I have been informed that it would be a good idea to state a few warning comments. There may be graphic sexual scenes between men in this story, so please, if this offends you, or it is illegal or you are underaged to read such, stop here and hit your "back" button. If it is okay with you, read on and enjoy. I also want to thank Nifty for the opportunity to post my stories here. I have met some very nice people and been afforded an opportunity to express myself as never before. The feedback I have received here has encouraged me on to write more. Thanks to you all. >From Chapter 19:
"Actually, I feel very scared - about this." (Brian's testing)
"I know. I can tell. Really there's very little reason for any concern."
"Will you call me when the results come in?"
"Of course I will -- if that's what you want."
"It is." I affirmed.
"And Seth?"
"Yes?"
"I love you too -- Baby Boy!"
Chapter 20
When we got up, there was a message waiting on the phone. It was from Jake, asking us if we wanted to come over for leftovers. We said yes. "Boy, you guys must have gotten home late last night, Seth! I called after 1130."
"Or just maybe," I teased, "We were busy!"
"OH! Okay, my hot little cousin! Rob says hi!"
"Tell him hi back, and tell him he was always my first choice!" I winked at Brian.
I heard Jake passing along my comment, then Rob laughed and said, loud enough for me to hear, "You know you were always my favorite little brother! I'll always protect you!" I laughed, but I was glad Brian didn't hear that. I said goodbye and hung up the phone.
"What was that all about?"
"Just Rob, coming on to me!"
"Rob -- the big guy? I thought he was straight!"
"He is! He fancies me his little brother. He has saved me, along with my brother, twice. Well, more than that, but that's another story."
"and since we are so busy, you were not going to tell me about it, right?"
"Something like that."
"Well, since I am going to be busy making us breakfast and you will have nothing better to do, maybe you can tell me!"
I don't want to make too much of it -- but," I started, "Once when I was staying with my brother, Craig and Rob, he started tickling me. I am very ticklish."
"Oh HO! I didn't even know that!"
"Never you mind! Anyway -- well you KNOW what he looks like!"
"You mean like a Greek god?"
"Something like that! Anyway he was tickling me and it was not only tickling me, but I was also getting very aroused! I came all over both of us. And then I ran into then other room, VERY embarrassed! I was only 17! He came in and apologized. But ever after, he won't let anyone tickle me. I just can't tell him that it was HIM tickling me that did it!"
"Oh. I see."
"No, Bri, obviously you don't see. That was last year! Even before Luke!"
"But if he wasn't straight - "
"Then who knows what may have happened! But he IS and WE didn't!"
"Sorry, I was just -- never mind."
"Yeah like I'm going to let you get away with that!"
"It's nothing, Sweetheart!"
"Okay, uh, I think that crossed the line."
"What?"
"No terms of endearment when endearment is not meant!"
"You're right! But really it is nothing."
"Try me!" I challenged him.
"Now I feel like the little kid! Jealousy is so immature."
"Actually it makes me feel kind of special, in a way."
"Well, now whenever I see you with Rob, I will -- think of this. And THAT!! Is he big?"
"Well, 6'-5" is not small, you know."
"You know what I mean!"
"Well, I didn't but I guess I do now! So what makes you think I know that?"
"Well, don't you?"
"Bri -- <> (I said it with special sarcasm) -- , please don't be -- this way! Jake has a gym type shower with multiple shower stations. And I have taken showers with the other guys, including Rob. He's about -- normal."
"Okay! Want bacon or sausage?"
"I think I had enough sausage last night!"
"Maybe YOUR'S is a sausage! Mine's more like a - "
"Vienna sausage?!"
"Hey! Bite me!"
"I think I did enough of THAT last night too!"
"Well just don't forget -- we both had a little "bacon" last night too!"
"Yeah! And it was -- nice, too! Just the way I like it."
"Oh! How's that?"
"Hot and stiff!"
"Your killin' me here, Sweetie!"
"I had to do something to get you to stop stressing about Rob!"
When we got to Uncle Jake's, we first went up to the guesthouse. I knocked.
The door flew open, and Rob saw me and picked me up like a rag doll! He whirled me around like I was a 5 year old, then kept me sitting on his hands, nose to nose! "Seth! I have missed you!" And he put me down, but not until he hugged me close, and kissed me on the nose. I noticed Brian watching all this with -- interest.
"Last time I saw you, you were so mesmerized with Carrie -- I didn't think you remembered me!" I teased.
He laughed, like he was a bit embarrassed. "We -- ah -- we're kind of like -- on a little break."
"Wow!" I said, "You mean like Ross and Rachel?"
"Sort of." And he finally put me down. We walked in and there was Buck!
"Buck!" Brian said. I didn't expect -- I mean - "
"Jake called this morning and invited me. He thought for some reason there must have been some misunderstanding last time we met." He smiled sheepishly. "I just got here myself." I've been talking to -- your brother, is it?"
"Chris?"
"Craig."
"Chris is my brother -- Craig is his partner."
"Ah. Well anyway we were just waiting for Jake to get back from - "
"Mom says it's time to eat!" Jake announced. "So get all your queer-butts down there ASAP! OH! You and Rob can come too!" he said looking at Buck.
We were just getting into the leftover turkey dinner from yesterday, when Brian's beeper went off. He looked at it. "Gotta go! They are in a heap of trouble in emergency. Buck, can you take Seth back to my place on your way back to Mom and Dad's?"
"That's okay!" I said. "I think I'll just stay here and visit with my brother and the guys. Can't you come back and get me?"
"It may be an all-nighter."
"That's okay too! I'm used to sleeping here!" Brian looked at me with surprise -- and maybe something else -- in his eyes.
"Okay. Um, I guess I'll call you if it looks like it'll be all night."
"K." And he ran out the door. I felt myself relax a little. Was it my imagination that I seemed to see Rob doing the same? After dinner, Jake invited everyone into the theater room to see a video he had rented. All the "kid"s went, except Carrie. She was quieter than I'd ever seen her.
The theater room is fixed up with a couch, a bunch of chairs and 2 love seats. Buck sat with Jake and Colin, on the couch. Chris and Craig curled up on a love seat, with Ursula and Uri on their laps. That left a love seat and a bunch of chairs for Rob and I. The love seats were much more comfy than the chairs and Rob saw me looking at it. He said, "Wanna share?"
"Sure!" I said.
As soon as the movie was going, Rob whispered to me, "It's been a long time since I have curled up with my little brother!"
I felt immediate stiffening in my groin. I just smiled up at him. I couldn't help noticing him adjusting his own a moment later. He saw me watching and it was too dark to see how red I knew he was. The movie was nearly over when Carrie came in and announced that Brian was on the phone for me. They paused the vidoe for me.
"Looks like I will be here for the duration. Are you sure it's okay with you to stay there?" Brian said.
"Yeah! I'll be fine. Their couch is very comfortable."
When I got back, Rob was kind of half laying on the love seat. I sat on a chair. He got up and said, "No, noooo! You can come back here!"
"You just looked so comfortable I didn't want to bother you."
"You couldn't bother me! You're my little brother!" he reiterated.
So I went back to the love seat. But he didn't move. I stood there for a moment. Our love seat was behind the rest, and the movie was already going again. Finally rather than move, Rob just beckoned to me, with his fingers, to lay beside him. I did and he wrapped his big arms around me. "I have missed having you sleep with me occasionally. You are going to sleep with me tonight aren't you?
"I had thought about the couch. It's plenty comfortable."
"Not as comfortable -- and warm -- as sleeping with me!"
The movie ended, and Chris said, "You know where the extra blankets are, bro!"
"He's sleeping in with me tonight." Rob said. No one commented. Buck left and we all retired up to the guest house.
Rob's bed was a California king, so there was plenty of room for us both. When we were both in and lights out, Rob said, "I wish I knew what was going on with Carrie."
"What's going on?" I asked.
"This `break' was her idea."
"I know my cousin, Rob. She is not used to being as -- um -- celibate -- as you want to remain. That's probably hard on her."
"I know that's right. But," his voice cracked, "I'm really afraid. She is so much crazier than I am. Sometimes I don't think we belong together, and then -- right now I feel so frustrated! I want her -- sexually even -- but -- I don't know -- somehow it's just so important to me to wait until we are married. I wish I knew what to do."
"Follow your heart, I guess."
He then reached out and pulled me to him, my back to his chest. This put his member directly in-between my legs, and the head was pressing on my anus! I was not lying about the size of it to Brian. It is about average -- for a guy his size! Certainly not as big or long as Robert's, but not small like mine, either! I could hear him sniffling. His arms were contracting with his strained breathing, and each time, his arm squeezed my chest close to him, and his organ pushed at my sphincter. I was hard as a rock, but of course he didn't know. I was wondering if he didn't know he was pushing so hard on my butt.
I finally grabbed it and moved it, then slid down slightly so it was not between my legs any more.
As soon as I touched him, he grabbed mine and I exclaimed, "Hey! What're we doing?"
He paused for a long time, then said, "Don't brothers do this sometimes?"
"Well, Chris and I never have."
"But a lot do, right?" and he was squeezing mine as he talked. I was about ready to blow. Then I did! I started to squirm a lot and then my breathing became ragged.
"Rob! I'm -- I'm" and I squeaked a little, and the cried out a little. He cupped his big hand around it and caught as much as he could, then wrung out as much as he could.
When I was finished, I said, sarcastically, "Wow! I've never been raped before!"
"Oh, oh, OH! SETH! I'm so sorry! He started to cry and he was squeezing me very hard and kissing me all over my neck and face. "I didn't mean to -- I mean -- I don't believe -- please, don't be -- " And he started crying. I had never heard Rob cry. It was absolutely heart wrenching! "I'm so sorry, little Seth!" His lips found my mouth! He was out of control!. He was crying and hugging me, rubbing my back and butt! I used to dream about this!
Then his tongue tried to probe my mouth. I opened up and met it with my own. We were both in the throes of passion! Then it happened. His hips were gyrating wildly and then it was his turn to erupt. I almost instinctively jackknifed down and took most of it in my mouth. When he was finished, I swallowed most of his product and then came back up and kissed him again. When it was all over, we were laying there, almost comatose and then I started to sob. This was not right! I could not blame Rob! He was only three years older than I was, and obviously more vulnerable than I was.
So who took advantage of whom? I wept pretty openly for awhile and then Rob started in.
"Seth, can you ever forgive me!? I completely lost it! I don't know what to say! I've never done anything even close to that!"
"Rob," I tried to gain some control of myself. "I -- don't blame you! You did not force yourself on me. I mean you kind of did, but if I had objected more, you would have stopped -- wouldn't you have?"
"I -- I think so! I'm not QUEER, Seth! I'm NOT!!!! But I've always loved you so much! And you ARE like a little brother to me. Can't we just consider this a brotherly -- I don't know, a - "
"A brotherly romp in the sack?" I tried to make it lighter.
"What are you -- do you -- have to -- tell your -- doctor -- about this."
"Rob, if you only knew how complicated this is for me!"
"Wha- why? What is it little brother? Can I do anything -- for you? I'll do anything! Do you want me to tell your guy I raped you? I will if that's what you want! I didn't want to do anything to -- Gosh, Seth, I am so sorry!"
"No Rob! You have to know I have ALWAYS wanted you to do that -- and more -- to -- no, - WITH -- me!" I was crying again. "I have to handle this one myself. I was -- after that first assault -- as out of control as you were!"
"But -- but -- but -- do we have to -- tell -- anybody about -- what we did?"
"I was asking myself that very question two nights ago, Rob."
"WHY!?"
I started to sob and could hardly speak. I told him what happened.
"And I just played right into your little drama, and took advantage of your vulnerable position! I -- Seth -- I feel lower than pond scum!"
"Maybe you're right, Rob. Maybe we shouldn't tell anyone and try to forget it ourselves."
"I'm inclined to -- well, I can't tell -- I just have a very hard time lying, and I'm not totally sure I can do it, but -- maybe we should -- not tell."
"Maybe. I'll go sleep on the couch, now."
"NO!" he exclaimed -- "I mean, no, it -- it -- I need you more than ever right now -- not in a sexual way -- just to hold me and -- reassure me it's going to be all right! And besides. If someone sees you on the couch -- there may be questions."
I relaxed back into his arms -- and fell into a troubled sleep. I dreamed that I was asleep in the arms of an angle, and when I woke up -- still dreaming -- it as if we were flying and the angel became superman -- except it was Rob this time. We flew over Brian's hose, and I was relieved that he was not there. We flew over my house and Eddie was pointing and laughing at us. Then here I was over Luke's in Hawaii, again. This time he was looking up at me and he was crying. I was very sad until the angel/super-Rob squeezed me. I woke up! Rob really was squeezing me, apparently having a dream of his own. He squeezed me rhythmically for several moments then started breathing hard and came again -- but never woke up. I just let it run down my back between us. I fell asleep again, ignoring the sticky goo between us.
In the morning, I was not the first up -- as I usually was -- and my brother popped his head in and the door opening woke me up. He looked very surprised to see us so closely snuggled. "Time to get up, sleepy heads!" and he left the room.
We got out of bed, and it was obvious to me that Rob knew what had happened in his dream. He didn`t say anything, but headed for the showers. I followed. We were met in there by both Jake and Colin. There is only three shower stations there, so Rob took the one which was left. I kept my back to the wall, as I waited for one of then to finish. I was sure they could see the mess on my back, but I don't think they did!
As I backed up to the shower, feeling it's cleansing warmth wash the spunk off me, I noticed anew Rob's magnificent softy. I had to look away to keep from getting hard. I finished in the shower and when I came back into the bedroom, Rob said, "Seth, a little brotherly -- counsel. You are 18 years old. I am 22! A lot of maturing takes place in that time. You must not blame yourself at all, for last night. Any 18 year old -- with his still teen hormones raging, might have done the same thing. I expect your doctor understands this. If you want I still will talk to him!"
"Thanks, Rob. I'll let you know."
"Okay. Just don't be too hard on yourself. Blame me!"
Notes: I did not -- I repeat -- DID NOT see that coming! Ah, the folly of youth! I hope Brian is as understanding and wonderful as Rob is! Or does Brian even have to know? Do secrets ever really work? Comments, please! Address any to Steve at s4d@hotmail.com. Write "Seth" on the subject line. Thanks -- and love! Steve