chasen I got you some dr. pepper, I hope you like that."
I just smile, "yea that is good with me."
He looks me up and down, "Hey the clothes aren't too big on you, they look good."
I just blush, he is on the bed in his basketball shorts and no shirt, and he doesn't even know how good he looks right now. "So what movie are we watching?"
"The new nightmare on elm street! I am a huge horror fan and I haven't seen it. So I thought why not invite one of my favourite people over and watch it with pizza!" he says smiling.
Oh my god I hate scary movies is the first thing I think to myself, only cause I get so scared easily, and he doesn't know how intoxicating he is to be around, that smile of his can get me drunk!
I crawl onto the bed and we start to eat the pizza as he presses play on the remote...
Ok he didn't mention how damn scary this movie was, at least to me I keep jumping and he smiles every time I do, then it gets all quiet, and out of nowhere the damned evil guy pops up and I scream and grab Braiden hand!
I look at what I just did and I quickly let go of his hand, "Sorry!" I say really quick.
He gives me another killer smile, "Dude it's ok to hold my hand if you're scared."
I just looked at him, "No I don't want to make it weird sorry just I am not good at scary movies."
What he does next surprises me, he pulls me closer and holds my hand, "Dude it's ok. It is not a big deal man." He tells me and gives me that smile that makes me weak in the stomach.
I really don't remember much after that, I mean I kind of fell asleep on his bare chest, the rhythm of his breathing soothed me so much, I don't know if it was my imagination or if he was really playing with my hair as I fell asleep.
I woke up and looked over at the clock that was directly across from me, it was three fourteen am, I put my head back down only then did I notice it really wasn't a pillow. I looked down I was laying on Braiden's chest! I almost freaked but I looked at his calm face he was fast asleep, and it didn't look like he was bothered he still had his arm around me.
I moved my head off his chest and onto a pillow causing him to stir, I heard him mumble, "babe what are you doing I was comfortable."
I look over and his was still fast asleep, I bet he was dreaming of some girl, I know he wasn't talking about me at all like that. Maybe...nah it couldn't be referring to me.
I felt the eyes of someone staring at me, I open my eyes and Bray is looking at me, "Morning sleepy." He says and smiles at me.
"UGH! Morning." I moan out.
"Not much of a morning person are you" he asks laughing.
I groan again, "No I love sleeping, what time is it?"
He laughs again, "seven. So I have a question?"
I look at him, "What! Seven am are you crazy? And what's the question?"
He leans back rubbing his abs, "Do you want to go to the Zoo, with me and Ian?"
"The Zoo?" I ask not really understanding.
He gets a look of defeat, "never mind I just thought maybe, you wanted to spend more time with me, but I guess having a kid isn't exactly terms to hang out?" he says almost looking like he wants to cry.
I laugh, "NO! I am just in shock! I haven't ever been to the zoo! That and I really want to spend time with you and Ian, I think it's really cool that you have him."
He looks up at me, with what looks like almost tears in his eyes, "Really? You want to spend time with me and Ian?"
"Yeah I really do! Bray I got to ask you a question, are you gay?" I ask.
He just looks at me, his mouth open I can't tell if it's a good thing or not.
I stutter and get out of his bed, "I'm sorry I shouldn't have asked that, I just better go."
He grabs my hand and pulls me back on the bed, "Please don't go, and look...truth is I have always been gay, hell before I was pressured into having sex with Riley, I had a few boyfriends in the town over.
Just I couldn't have one here because of the friends I had. But when Ian came along I stopped dating, I just I have been so lonely and sad, don't get me wrong I love Ian that boy is my life! But I also want someone to be able to share what happiness he brings me. Hell Kasey knows I am gay and so does Alex and Clay they just never said anything to you cause well none of them but Kasey knew you were gay."
"Kasey knows I am gay?" I ask shocked.
"Yeah the night you outed yourself to me, we talked about it on the way home she had you pegged to be gay, but I told her no, you couldn't be. Chasen I like you I do, but I know you aren't ready for a relationship considering what has happened with Tanner...I just want to be close to you.
I don't know, there's just this pull about you that makes me want to be close to you and not just sexually, I mean yeah you are smoking hot, just I don't know you make me really happy when you are around." He confesses to me.
I just look at him, "I can't believe you are gay! Bray I do like you a lot hell I go home floating on a cloud after spending time with you, but you're right, I am not ready for a relationship, not just yet. Maybe soon, I know I will be able to, just it's still all fresh. That's why I want to spend time with you. Don't take it wrong I really like you a lot; just I don't want you to be a rebound boyfriend for me. That and are you sure your gay?"
He laughs, "Chasen, I have had five boyfriends of course I never had sex with them but we made out and all. I understand that's why I am not pushing, can we just hang out and well when you are ready I will be too, let's just see where this goes. I just never tried to date after Ian, because if I did I am scared that Riley's mom and dad will try to take custody of Ian."
"My dad won't let that happen you know that, I think I would like to see where this goes let's not pressure ourselves into thinking we have to jump into a relationship, and I still can't believe you're gay!" I tell him smiling.
He hugs me and it feels so good I hug him back, "Yeah I am a pretty gay man, girls just don't do it for me, hell the only reason I slept with Riley was cause of the pressure and the alcohol, I hated it!"
We talk a little longer, and he notices it's time to go get Ian and we make plans that after he gets Ian that he will swing back by my house and pick me up so we can go to the zoo. ------------------------------------------------------------------ Well here is ch. 3 sorry it took so long! Can you believe all that has transpired! I wonder what going to happen with these two will they start dating, or no? Plus just a few days away is Chasen's birthday wonder what excitement could happen there!
I really want too say thank you to everyone for the kind emails, while I took my break...I hated to do it but I needed to after I did take a break I looked back at this chapter and I loved it I sat down an I just couldn't stop writing it! I really hope you enjoy it I am so lucky to have readers like yall!
tY: Hey guys :) We finally find out that Bray is really gay, will they end up dating? I wonder what Ryan will be up to now? School should be starting soon, that'll be interesting. We also got to know Kyle a bit too, hope to see him a little more next chapter though.
Reading this of course you gathered that KD is off his break and I'm sure you appreciate it as much as I do, let him know how much :) it's my turn for a break. I'm off work for a week and I'm spending it with the BF and doing other things on my long list.