Some Sense of Security

By KD Stories

Published on Sep 3, 2010

Gay

This story is fiction and is not intended to imply anything about the true sexuality of the This story contains sexual contact between to underage males if this is illegal to read where you live then please hit the back button now and do not read on! Everything in this story is PURE FICTION made up by me all the characters, and where it takes place is all fiction even the names please do not copy it and post it anywhere else Feel free to email me k.davids@ymail.com

So this is part two I just yet felt the first chapter was rushed I want to give a little history or both Characters most will be Chasen and then Tanner and towards the end I will hit back to the present and its going to be a long one! I want to thank the people that have emailed and commented yall have given me so much support and I thank you!


I laid on my bed just ignoring the agonizing pain my ribs where giving me I was focusing on when things where not this bad, honestly its been like this for awhile but there where great times mom used to be happy she worked as a nurse and well dad was a lawyer but it all got strange.

It was my eighth grade year it all changed I came home me and my best friend Matthew well he was actually a little more than my best friend he was my boyfriend, we never did anything sexual but we did kiss and it was great at that. So yes that would make me a 16 year old virgin right now, but I remember the day I came home it was November 8th it was just starting to get a little chilly in Florida not cold as other places but a little chill. I walked into my house and my dad wasn't home which was unusual, because he always was home by the time I came back From Matt's house.

Looking into the living room I saw the coffee table turned over along with most of the furniture I began to panic I ran to my parents bedroom and I was about to knock, but I heard my mom softly crying in her room it stopped me dead in my tracks I couldn't even remember when I ever heard or saw my mom cry she was usually the most happy person in the house I got most of my looks from her the thin body frame the blonde hair and the full lips. My eyes are the only thing I got of my fathers.

I slowly opened the door and my mom was sitting on her bed crying in her hands I slowly walked to her and asked what was wrong. She just looked up at me her big blue eyes swollen and red from all the crying.

She took my face in her hands and looked at me and told me, "Oh, Hunny things are going to be different around here ok. Your father has left..." and she starts crying more

"Gone where momma?" I ask not fully understanding what she meant.

"Baby hens been cheating on us, he has another family, another lady he is with and kids with her, he isn't coming back Chasen its just going to be me and you okay a lot of things are going to change."

"Change how? Were going to be fine mom right?"

"Chasen, we half to move across town I can't afford the house on my own, I have already found a place for us to move to."

At first I didn't know what to think everything I knew was getting turned upside down all the security I had is gone I had none now not that I felt we moved across the tracks into well not the rich neighborhood at all no big house that I was used to it was a small house with two rooms mine wasn't very big, but I was ok with it, it was the same distance from Matt so I was ok with it honestly. But it started to get worse, well my mom started to get worse.

She never smiled anymore I would come home and she would be sitting in a chair just staring at a picture of me her and dad. Then her job started to take notice in how different she was so the put her on nights. That's when it all took a huge downfall I came home and she was drinking I just looked at her because I have never seen my mom drink at all.

"mom are you drinking?"

"Well I certainly not eating the damn thing now am I?"

"Ok I just never seen you drink that's all. Are you going to work?"

"No they gave me a few weeks off. They think I needed it."

"Oh, ok well can Matt still come over? You said he could because you'd be pulling a whole weekend shift his mom said it was fine."

"Whatever just don't be disruptive. You understand?" she looked sternly at me I have never seen her like this she never was.

Matt eventually comes over and he says a polite hello to my mom and we run to my room and shut it, as soon as the door is closed he leans in and kisses me. I smile and hug him and kiss him back and giggle.

"So...I guess are plans for the weekend are over?" he asks as he site on my bed.

"NO! We can still just have fun do whatever just stay out of my moms hair, she's drinking I never seen her drink before." I tell him while sitting next to him holding his hand.

"Dude where have you been you didn't hear?" he looks at me with surprised face.

"What are you talking about?" I look at him wondering what the world he is implying.

"About your mom? I had to beg my mom to let me come over her just because your mom was supposed to be at work." He looked at me and dropped my hand from his and asked if I knew.

"Matt? Know what, what are you talking about? Why would your mom care if my mom's home were boyfriends hell we been best friends for years?"

"Your mom is a drunk Chasen! She got suspended from her job last week where have you been?"

"Shut up! Matt don't talk about my mom like that you don't know what your talking about."

"Chasen yes I do! My dad pulled her over last week she was drunk I thought you knew? You know my dads a cop hear in town."

I don't know what came over me but I just started to bawl and I leaned into Matt and hung on for dear life I didn't know what was going on first my dad leaves and now he tell me his dad pulled my mom over for drunk driving, and she is suspended from her job. I just don't know what to expect next.

Matt picks my head up and kisses me and at that exact moment my mom comes stumbling through my door. We freeze both caught with panic, I can't imagine what this even looks like to her. She looks right at us and says "Matt I think its time you left my house, and don't come back. Chasen I will deal with you later." And with that she left

Matt gets up just as fast I grab his hand and he looks like he seen a ghost and tell me to just leave him alone, I chase after him out of the house and plead with him to talk to me he turns and shoves me away.

"Please Chasen! Just don't! Leave me alone ok I...I can't let my folks find out about you ok I cant be gay or like boys. So just leave me alone and don't try to talk to me at school." He shouts as he picks his bike up and goes.

I sit there and watch him go I don't even think I fully comprehended what happened all I remember is him telling me my moms a drunk and her walking in to him leaving it just happened all so fast, I turn to go back into the house I'm shaking and scared I don't know what's going to happen next.

I walk to my room I don't see my mom, and I am relieved she appears in my door way with another glass in her hand and I see a belt in the other. I back up to the other side of my wall and watch her as she slowly saunters into my room.

"Mom, it wasn't what you thought ok I just I found out about you getting suspended from your job and that your drinking now." I say

"No what I saw was my son kissing another boy!" she shouts at me and moves closer, "what I do in none of your business little boy, I will not tolerate having a faggot in my house you hear me!"

With that she gets in my face shoving me against the wall and I start to cry a little and ask her not to shove me, "Why not, you think you're a big boy to stick your nose in my business and be a little faggot under my roof, I provide the food, the house your home just to have you judge me about drinking and to be a gay is that what you are Chasen a homo?"

I just nod I don't know what else to do her breathe reeks of alcohol, and I gag as she screams more. As soon as I nodded that's when I felt the glass she had thrown at me hitting me in the head, and before I knew it she was hitting me with the belt I felt the leather bite at the skin on my arms as I tried to keep the belt from hitting my face or any other part.

"I WILL NOT HAVE A FAGGOT IN MY HOUSE! DO YOU HEAR ME?" she screams as she continues to hit me with the belt over and over again I gave up the use of trying to block the blows, because they didn't stop I don't know when they did I probably passed out from the pain.

That was the start of her drunken rage over the last few years that was a mild beating that I have received from her and she made it known to whoever would listen that I was gay well that's not the term she used but its what she did she made my life a living hell.

As for Matt Well he's the super jock at our school the quarterback the one with the head cheerleader as his girlfriend and well he made sure to make me miserable he didn't want anyone to know that we were once boyfriends if that what we even where. I pretty much isolated myself from everyone after that happened I mean I couldn't let no one close to me, because they'd find out what my mom was and having a boy that's a friend that was a absolute no!

---------------------------------the present------------------------------------

I mean sure I still looked at boys and well a lot where my jack-off fantasies I am a teenage boy I have needs, even if I don't get to touch I have it all in my mind I mean I haven't really even thought about anal sex honestly it kinda scares me!. But as far as having another Boyfriend no its not happened since Matt, I have kind of made sure to not let anyone close to me I don't really have any friends I just kind of try to be invisible and tell the new freshman girls that I am gay yeah that's always hard to do, but its better I tell them and keep them away from me, because if not well they like to get aggressive since when do girls act like guys like I am a piece of meat the want so bad?

I don't know why I lean back on my twin bed with two pillows and I just laugh to myself honestly who would ever think my life would ever be so fucked up. I grab my phone again and I just look at the text from Tanner, I can picture that lopsided smile that he gave me earlier it was just perfect. Honestly though he can't be gay I mean he does have that one girl following him around I can't even think of her name at the moment. I know he runs cross country well I think he does I saw him in the uniform not like I'm stalking him or anything I just think he looks really, really good in them.

I throw my phone on the bed and go to my mirror and take off my shirt to examine the damage my lovely mother has done to me, as I pull my shirt off I notice a few bruises and discoloration already starting on my ribs light yellowish-purple bruises trailing there way across my whole abdomen I look at the little four pack I have I kind of smile and think at least its something its not like every other person I have heard oh the major god like six pack. Plus if I did have one I don't think my little frame would look good with it. I traces the bruises with my finger wincing a little bit as it hurts, but its ok at least I know I can feel and it lets me know I'm alive. Unlike my mother who seems to be the ice queen lately.

I look over at the clock its only 7pm I hesitantly think about replying back to Tanner but I just don't know I'm way to nervous and I don't feel that up to it I could lie and say I have home work, yeah that's what I'm going to do I look at the text as I get ready to send it I don't want him to hate me cause I'm avoiding him just I don't want to slip up in front of him and him act like Matt did or mess up a friendship, I just think its better to not have him as a friend.

I send the text it's a complete lie and I feel horrible about it but I just don't want to take a chance. A barely put down the phone and it buzzes and its from Tanner, saying he could help if I want he would come over......this is going to be harder he's way to nice I just don't understand why he is. I said a quick reply that say no that's ok I got it.

Tanners POV--------------------------------------------------------------------

I read his text of course I should have known it was going to be a no. I don't know what he doesn't want to be friends with me. I know I sound like a little kid but it really bugs me. I'm one of those people who like to talk and help everyone no matter what!

I just feel this pull towards Chasen; I don't know how to explain it. I never considered myself gay and I still don't hell I don't even consider myself straight I just love people. Of course I can't tell Kristy that she follows me everywhere and acts as if we date but truth is I have never kissed anyone and I'm 17! Crazy I know, but hey it's all good with me.

I mean I have heard rumors about Chasen's family and well about him being gay, but I really don't care I just think he would be a cool friend to have I mean its not like he has a lot of friends, at least I don't think so I mean he acts like a ghost in school you never see him with anyone and his head is always down like he's hiding or ashamed. I just think he could use a friend and I think I could be him!

I know I am nothing but an optimist, I love being happy everything I do well gives me pleasure and not that kind you perv ha-ha, but I do go running every morning three miles, not only does it just feel good but it does keep me in shape all year round I run cross country maybe Chasen would come to one of my runs? Ahh there I go again thinking about him.

I guess it started in lunch I was bored and looking around the cafeteria, and I saw him in the corner at a little table and he was just picking at his food and about every 20 seconds he would move his bangs out from his face he looked completely miserable and I just got this feeling he could use me as a friend. From then on I just couldn't help but notice him just something about him draw my attention to him I mean he was actually one of my well pleasure fantasies and well it kind of scared the hell out of me when I was finished I have never really thought of anyone when I jerked but I did his green eyes and full lips and blonde hair. Plus it was a totally accident that I saw him walking today in the rain. I wasn't to sure it was him but from how he put his head down in defeat, but yet he carried his self as if he was stronger than what was on the outside it looked like it I'm glad it was. I really did just want to get to know him seems like he needs a friend.

Hearing my stomach growl, I wonder what my mom made for dinner, pops should be here soon, plus I need to get my brother out of the pool jeez being an older brother is a pain, Troy is 15 two years younger than me I love him to death but don't get me wrong he is a pain in the ass, but he is really cool he has major asthma so I kinda get stuck with the duty of watching out for him when he does hard exercise but I also try to help he runs with me twice a week, the funny thing is he's like a little mini me we look just alike only if he was taller we could be twins.

I walk down the stairs and see my mom still is cooking I walk down and give her a hug and I go yell for Troy to get out because dinners almost ready with that I bound back up stairs and I think I will go shower before dinner. As I'm showing I let my mind wander and a great idea pops into my head ima sit with Chasen at lunch he isn't going to avoid me that easily Im not going to allow that. as I soap up my body from head to toe paying extra attention to areas that need to be cleaned and I am working my self up cause I let my mind wander a little to far and I hear a knock on the door telling me to hurry up dinner is almost ready....Damn I guess it will just half to wait

-------------------------------------------------------------------------- Chasen's POV

I feel really bad about lying to Tanner but I just couldn't face him not after the little encounter with my mother. I just get so defeated about how im treated and finally someone wants to be m friend and I blew him off...I decided to go ahead and shower, stepping in I let the hot water hit me and it feels good my muscles are tense from the run in with the ice queen who is now passed out so im free to roam the house if I dared but I don't. The bathroom steams up from the hot water and I just slump down into the shower and I let the tears flow and I cant help but cry, but then I start too laugh and tell my self I'm stronger than this I have been dealing with the ice queen for years I'm not going to let her get to me now.

The water finally starts to go cold that means I have used all the hot water, so I finally get up and dry my self off I slide some boxers over me and I go to lay in my bed I look around my room and notice how everything I used to have is gone there isn't much in my room anymore except a bed dresser and a desk with a lamp all my stuff either was thrown away because it was broken or taken from me. As I lay on the bed I slowly slide my hand over my chest slowly causing goosebumps over me and wondering what it would be like to be touched in away that wasn't hurting but a loving way I really don't know when I fall asleep but the next thing I know is my alarm from my phone is blaring so loud I almost fall off my bed.

I get up and stretch causing the kinks in my muscles to pop and I let out a groan as my ribs scream back at me I double over and move to the mirror and check them over the bruises have gone dark blue and purple, the travel all over my body even some on my chest. I stand there looking at them and I hear my phone go off.

"Hey! You wanna ride to school its still storming??"-Tanner

"Nah its ok I got this, but thanks."

"Well kind of to late...I'm outside waiting for you, hope your not mad?"- Tanner

The last text sends fits of laughter through me and I start to cough because my ribs are sore. Now I start to mildly panic I don't know what to actually wear I run to the closet, I pick out a pair of jeans that fit right no there not skinny jeans, yes I do own a pair but I take care of them they re way to expensive for me, I put my jeans on looking for a shirt, I finally find one that I think is right, its mid sleeved shirt so the sleeves don't come all the way like a long sleeve just to the middle of my arm and its one of my favorite its blue.

I make a dash to the bathroom and brush my teeth quick and I grab my backpack and I slowly sneak out of the house I'll be damned if I wanna have a run in with the Ice Queen this morning. Just like he said he was there waiting for me I get nervous, but I quickly battle it away its not like he is gay he probably found out about my family and feels bad for me. As I walk across the yard he smiles and my knees just want to melt! If I could know that smile was just for me I would be the happiest boy on earth.

"About time man I thought I was going to half to come in and drag you out" Tanner smile as he unlocks the passenger door.

"Well I take my time." I say smiling a little but not to overdue it and make him think I'm flirting.

"So Chase has jokes this morning?"

I just smile its cute he has a pet name for me, I don't think anyone's ever called me Chase? He smiles and we start down the rode to school, if you think I'm not nervous well let me reassure you I am I feel like I'm sweating buckets because I don't know what to expect.

"Tanner I have to ask you why are you being so nice to me?" I ask with my head down.

"Well we are friends right? I mean you do text me just a little and this is the second ride I have offered; besides I think you're a interesting person and would make a good friend." Tanner say looking at me and offers that smile that makes me want to melt right then and there.

--------------------------------------------------------------------------- That is part to yes I have just left it hanging I think I have given enough background on Chasen, and well Tanner seems to be still unknown in a lot of ways in chapter three will be starting off in Tanners POV and more insight on who and what he feels.

Next: Chapter 3


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